Masterlist

Hello I thought i should maybe organize my fics and HC’s into a masterlist, so that I can find all of them but also incase yall are interested in reading more of my stuff. Newest stuff will be at the bottom

HC: Peter Didn’t know He Was Bi Until Harley Keener  AO3

(this was posted on my other account, before i created this one, i swear it is my work)

HC: Tony Helps Peter with his Anxiety AO3

Peter Parker Loves Everyone He Meets AO3

Peter knows what it feels like to feel alone and unloved. He doesn’t wish it on anybody. So he starts showing the people around him how much he loves them, and puts asides his own needs. 

Peter Parker Went Silent AO3

It’s been a long time since Peter last spoke. It was a gradual thing, his descent into silence, slow and steady and Tony doesn’t notice it until he really notices. Then it’s a matter of piecing together what made his kid fall apart in the first place.  

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a really important thing to remember about shane and ilya’s sexual dynamic FOR ME is that ilya likes shane submitting to him precisely because he respects him so much

he’s literally a hollander fanboy, he calls him “perfect” numerous times, he watches in a blend of jealousy and reverence as shane beats him in every arena, he stalks him online and watches his stupid documentary, he is in complete awe of that man and so its super fucking sexy when that man drops to his knees a second after ilya tells him to or literally begs him to fuck him

and its not about putting shane in his place either, its hot because shane WANTS to do it so badly, its another form of respect in a way, respect for shane’s willingness and obedience and eagerness to please

and ive said this before but ilya one thousand percent gets off on the idea that shane is this clean cut goody two shoes golden boy and only ilya gets to know what he does behind closed doors

i dont think ilya even innately wants to dominate shane the way shane definitely wants to submit to ilya, but its sooooo hot to him that he gets to

a really important thing to remember about shane and ilya’s sexual dynamic FOR ME is that ilya likes shane submitting to him precisely because he respects him so much

he’s literally a hollander fanboy, he calls him “perfect” numerous times, he watches in a blend of jealousy and reverence as shane beats him in every arena, he stalks him online and watches his stupid documentary, he is in complete awe of that man and so its super fucking sexy when that man drops to his knees a second after ilya tells him to or literally begs him to fuck him

and its not about putting shane in his place either, its hot because shane WANTS to do it so badly, its another form of respect in a way, respect for shane’s willingness and obedience and eagerness to please

and ive said this before but ilya one thousand percent gets off on the idea that shane is this clean cut goody two shoes golden boy and only ilya gets to know what he does behind closed doors

i dont think ilya even innately wants to dominate shane the way shane definitely wants to submit to ilya, but its sooooo hot to him that he gets to

I am so emotional about Shane trying to tell his mom that he really, really tried not to be gay, that he just couldn't help it. Shane who has all these complicated issues with being gay, because it's not something he can control, like he does with everything else related to his body. He can't fine tune this. He can't fix this with focus, exercise, or diet, like he can with all his other problems, because everything else about him is being a professional athlete.

It wrecks him because it jeopardizes everything he's centered his life around, it's not just the money aspect of playing hockey, but that Shane lives and breathes and eats and sleeps hockey, if he lost it because he was found out, what would he even have left? That's Shane's journey, to realizing that, as much as he loves hockey, he will come to love Ilya more.

But right now, he's so devastated because he can't stop this thing that he can't control, this thing that's a problem for everything else in his life, this thing that he fears will make his parents upset because it's going to derail his career, like they put all this effort and time into him, and he's going to mess it all up.

And when Yuna apologizes with such heart, because she loves her kid so much, that she's so sorry that she made him think he couldn't tell her, and asks for her forgiveness--Shane doesn't say, "There's nothing to forgive." It's, "I forgive you."

That healed something in me. Not because Yuna was anywhere near being a villain here, but because Shane's devastation deserved acknowledgement and validation. He deserved to be an injured party here.

Yuna was completely human and never really did anything wrong (I WILL FIGHT THE INTERNET FOR HER, her son is a high profile athlete in a world that will notice he's Asian, she's locked the fuck in on what kind of game plan he needs to survive what the hockey world will throw at him), but Shane deserved to be the one giving out his forgiveness. It was him saying that of course he accepts that she loves him and this can be put behind them, but it's also a moment of Shane not having to downplay what he went through and how much hurt he was carrying around. That the lack of support in his life deserved to be acknowledged as having real weight.

I am so emotional about Shane trying to tell his mom that he really, really tried not to be gay, that he just couldn't help it. Shane who has all these complicated issues with being gay, because it's not something he can control, like he does with everything else related to his body. He can't fine tune this. He can't fix this with focus, exercise, or diet, like he can with all his other problems, because everything else about him is being a professional athlete.

It wrecks him because it jeopardizes everything he's centered his life around, it's not just the money aspect of playing hockey, but that Shane lives and breathes and eats and sleeps hockey, if he lost it because he was found out, what would he even have left? That's Shane's journey, to realizing that, as much as he loves hockey, he will come to love Ilya more.

