Life's A Chibi: Betrayal Of Trust
"I have ... had a group of friends that I liked to talk to and hung out with. Whenever we hung out, they were always happy to see me as we all have fun together. I've known them for a long time and do enjoy their company. I wanted to believe that I trusted them as much as they trusted me. Back then. if I needed help, I knew they would be there for me as much as I would be there for them; its what true friends do.
However, I felt like there is something wrong. I noticed that they didn't contact me that much anymore and would come up with reasons why they didn't want to hung out or involve me in activities. They always said that they are just busy and everything was fine, but this was happening more and more. I felt like they secretly hated me. Their demeanor changed towards me to the point where I feel like they are talking ill about me - false rumors that are spiraling within the group that no one confronted me about. I can't fully prove it, but it was gut feeling of mine. However, this feeling was becoming more and more real the more I noticed how they acted around me.
I don't like confrontation or fighting, so I didn't say anything. If there is a fabricated rumor or a one sided story going around or something that involved me without me knowing, I felt like my real friends would come forward and talk or confront to me about it instead of going behind my back and continued to talk ill towards me. I've opened up to them for many years. I trusted them. Now I feel they just put on this mask of being "nice" around me and expect me to feel like nothing is wrong.
That hurts me..."
An image I wanted to do for a long time, I just didn't know how to really capture how I felt during that time. Its not an easy subject to draw about. Trust is important in any relationship - it is one of the major pillars to any friendship. However, when that pillar is damaged or destroyed, there is no longer trust, thus everything around it falls apart. And the one who cleans up the mess left from others who have abused, manipulated, and destroyed it, is you. Its to the point where you rebuild yourself, putting that trust pillar back up, but now, you are extremely paranoid on WHO can be close to it - who can interact with it and those who you feel confident to be that close to it.
artwork © 2025 Alex Cockburn
However, I felt like there is something wrong. I noticed that they didn't contact me that much anymore and would come up with reasons why they didn't want to hung out or involve me in activities. They always said that they are just busy and everything was fine, but this was happening more and more. I felt like they secretly hated me. Their demeanor changed towards me to the point where I feel like they are talking ill about me - false rumors that are spiraling within the group that no one confronted me about. I can't fully prove it, but it was gut feeling of mine. However, this feeling was becoming more and more real the more I noticed how they acted around me.
I don't like confrontation or fighting, so I didn't say anything. If there is a fabricated rumor or a one sided story going around or something that involved me without me knowing, I felt like my real friends would come forward and talk or confront to me about it instead of going behind my back and continued to talk ill towards me. I've opened up to them for many years. I trusted them. Now I feel they just put on this mask of being "nice" around me and expect me to feel like nothing is wrong.
That hurts me..."
An image I wanted to do for a long time, I just didn't know how to really capture how I felt during that time. Its not an easy subject to draw about. Trust is important in any relationship - it is one of the major pillars to any friendship. However, when that pillar is damaged or destroyed, there is no longer trust, thus everything around it falls apart. And the one who cleans up the mess left from others who have abused, manipulated, and destroyed it, is you. Its to the point where you rebuild yourself, putting that trust pillar back up, but now, you are extremely paranoid on WHO can be close to it - who can interact with it and those who you feel confident to be that close to it.
artwork © 2025 Alex Cockburn
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It is always sad if such things happen... and they should not happen...
If everyone would just be honest with one another things would be much easier...
Sure some conversations would hurt... and some friendships would end then and there...
But at least you could look at each other eye to eye... instead of living in fear and stress of it coming out and the fallout that would inevitably happen afterwards, hurting and destroying much more, than if one would have been honest in the first place...
Been there, done that...
I feel with you!
If everyone would just be honest with one another things would be much easier...
Sure some conversations would hurt... and some friendships would end then and there...
But at least you could look at each other eye to eye... instead of living in fear and stress of it coming out and the fallout that would inevitably happen afterwards, hurting and destroying much more, than if one would have been honest in the first place...
Been there, done that...
I feel with you!
I feel like I experience this in small pockets of people I’ve come to know. No one will admit to it of course but I have big suspicions.
