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nyx/night/azrael | she/them | multifandom nerd/writer/reader | a being with thoughts. idk i can be funny probably | i dunno who made the art on my profile pls claim if its urs

Intro lol

Hi, hello, good day, greetings, my name is Nyx (but I also go by Night and Azrael sometimes), she/them pronouns, queer and proud (more about me under the cut).

This is my (very chaotic) blog, I post random things ranging from my current hyperfixation (usually a specific ship/character/fandom) to poetry and other writing.

As stated in my description, I used art I found on the internet for my profile and banner, if that art belongs to you, please tell me so I can credit you.

I might be a tiny bit weird - who am I kidding, I'm very weird - but if you want to message me so we can yap about our hyperfixations together, please do! I'm friendly, I promise!

A list of my ship/character analysis posts will be provided under the cut.

I just started reading Six of Crows (no spoilers please, I'm only halfway done the first book) and I realized the song Birds of a Feather by Lilith Max really fits the vibe of Six of Crows.

You're a black crow in the shadows Bleak eyes, far too clever I'm a fly-high, sharp mind Birds of a feather
You carry yourself like an old man Your pockets are filled with knives Any fool wouldn't notice 'Til they're begging for their lives
I won't resist the temptation I'd fall with you through the dark Turn my back for a second just to feel A stab through the heart
You're a black crow in the shadows Bleak eyes, far too clever I'm a fly-high, sharp mind Birds of a feather You've got a mean grin, all teeth Stealing every treasure I've got soft hands, a quick blade Birds of a feather (feather)
Feather
The alleyways are your playground And money is your god Can't count on my fingers All the churches you've burned
I won't resist the temptation I'd bloody my hands for you And if I stay long enough You might bloody yours too
You're a black crow in the shadows Bleak eyes, far too clever I'm a fly-high, sharp mind Birds of a feather You've got a mean grin, all teeth Stealing every treasure I've got soft hands, a quick blade Birds of a feather
And even when they catch us Cornered on all sides We'll slip through the cracks Up to the sky, up to the sky They can throw us in the water Tie stones to our feet We'll come crashing up Let our wings set us free
You're a black crow in the shadows Bleak eyes, far too clever I'm a fly-high, sharp mind Birds of a feather You've got a mean grin, all teeth Stealing every treasure I've got soft hands, a quick blade Birds of a feather (feather)
Feather Feather Ah-ah Feather Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh Feather

And then I read the description for the song and realized it actually was inspired by Six of Crows. Yayyy fellow book nerds writing songs about said books!!!

Also please listen to the song it's really good.

so something I've noticed as I started reading more bobadin fanfics is the fact that many of y'all end up making Paz a terrible person. and I never understood why. when I first watched the mandalorian, my first instinct on the type of person Paz was wasn't bad. I thought, and still firmly believe, that Paz is a genuinely good person who stands for what he believes in and is a kind and caring person. anyone who watched him and his son could see that. sure, he may be a trigger-happy heavy-artillery type guy, but he's mandalorian: it's expected. besides, I think it adds to his personality. he is a complex character, and I dunno, I just feel like a lot of fanfics are just stripping that away from him. and yes, I do know that fanfics are based of the headcanons of the author, and do not have to follow canon, but it bothers me sometimes, especially when Paz is presented in such a bad way. my boy Paz could never be abusive to din, especially if they were partners.

again, I'm not slandering authors or anything, I know it's their opinions. I'm just stating something I've noticed and going my own opinions on this.

what do y'all think about Paz? I wanna know

Random, but a really handy way to make things seem creepy or wrong in horror is to make them incongruously neat or clean:

  • In the middle of a horrific battlefield, you find one corpse laid aside neatly, straightened and arranged, its arms crossed neatly across its chest
  • As you walk through the garden, you gradually realise that the oddness you’ve been noticing about the trees is that they are all perfectly symmetrical
  • As you move through the abandoned house, you realise that suddenly that there’s no dust in this room, no dirt or cobwebs
  • You hear hideous noises coming from behind a locked door, screams and pleas, and visceral sounds of violence. When you manage to break down the door, there is no one there, and the room is perfectly spotless
  • In the middle of a horrific battlefield, a hollow full of churned mud and blood, you find five corpses cleanly dismembered, each set of limbs or parts neatly laid out in their own little row
  • You witness a murder, a brutal, grisly killing that carpets the area in blood. When you return in a blind panic with the authorities, the scene is completely clean, and no amount of examination can find even a drop of blood
  • You run through the night and the woods with a comrade, pulling each other through leaves and twigs and mud as you scramble desperately towards freedom. When you finally emerge from the forest, in the grey light of dawn, you turn to your companion in relief, and notice that their clothes are somehow perfectly clean
  • You hand a glass of water to your suspect, talking casually the whole while, and watch with satisfaction as they take it in their bare hand and take a drink. There’ll be a decent set of prints to run from that later. Except there isn’t. There are no prints at all. As if nothing ever touched the glass
  • You browse idly through your host’s catalogue, and stop, and pay much more attention, when you realise that several items on a dry list of acquisitions are ones you’ve seen before, and it slowly dawns on you that each neat little object and number in this neat little book are things that belong (belonged?) to people you know

Neatness, particularly incongruous neatness, neatness where you expect violence or imperfection or abandonment, or neatness that you belatedly realise was hiding violence, or neatness that is imposed over violence, is incredibly scary. Because neatness is not a natural thing. Neatness requires some active force to have come through and made it so. Neatness implies that the world around you is being arranged, maybe to hide things, to disguise things, to make you doubt your senses, or else simply according to something else’s desires. Neatness is active and artificial. Neatness puts things, maybe even people, into neat little boxes according to something else’s ideals, and that’s terrifying as well. Being objectified. Being asked to fit categories that you’re not sure you can fit, and wondering what will happen to the bits of you that don’t.

Neatness, essentially, says that something else is here. Neatness where there should be chaos says that either something came and changed things, or that what you’re seeing now or what you saw then is not real. Neatness alongside violence says that something came through here for whom violence did not mean the same thing as it does to you.

Neatness, in the right context, in the right place, can be very, very scary

And fun

growing up with strict parents literally gives you superpowers

like what do you mean you cant tell who it is by their footsteps

what do you mean i scared you by being so quiet you never noticed me

what do you mean you cant just switch tabs/windows/desktops real fast

what do you mean you cant fake sleeping

idk all those seem so normal to me but maybe im just traumatized lol

ok but what do you mean i do it accidentally

like i do it without meaning to?

growing up with strict parents literally gives you superpowers

like what do you mean you cant tell who it is by their footsteps

what do you mean i scared you by being so quiet you never noticed me

what do you mean you cant just switch tabs/windows/desktops real fast

what do you mean you cant fake sleeping

idk all those seem so normal to me but maybe i'm just traumatized lol

That feeling when you're still working through the feels of rewatching rots for like the fifth time.

And you get to the duel between Obi-Wan and Anakin.

And you cry again because Anakin still fell.

But come on.

Let's be so real right now.

ROTS is shakespeare-level tragedy.

This is my contribution to the obikin community:

ROTS obikin from Obi-Wan's POV.

that feeling when you're mentally ill and consumed by a ship

that ship is so good and you cant survive without it

but it's not even canon

but every time you see the characters interacting you just think: yeah they're definitely together. they've definitely fucked.

and then they don't end up together because of something or the other and it breaks your heart every time

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