"I'll never be able to go home-"
"You don't fucking understand, he can't use his fucking hand right!"
"He doesn't care, he still wants you home, we all do."
"You didn't!" Dick reassure, 2 steps away since Jason almost slashed him when he came too close.
They had been doing this back and forth for almost half an hour.
Dick had returned home to a wrecked cave, everything was turned over in some way, or thrown to the walls. The large computer screen was sparkling with a knife imbedded into the frozen page of the new schematics of the suit. Bruce sat in the middle of the chaos, one of the arms of the bad suit cradled in his good hand, while the arm itself looked like it had been put through a shredder.
The man didn't look worried, only puzzled and confused.
He didn't say who, but it was pretty obvious.
It wasn't hard to find him either.
"Please just talk to him Jay"
"I fucked it up Bird, he'll never forgive me like this."
"How the fuck would you know?" It was taking everything in him to not simply lay down on the floor and have a panic attack. Bile felt like it was coming up his throat.
He had really disabled The Batman. He had shot his dad in the shoulder, and now he would never be able to use his hand right again.
"I know, because I fucked up too." Dick said, stepping closer, keeping his arms relaxed and his hands in view. "I know, because that suit is also modified because of me."
Jason was still hunched, his breath heaving roughly, but he focused. "The hell?"
Dick sat down against the wall, folded together with his knees tucked under his chin. "Since you came, you know he's especially irritable on rainy days." They all knew, it was what usually decided if they were going to ask him for favors or not, if it was raining. Jason had always thought it was because of the day of his parents death, it was raining then too. Maybe it would bring bad memories, or be the catalyst of nightmares like Jason's. Now, he wasn't so sure. "It's because he's got a really bad knife wound in his right knee," Dick heaved a sigh and looking up to meet Jason's eye. "which I gave him."
Flashes of Dick's scrunched up face every time they made fun of Bruce's moodiness, 'I didn't know it was raining' when Brue gave them attitude, or 'I hope it rains tomorrow' if he pissed them off more than usual. Dick never made those jokes.
the physical cringe that went through both of their bodies seemed to mirror, not exactly the most subtle way to ask.
"A bit after I arrived, you know how I was." He gave a weird smile, trying to come off as happy but it looked more strained. "One night. It was bad." He shrugged, like that was the end of it.
"What? You just stabbed him?" Jason almost yelled, flopping down on the floor as well. His breathing had calmed, his focus now remaining on Dick, who had turned to pressing both of his palms so hard into his eyes that he no doubt had a spotty blurry vision.
He let his hands fall back to his side, but kept his eyes squeezed shut. "I was planning to sneak out, I had an actually good lead on Zucco, I packed everything, all my belongings and what I needed. I set off to do it aaand was caught before I left the manor." A nostalgic chuckle. "I hid on top of the bookshelves in the library, but because of my heavy bag I overbalanced and fell, Bruce rushed towards me and got there in time, I hadn't even noticed how hard I had been holding the end of the knife before I made contact with him."
The silence rang out, Jason knew exactly what injury that was. It was what he bet on when he ran from Batman jut a couple days ago. The man would rely on the grapple because his knee couldn't take the intense pressure after more than a few hours. He'd even caught his leg buckling more than once. It was why the padding in the suit was extra thick on one leg.
He'd even caused Bruce to stumble once or twice when throwing himself at him in the manor when he wasn't expecting it, when he didn't have enough time to properly brace the leg.
Dick finally met his eye, a tight smile still present. "Yeah, he didn't even get it treated properly because he didn't want Alfred to find out. He was afraid he would finally have enough and make Bruce kick me out."
None of them said anything, not for a while. Not until both of their breathing were normal.
"He'll forgive you Jason, even if you don't think he should."
"Tim almost blew his eardrum a little over half a year ago."
"He was dozing off in the cave and accidently set off the timer for a shock grenade they were both working on. Bruce got there in time, but just enough to cover the kid. We thought he had lost his hearing completely, he didn't act right for two whole weeks."
When Jason again didn't answer, too busy being shocking about what the fuck was going on, Dick continued.
"The kid was so sure he was going to lose Robin forever, he came all the way to Blüd and stayed at mine while I was at the manor for 2 whole weeks while Bruce was trying to get him to calm down and come home."
"Exactly, he wouldn't." Jason scowled and looked away before Dick carried on. "He forgave Tim too, let him feel helpful with redesigning the suit's audio system to accommodate for the deficiency."
Before he could say any more. "You don't think I'm gonna use this against him?"
That actually made Dick laugh, really laugh. "You're having a panic attack because you shot him more than you expected, no I don't think you're gonna use it against him." After a second, he shrugged. "More than he can handle at least."
Jason moved to get up, stopped by a hand clutching onto jacket. "Look, I know it'll take some time before anything can feel close to right again, but Bruce would never turn you away."
"See you around Big Bird."