The vent about how I'm currently feeling, a simultaneous sense of rage and sadness & emptiness. I feel lost.

The question "why don't you care?" isn't aimed at another person, its aimed at me. Why don't I seem to care about the things that I say that I do? I'm not where I want to be with my art because I haven't been putting in enough time. Why? When I ask myself this, I have no explanation. When I think of what I want to do with my life, art is the answer. I'm not good enough at anything else, and I certainly don't care as much about anything else. But if I don't care enough about art to put the time in, where does that leave me?

I was also turned down for a management position that I applied for at my current place of work, and the reason that they gave me was that it seems that I do not care enough. But I feel that I DO care about the place here I work. I like my co-workers, I like my managers and I like the job itself well enough. Even though I won't lie and say that food service is where I want to see myself in 5 years, I feel that I care more about work ethic and self-motivation than most of my co-workers.

Even though I feel that I care about these things, have I not taken the right actions to show it and to earn these things I have set out for?

Quick doodle in Photoshop, about 40 minutes because I'm rusty with the program.