Been a while since I've done a rant.

To kind of explain where I've been the past few months: I have TMJ fucking up my jaw... the result of an accident many years ago that gave me such severe whiplash my neck was practically pushed >in<. I did the therapy and such but TMJ is something I've been dealing with ever since. But now my trigeminal nerve (more medical terms woo) is all wonky so I go day to day with nerve pain shooting through the left side of my face randomly. For the past few months I've been getting headaches and migraines roughly every 3-5 days. Bad ones. The doctor I was seeing was a piece of shit, totally disregarded everything I said. (They're the kind of doctor that thinks all I want is pain medication. When in fact, I don't. I can't take heavy pain meds, they wreck my stomach and, funny enough, result in me feeling wired on caffeine so I can't sleep. I feel more pain and I'm wide awake... I totally want more of that.) Regardless, they got pissy at me when I told them that "no, it's not in my sinuses, that's not where the pain is." They made me pay for an MRI. I found out afterwards, it was for... my sinus. They're no longer my doctor and I'm still waiting to see my new one in May. This shit started in late January mind you. And since then, there's also been some emotional shit I won't go into happening but mostly I really would like to have life cut me some slack here. Oh, also had a tooth pulled, it was fun. And on the same side the nerve pain in my jaw was. However, sadly, it wasn't the tooth causing the pain in my nerve but it sure as hell wasn't helping.

However, trying to get back some of that doodling spark I've shelved for a good few months. I've decided, if anything, when art happens, just let it happen. I can't force this. I'm just tired mentally, physically, and emotionally.