Mostly, I want to be kind. |
I am alive, and drunk on sunlight 🌻 |
The sopranos dialogue is just banger after banger. psychiatry and cunnilingus brought us to this. it’s not supposed to be therapeutic for you this is your therapy here. toodle fucking ooh what was I thinking. you let him hold a gun to your head during sex I thought you were a feminist. I thought pussy was your friend. etc
“I don’t think that I accepted that I wasn’t gonna die young until I was 26 or 27. I really don’t think I fully…when I was 14, 15, 16, 17–I mean I knew as sure as I know that I am wearing green shoes that I was going to die before much happened. It was a certainty for me. And I had shaken off the directly suicidal urge by the time I was 21 or 22, but I still was pretty sure I was going to die pretty young, it really felt like an inevitability. It takes a long time to realize no, you’ve changed…if you shared those feelings with people at some point you go, ‘well, I guess we’re going to stick around.’ And it’s a funky thing to admit because there’s a part of your inner younger self that kind of judges you for that.”
John Darnielle fucking me up with the single most relatable thing he’s ever said
Emily L., Marguerite Duras // Bertrand Russell, What Desires are Politically Important? // Octavio Paz, “The House of Glances” // Mitski—Francis Forever // Chen Chen, When I Grow Up I Want to Be a List of Further Possibilities // VIVINOS and QMENG, Alien Stage (Round 6) // Bryan Fuller, Hannibal (2013) // Richard Siken, “Little Monster” // Christa Wolf, Cassandra: A Novel and Four Essays // Mitski—I Bet on Losing Dogs
on usefulness. on becoming both the blade and the lamb
tumblr user @/divorcefemme // Anaïs Nin // tumblr user @/willowcrowned // Mitski, “I Don’t Smoke” // Lilith Kerr, “bite back” (from unloving the knife)