poor ilya… when your dad sucks and then your mom kills herself it totally makes sense to be like, “yeah my mom was an angel she was the best person ever she was incredible,” because you’ve got to have somewhere to put all the hope and the love and the idea that there are still good things in the world, you’ve got to maintain something to hold onto. however this does mean that it’s probably not until he is stably and happily married for about 10 years and secure in his new relationships and network that he’ll be able to unravel that one. like he’s definitely going to be about 45 years old and wake up in the middle of the night and go, “hang on. i think i’m mad at my mom for killing herself. the thought has never occurred to me before.”