a thousand times goodnight
[critical role (aramán); julien + aranessa; alternate universe: immortality; character study; body horror; blood and gore; strong suicidal ideation; the ongoing sequence of julien’s extremely bad life choices; the narrative fallibility and loopholes of fae blessings; 6k.]
Later, after the medics have checked him and the courtiers have fussed over him and Aranessa has been coaxed away at long last from his side, Julien’s father will take him by the arm and lead him to the Davinos sitting room in the depths of the Golden Castle. He will pour his son a glass of brandy, and sit him down in an ornate leather chair, and he will talk to him, deep into the night.
We have a blessing upon us, Raimond Davinos will say. He has pictured this conversation several times before, scripted it out painstakingly in his head, but this is not the way he planned for it to go. When we swore an oath to House Royce, we were…changed, magically. Permanently, and forever. This is the way of the fae. This is the magnitude of their gifts. And this is the depth of our loyalty. It lasts through life and lasts through death, all the way to the edge of the Golden Shore.
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Immortality can be a curse and blessing both. Julien Davinos learns this lesson the hard way.
I got utterly possessed by A Concept, as one does, and wrote this in a fever-dream state in less than 48 hours. I just think that there’s at least one measurable way in which Julien Davinos’s life could be made so much worse, and it’s my duty to write it into being. Check the tags, and enjoy the angst <3

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