alek wek photographed by tomas schenk, 2000

I’m thinking about you right now and I’ve been thinking about you for days when I jerk off I see your face and I’m not going to stop writing this cause then I’ll be away from this directness this happiness this isness which is. At the same time I’m never going to have anything to do with you again. Because you, even if it is just cause of circumstances, won’t love me. This isn’t the situation. I’m being a baby as usual. There are complications. Are shades, hues, never either-or, the shades are meanings, come out, you rotten cocksucker.

—Kathy Acker, from Great Expectations

Some Favorite Essays, Short Stories, Novels

Essays: 1. Helene Cixous - Laugh of Medusa  2. Anne Carson - Evil and Suffering in Modern Poetry  3. Kathy Acker - Myth of Romantic Suffering 4. Virginia Woolf - On Not Knowing Greek  5. Adrienne Rich - Women and Honor: Some Notes on Lying        - Adrienne Rich - Three Other Essays  6. Alice Walker - Looking for Zora  7. Anna Klobucka - Helene Cixous & Clarice Lispector 8. Joan Didion - On Self-Respect 9. Margaret Atwood - Am I a Bad Feminist?  10. Jeffrey Meyers - The Savage Experiment: Arthur Rimbaud 11. Jennifer Nash - Practicing Love  12. Paul J. M. van Tongeren - “A Splendid Failure” Nietzche Suffering 13. Albert Henrichs -  Loss of Self, Suffering, Violence: Dionysus 

Short Stories:  1. Clarice Lispector - Love  2. Anne Carson - 1 = 1 3. Margaret Atwood - Stone Mattress 4. Amy Bloom - Silver Water 5. Gunnhild Øyehaug - Same Time, Another Planet  6. Anne Carson - Back the Way you Went  7. Tatyana Tolstaya - Unnecessary Things 8.  Kirstin Valdez Quade - Christina the Astonishing (1150-1224) 9.  Clarice Lispector - One Day Less Novels: 1. Helene Cixous - Stigmata  2. Helene Cixous - Ex-Cities  3. Helene Cixous - Three Steps on the Ladder of Writing (my favorite) 4. Jean Genet - A Thief’s Journal (another link) 5. Judith Butler - Bodies that Matter 6. Clarice Lispector -  AGUA VIVA  (my favorite) Happy Holidays, friends. I hope you enjoy. - Love, E 

— Anaïs Nin, The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 1: 1931-1934

Aaliyah. (2001)

“I found out I was in love with you, winter before last,” she said. “I wasn’t going to say anything about it because - well, you know. If you felt anything like that for me, you’d have known I did. But it wasn’t both of us. So there was no good in it. But then, when you told us you’re leaving… At first I thought, all the more reason to say nothing. But then I thought, that wouldn’t be fair. To me, partly. Love has a right to be spoken. And you have a right to know that somebody loves you. That somebody has loved you, could love you. We all need to know that. Maybe it’s what we need most.”

- A Fisherman of the inland sea, Ursula K. Leguin

From Although Of Course You End Up Becoming Yourself: A Road Trip with David Foster Wallace by David Lipsky.

couple’s t-shirt idea

Theres kind of no way to go to a bar alone and not feel like william s Burroughs

I’m worried I’m gonna get snubbed at the Oscar’s this year

I’m worried that I’m going to be jacked off forcibly with my hands tied behind my back at the Oscars this year

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