fic: buttercup buttercup

rating: nc-17
pairing: hudson/connor
tags: lmao

"How come we never fool around?"

Hudson has a thoughtful frown on his face, like this just occurred to him. In reality, he's been posing the question with little variation every few hours since the day they met. He's a pretty good actor.

"I don't want to," Connor says. The frown clears.

"Well, that can't be true." Hudson's socked feet wriggle where they're trapped under Connor's thigh. "Can you come up with something believable, please."

Hollanov Fic Recs

layers of honey by sushiwriter (T, 5k)

Once, belied by the notion of a city teeming with other Russians, he spent the day going from bakery to bakery in New York City, trying to find a cake that would even come close. It was the dead of winter, and he blamed any teariness on the way the wind whipped at his face. He ignored texts from everyone but Shane.

Vishnya by Kate Andrews (k8andrewz) (E, 9k)

Shane wears panties for Ilya.

a clear view by guarddog (E, 10k)

Shane made a decision a long time ago: he wants hockey, needs it, and he wants it for as long as he can get it. He's going to play till he can’t anymore, and he’s going to do all the right things so no one can ever argue otherwise. Or: the Shane abortion fic

how do you feel? by exogenesissymph (T, 10k)

Shane Hollander, interviewee, throughout the years.

A Fierce and Blazing Thing by Annwolfe87 (M, 11k)

In the days leading up to the first time Shane Hollander faces his old Montreal team with the Ottawa Centaurs, he kinda goes through it. Maybe a lot of bullshit built up over the years. Maybe now that he's finally in a place to deal with it, he starts to.

to stand by a river and go by placebythering (T, 12k)

Ilya spends his second Christmas in Shane's cottage, and contemplates the idea of home, grief, and what it means to speak a language.

clear to a hedgehog by magneticwave (E, 12k)

Every Boston Raider knows that although their captain has a girl in every port, he’s got a soft spot for the one in Montreal. Dr. Shane Hollander knows it’s better to have a semi-regular source of casual sex than try to make a relationship work during residency. Ilya Rozanov knows that the doctor he’s fucking in Montreal is unaware that he plays hockey, and in fact probably thinks he’s Bratva.

for richer or poorer by lowkey_existential_despair (E, 14k)

There was a twitter post. A video. The caption said #pissgate. The video started playing automatically, and Ilya saw the nondescript white tile of the Metros locker room, and then the camera peered around a corner, and there he was. There Shane was. It played just long enough for Ilya to hear himself—say it—and Shane—piss on me. please—before his phone fell from his nerveless fingers and shattered on the concrete.

Shine A Light In The Morning by thegoodthebadandthenerdy (M, 14k)

She looks, if he unfocuses his eyes, if he tries very hard, if he pays close attention to the bridge of her nose and the baby fat still in her cheeks, not much different than she did when he last saw her. A little stone angel marking time at a mean old man's wake.

Sit Tight, I'm Not Far Out From You Tonight by hollanoved (E, 16k)

Ilya buys his fwb, totally casual situationship Shane a pair of panties to try.

Aching, Aching, Aching, and Alive by verbaepulchellae (E, 17k)

Goddamnit, now is not the time to crash out over fantasies of Ilya working his whole hand down to the wrist into Shane’s ass and fucking him on his fist. And yet. Shane should know by now that timing and “good ideas” are rarely factors in whether or not he gets obsessed with something.

Gatorade Galas & Moscow Mules by toraten (E, 34k)

Shane and Ilya are having trouble balancing their very private relationship and their very public lives.

Restless Things

Drarry ~ E ~ 8k

Break-up to make-up; signing legal documents as foreplay; the perils of seeing your ex while co-parenting a stroppy teen

Harry’s drawn up the divorce papers; all Draco has to do is sign them.

They’re in the corridor. Draco’s chest is heaving, his breath bringing shape and form to the frigid clarity of the air, and how could he ever have felt cold, before? Potter faces him, fists balled; it’s first year, it’s fourth year, it’s a bathroom floor, it’s a squall of leaping flame and they’re teenagers again for one pure, unaltered second before Draco remembers himself and everything he has to lose and steps back out of reach.
“Why don’t you just piss off?” Potter asks bitterly, and he makes for the stairs.

My gift for my dear @garagepaperback whose writing I admire so much, and whose fic javelin inspired this one. Greg, it's a privilege to get to read your writing, and it was a delight to get to write for you.

With thanks to the people I am lucky enough to have had as betas for this — @citrusses @maesterchill and @sweet-s0rr0w — who held my hand while I wrote over 30k of fic before settling on this one. And thank you to @epitomereally @thehoneybeet @nv-md and Vera for a stellar fest and for being so bloody lovely while I wrote this. legends all!

On AO3 here

THIS!!!!!!!! FIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hollanov fic recs

some heated rivalry fics i like a lot. my notes under each title, not the official summaries

Little More Close by maplesalad @maple-salad | 2k, E
a little consensual non-consent for our guy shane, as a treat

Taking a Walk in the Woods After Having Taken a Walk in the Woods with You by lark_ral @larkral | 2k, E
ilya gets his shit rocked by the new yorker poetry section

Cunk on Hockey by qkind | 2k, E
national treasure philomena cunk interviews shane and ilya

#noticing by YankingAwry @theburialofstrawberries | 3k, E
svetty realises what’s up. gorgeous outsider pov

Adjustments by sheepknitssweater | 3k, E
soft dick ilya actually very emotionally important to me

call me back someday by hockeyfinches | 3k, E
club scene remix feat. EVEN MORE FEELINGS. ilya voice unmatched

u might want to get tested by toomuchplor | 5k, E
ilya and his fuckboi ways and a surprisingly romantic chlamydia scare

Brighton Beach by citrusses, iota @citrusses @sorrybutblog | 5k, E
mid-situationship, they visit anora-land

Penalties by citrusses | 5k, E
ilya is married to someone else. beautifully grimy

Vishnya by Kate Andrews (k8andrewz) | 10k, E
ilya smokes cigarettes and calls shane’s asshole a pussy and makes him wear panties 

clear to a hedgehog by magneticwave | 12k, E
AU: hockey player ilya, doctor shane. great ilya pov

I was a bottle of wine that fell out of the rack, woke up very confused, sitting up, on the other side of my bed, still thinking I was a bottle of wine.

Paul Almasy (French | 1906 - 2003)

Spectacle de rue, place de la Bastille, Paris 11, c. 1950-1960