Sorry I haven’t been in here in almost a year. Depression is a bitch. I want to come back eventually but I just haven’t had the time.
I’m the meantime if anyone wants to follow me on Twitter, my handle is jgxjess .
Wgghhh hi! My old blog is @isurvivedyamatai and I think I’m gonna move here for now?
I wanna try and get back on here. I’m not gonna delete my old blog or anything! There’s just so many memories there and after last year.. I kinda just wanted to start fresh a little?
So uh yeah hi! Idk if anyone remembers me so don’t feel like you have to follow back or anything. I hope everyone’s doing well though💖💖
Wgghhh hi! My old blog is @isurvivedyamatai and I think I’m gonna move here for now?
I wanna try and get back on here. I’m not gonna delete my old blog or anything! There’s just so many memories there and after last year.. I kinda just wanted to start fresh a little?
So uh yeah hi! Idk if anyone remembers me so don’t feel like you have to follow back or anything. I hope everyone’s doing well though💖💖
Sorry I haven’t posted in a while. Real life has been a nightmare these last 2 months with losing my cat of 14 years to cancer, getting sick myself, housework, ect. I’ve been almost constantly tired and very, very depressed. So much so that I’ve began to wonder if I have ptsd or something from all the trauma that happened last month. It’s been one of the hardest times of my life.
I’m still here, just not posting. I’ve got such little energy, I don’t know what to do anymore. But. I hope everyone’s well.
I don’t ask for prayers a lot but it would mean a ton to me if you kept my family and pets in your thoughts please. Details are on twitter.
Thank y’all so much.
There’s a collection of stolen Dragon Age art being sold as NFTs, please alert any artists you know so they can take action
Hey mutuals, please take the time to report anything you recognize please! I don't know a lot of these but some are very recognizable.
Let's get this seen and taken down asap!!
Ugh, infuriating. I recognize @merwild, @pheberoni, @crystalvfae, and @goma-itoh’s amazing art. :(
They are doing the same to Elder Scrolls (and Mass Effect) artists too
So I guess I’m just gonna update everyone on here about what’s been going on in my life recently the last month. Bear with me, I’m writing this on my iPad and there may be typos and this may be kinda lengthy. Still can’t hide stuff under readmores on the app.
- first and foremost, 2 weeks ago my 15 year old cat at my moms house got diagnosed with lymphoma (cancer) recently and it’s been nerve wrecking. Thankfully she seems fine, but the process itself has been affecting me greatly, obviously. She starts chemo on the 21st.
-because of this, my anxiety, depression and ocd have been out of control. I don’t know how many breakdowns I’ve had where my husband has just had to hold me and try to get me not to hyper ventilate while I sob.
- my already terrible memory has gotten even worse and I’ve been forgetting to take my meds at night which has affected my arthritis, ect. Forgetting to take my lexapro and birth control pills has also been fucking with my body. For more than a month now I’ve been waiting to get my new injections for my psoriatic arthritis and the Walgreens speciality pharmacy is incompetent and fucky as always. Every single day has been painful, but some absolutely worse than others. It takes all my energy sometimes to just roll over in bed. I’m 31, not 91. By the time I’m up, I have no energy to do chores I need to do, ect, and those are piling up and making my depression even shittier.
-also for the last 2 weeks I thought I developed a uti or something, but nope, today the doctor said it’s likely due to stress and hormones.
-plumbing issues at home reared it’s head right as I was about to head out to meet my mom to take Kisa, my cat, to her doctors appointment yesterday. I had to miss this important appointment because our bathroom was semi flooding and I was crying hysterically because I didn’t know what to do. This caused my ocd to get EVEN WORSE, causing MORE breakdowns. My germophobia is out the ass and I still get triggered a little even going in there even though I’ve mopped and stuff. My senses are “inflamed,” as I call it, right now and making me hyper aware and feeling extra need to clean myself more because I feel contaminated. Everything feels contaminated.
-because I’ve been so stressed, it’s caused me to clean more. My legs are dry as shit and I’ve had to moisturize constantly, which requires more energy I simply don’t have.
-I’ve had such little energy that I’ve fallen behind on talking to people and keeping up with others. Everything has been poured into kisa and my own self preservation. I want to sleep constantly because I just never have enough energy and I’m depressed as fuck.
If you’ve read all of this, thank you. Please keep my girl in your thoughts, it would mean the world to me. Prayers, good vibes, all are appreciated.
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