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This is easily one of my most detailed pieces to date. Harry and Skills, painted in reference to “Pietà” by William-Adolphe Bouguereau. I need a long lay down after this one 💃
every post i see that’s like “if you’re scared of being like [bad person] that’s means you’re better than them and won’t be like them” and it’s like. lmao. my dad used to have crying sessions where he would confess his fear of being like his mother and causing me to grow up to hate him. usually after he did something fucking awful, to redirect the attention to his own pain. the girl who sexually assaulted me had panic attacks sometimes about the idea of maybe being a rapist, making it impossible to set sexual boundaries with her without her freaking out. whether you’re afraid of being some kind of bad person has basically no bearing on whether you are that way
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LITERALLY ANXIETY ISN’T AN INHERENTLY MORAL SOURCE OF SELF-CRITICISM. BEING AFRAID THAT YOU ARE BAD DOES NOT MAKE YOU GOOD IT JUST MAKES YOU ANXIOUS!!!
no it’s not actually a good start. anxiety is not a force for moral self-correction and “being anxious about being a bad person” is not a good method of becoming a better person. regardless of whether you make that anxiety “anyone else’s fucking problem.” the anxiety, in itself, is amoral, and will not lead you to making good choices
Also, it’s just a bad coping strategy in general. Telling yourself that the only way you can know you’re a good person is if you feel bad 24/7 is not a healthy way to spend your time.
these kinds of “callouts posts”, things that shake you out of your comfort zone, they’re important in learning to check yourself and not just be complacent. but without knowing how you can try to get better, it’s just more fuel to feel worse about yourself! that’s why i wanted to add something more solution-oriented:
to those who suffer from this kind of overthinking (i do, too), this might seem scary. if you’re afraid of being a bad person, thinking “this fear means i must be good” is an easy way to absolve your fear and feel better. your reaction to that idea being disproven might be to spiral- “how do i know if i’m good? what if i’m a completely terrible person?” and, when you’re dealing with that, it can feel impossible to think rationally and actually figure out if you’re ‘terrible’ in some way.
so, in the interest of being solution-minded, here IS a healthier way to approach this:
you have to figure out what it is you’re actually scared of. will you be letting yourself down? is it scary that you might not be who you thought you were? do you feel like someone else secretly thinks you’re terrible? are you afraid to face whatever biases you might have? are you just scared of rejection- of other people telling you you’re terrible, or not loving you?
that will help you deal with it. if you have someone in your life you trust, you can remind yourself you are loved. if you’re scared of letting yourself down, you can take the time to understand your standards and become more confident in who you want to be. if you’re afraid of rejection or your own biases, you can start to learn to face those things- to find ways to tell yourself it’s okay, whatever form that might take for you
but, all this is separate from self-examination. this is just a way to start to deal with those worries in a healthier way.
so what’s a healthier way to be a better person if you’ve figured out suck and you hate yourself for it already? it’s not an easy journey, but the important thing to remember is hating yourself will never help anyone. punishing yourself will not make up for anything bad you do. the only thing that matters is trying not to hurt others, and when you do, apologizing, finding solutions, trying to make it better. and if you really can’t make it better, back away. don’t make it worse. if there’s a pattern in the way you hurt others- a bias, a negative coping mechanism- try to work on it.
“However, your partner – JV – is against the removal, citing public support for conservation”
My guy liked a political and poetical statement so much he utilised the law to keep it up
I never paint bgs EVER idk how this worked out but anything for secret lover boy angry french pissant!!! This tiny little info abt him had me by the throat goddamn
Kim “there will be time for sitting on benches after we solve the murder” Kitsuragi sits on the swings with you for at least an hour without a single complaint, not rushing you, playing along with whatever silly conversation threads you start, waiting for you to realize on your own that the crashed motor carriage in front of you is your own. He gently leads you towards this profoundly upsetting information, the most damning evidence thus far of how completely fucked you are, just, like, as a human. Reckless, impulsive, suicidal. When you eventually piece it together, he comforts you with sincerity. This is the man who reminds you at every conversational tangent that you are on a deadline, who has to be cajoled into playing a board game with you for a couple hours. And yet he sits with you on the swings until the tide goes out, all so he can catch you when you start to fall apart.
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