i go through the same two thoughts every month.

1. i want to be a horse, i love horses

2. why doesnt the us have more trains? i love trains

it feel like after someone dies, they usually leave after a bit, but tango stuck around the entire session. maybe to see his funeral or maybe to just mess around, but id love to see his pov of that. maybe it comes out after past life is over, but i can imagine the things he heard and the jokes he made would be unbelievably funny.

gluten guys... come back to me... no, but in all seriousness tango, impulse, and ren all have good chances of winning the life series, if they would just lock in. like tango is usually one of the last greens, if not the last one, and impulse and ren have both come close to winning mulitple times, they just keep messing up. ren killed himself, then was in the wrong place at the wrong time, and then got killed by his own teammate. impulse died to the secret society as well and then killed himself (and ren), which i admit is very funny, but with how good impulse is at this game youd think hed take it a little more seriously. i think the frustration got to him in that moment, so i dont really blame him. i mean i was betting on etho or gem winning past life, but my back ups were impulse and ren, not too sure how thats gonna go now.

i read this magical book series in like 6th grade. it truly enamored me. all i did was read those books. whenever people ask for my favorite book i always tell them its this one. i havent reread it yet. im saving it for a day when im so sad that there will be nothing else to cheer me up. i feel that day fast approaching. i hope that after my reread i can pick myself back up again and try to feel a similar joy to the one i had when i was 11.

steve rogers ending in the mcu was stupid. he loved bucky. he went 30 miles over enemy lines on the off chance that bucky was alive (for the others too, but it was implied to be mainly because of bucky), he was willing to let bucky kill him if he couldnt make bucky remember him, and he literally defied the government and became a national criminal so he could protect bucky. on top of that, he seemingly was okay with moving on, him and sharon had something going on. he also had other friends, some of them died (natasha and tony), but he still had sam. love is a powerful thing, but it just doesnt make any sense.

parents don't realize what expecting your kid to be above standard on everything in school does to them. i just won four awards for school and i still feel like a failure.

i go on walks everyday and i either call people or listen to funny podcast. i look insane laughing or talking to myself. i look even more insane when i talk to my dog. i was talking to her saying "lilo, we must go forth!" and i turn around and BAM theres mormons. they said hi and i just stared.

my favorite time of the day is when i have free time to research things, sometimes its video games, sometimes its random things from history, most of the time its mormons. please ask me questions about mormons. im not religious, never have been, but i love learning about mormons, please tell mormon facts or experiences.

nostalgia always hits in weird ways. i got mcdonalds for the first time in what feels like years last night. i was driving home in the backseat like i did growing up. i suddenly remembered i would stick my fries out the window to cool down, and my fries were too hot. made me feel like a kid again.