But right now, he's so devastated because he can't stop this thing that he can't control, this thing that's a problem for everything else in his life, this thing that he fears will make his parents upset because it's going to derail his career, like they put all this effort and time into him, and he's going to mess it all up.

And when Yuna apologizes with such heart, because she loves her kid so much, that she's so sorry that she made him think he couldn't tell her, and asks for her forgiveness--Shane doesn't say, "There's nothing to forgive." It's, "I forgive you."

That healed something in me. Not because Yuna was anywhere near being a villain here, but because Shane's devastation deserved acknowledgement and validation. He deserved to be an injured party here.

Yuna was completely human and never really did anything wrong (I WILL FIGHT THE INTERNET FOR HER, her son is a high profile athlete in a world that will notice he's Asian, she's locked the fuck in on what kind of game plan he needs to survive what the hockey world will throw at him), but Shane deserved to be the one giving out his forgiveness. It was him saying that of course he accepts that she loves him and this can be put behind them, but it's also a moment of Shane not having to downplay what he went through and how much hurt he was carrying around. That the lack of support in his life deserved to be acknowledged as having real weight.

ilya + kissing & rubbing shane's back

ilya + kissing & rubbing shane's back

Ilya btw

Ilya btw

godddd ilya pretending he’s gonna leave in the middle of their first hookup just to manufacture a situation where he gets to pin shane down with his body and promise not to leave him, man stop playing with your food he has anxiety

godddd ilya pretending he’s gonna leave in the middle of their first hookup just to manufacture a situation where he gets to pin shane down with his body and promise not to leave him, man stop playing with your food he has anxiety

ilya destroying that plate of spaghetti right before this sweet moment is so fucking funny to me. especially since the actor was actually eating the spaghetti

ilya destroying that plate of spaghetti right before this sweet moment is so fucking funny to me. especially since the actor was actually eating the spaghetti

Real Moments in Hockey that I know happened in the Heated Rivalry universe

Real Moments in Hockey that I know happened in the Heated Rivalry universe

being in the heated rivalry fandom rn is like witnessing the olympics of gay fan fiction. authors who have been training for years in their respective fandoms all coming together to contribute some of the best work i’ve ever seen to this beautiful show. what a joy, what a privilege

being in the heated rivalry fandom rn is like witnessing the olympics of gay fan fiction. authors who have been training for years in their respective fandoms all coming together to contribute some of the best work i’ve ever seen to this beautiful show. what a joy, what a privilege

i like this show in a cool ironic detached intellectual way btw

i like this show in a cool ironic detached intellectual way btw

major league hockey fan watching ilya kiss shane’s helmet at the 2017 all star game and posting “god had to put ilya rozanov and shane hollander on rival teams because otherwise they’d be having so much gay sex they wouldn’t have time for hockey” and then a few years later reblogging themselves like “WELL”

major league hockey fan watching ilya kiss shane’s helmet at the 2017 all star game and posting “god had to put ilya rozanov and shane hollander on rival teams because otherwise they’d be having so much gay sex they wouldn’t have time for hockey” and then a few years later reblogging themselves like “WELL”

*yuri beams your hockey yaoi*

*yuri beams your hockey yaoi*

Ilya meeting Shane's parents must be insane for them like. Mr Ilya "The Terminator" Rozanov, terror on ice and menace in bed, politely stands there. Your very shy son admonishes him for using the word "lovers" and Russia's Greatest Rage Machine just takes it.

You ask when this started and Mister Dickhead makes sure Shane is accurate about when they started this. How dare you stave off half a year of us, Shane?

You ask if they talked to Scott Hunter and Ra Ra Rasputin says that he, famous asshole extraordinaire went to talk to Patron Saint of Hockey Gays to offer him congratulations.

You ask if he has no loyalty to Boston and Mr Fucking Fuck San Francisco is like. Nyet

Your son is having a panic attack and Miike Snow Genghis Khan calls them "boyfriends" and it's your own extremely shy and sensitive and loving son that is like MY WHAT

Ilya meeting Shane's parents must be insane for them like. Mr Ilya "The Terminator" Rozanov, terror on ice and menace in bed, politely stands there. Your very shy son admonishes him for using the word "lovers" and Russia's Greatest Rage Machine just takes it.

You ask when this started and Mister Dickhead makes sure Shane is accurate about when they started this. How dare you stave off half a year of us, Shane?

You ask if they talked to Scott Hunter and Ra Ra Rasputin says that he, famous asshole extraordinaire went to talk to Patron Saint of Hockey Gays to offer him congratulations.

You ask if he has no loyalty to Boston and Mr Fucking Fuck San Francisco is like. Nyet

Your son is having a panic attack and Miike Snow Genghis Khan calls them "boyfriends" and it's your own extremely shy and sensitive and loving son that is like MY WHAT

supporting the shane as snoopy agenda

[ilya as woodstock], [ilya as woodstock pt. 2]

supporting the shane as snoopy agenda

[ilya as woodstock], [ilya as woodstock pt. 2]

never change, hudson

never change, hudson

this adorable munchkin

this adorable munchkin