Though I did get informed recently that some of these suspicions in one circle I’m a part of is true, and while I try to use it as a life lesson and move on…..it still hurts and makes me feel as lonely as ever.
…At least I know some people in my life are there for me and honest with me without a doubt. It just sucks when you suspect or know for sure your secretly hated by someone and they just put on a mask around you to avoid admitting the truth.
Though I did get informed recently that some of these suspicions in one circle I’m a part of is true, and while I try to use it as a life lesson and move on…..it still hurts and makes me feel as lonely as ever.
…At least I know some people in my life are there for me and honest with me without a doubt. It just sucks when you suspect or know for sure your secretly hated by someone and they just put on a mask around you to avoid admitting the truth.
Always been skeptical of people who try to rumor me into hating somebody or something... if I can't discern some better faith intentions along the way.
Seen plenty of selfish people who jealously do some ugly stuff to manipulate social groups before those people recognize the bad faith - and plenty of conflict avoidant people who will do some wild crap to drive away anyone who might expect them to own any portion of the damage in their wake.
All we can do is hope to enjoy other people for as long as we reasonably can until we outgrow them or vice versa
Seen plenty of selfish people who jealously do some ugly stuff to manipulate social groups before those people recognize the bad faith - and plenty of conflict avoidant people who will do some wild crap to drive away anyone who might expect them to own any portion of the damage in their wake.
All we can do is hope to enjoy other people for as long as we reasonably can until we outgrow them or vice versa
Had this very thing happen to me, though in my case it was one person poisoning the rest of the group.
Used to play DnD in person with a group of friends. They were all decent people, and I only fault the one who ended up causing the break. I lived pretty far from the meeting site, and was fairly poor at the time, so I had to take the bus, which sometimes delayed the sessions. I would also sometimes ask someone to cover me for mealtime, always paying them back each time.
Eventually this one person, who was a real piece of work (even those people who broke from me in the group revile him at this point) started talking about how poor I was, and making people think I was just somehow taking advantage of them. It came to a head when one person offered to come pick me up instead of waiting for me to arrive on the buss, only for that person to talk them into 'testing' me. They started talking about going out to play paintball someplace far away from where we were even meeting and it 'only costing a couple hundred dollars a person'. When I said I probably couldn't go, we had a 'talk' about my lack of income and struggle to get around, ending in them telling me they thought it best if we stopped meeting up.
It was all the one person's fault, and in later years, I learned from the others, who I still kept in touch with because I still saw them as friends, that he had been poisoning the well due to a combination of personal dislike, racism, and just generally being a jerk.
Used to play DnD in person with a group of friends. They were all decent people, and I only fault the one who ended up causing the break. I lived pretty far from the meeting site, and was fairly poor at the time, so I had to take the bus, which sometimes delayed the sessions. I would also sometimes ask someone to cover me for mealtime, always paying them back each time.
Eventually this one person, who was a real piece of work (even those people who broke from me in the group revile him at this point) started talking about how poor I was, and making people think I was just somehow taking advantage of them. It came to a head when one person offered to come pick me up instead of waiting for me to arrive on the buss, only for that person to talk them into 'testing' me. They started talking about going out to play paintball someplace far away from where we were even meeting and it 'only costing a couple hundred dollars a person'. When I said I probably couldn't go, we had a 'talk' about my lack of income and struggle to get around, ending in them telling me they thought it best if we stopped meeting up.
It was all the one person's fault, and in later years, I learned from the others, who I still kept in touch with because I still saw them as friends, that he had been poisoning the well due to a combination of personal dislike, racism, and just generally being a jerk.
To trust is to make yourself vulnerable to be betrayed. To forgive is to decide to trust even after you have been betrayed. Closing yourself off means you are no longer able to be betrayed again, but you also close yourself off from belonging and growth.
Do not pick your friends. Let them show themselves through their actions. Forgive those who show growth and give them another chance to grow with you. Beware those who are inable or refuse to change. They'll most likely drag you down with them.
Do not pick your friends. Let them show themselves through their actions. Forgive those who show growth and give them another chance to grow with you. Beware those who are inable or refuse to change. They'll most likely drag you down with them.
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