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I think this is the year that I finally do it.

This is the year I finally watch The Muppet Christmas Carol!

The longer I go living on my own and never having a physical relationship, the more I worry that I won’t have the skills required to have one. And I start to worry that, like a dog chasing a car, I won’t know what to do with it once I get one.

Like, I have this deep yearning in my soul for companionship and physical affection, but I also feel awkward and scared at the thought of actually getting it. I’m already in my thirties and I’ve never even kissed someone, let alone cuddled or anything, so all I can do is worry that I’ll be utterly terrible at it if it ever actually became an option in my life.

I go out of my way to find yuri art/manga/comics because it’s a form of wish-fulfillment, but it also always feels bittersweet and hurts cus I know there isn’t any chance in my immediate future for that to ever happen for me. I always find myself going “Gods, I wish that could happen for me.”, but it always feels almost… Half-hearted. Like I don’t want to put someone else through the ordeal of having to deal with me and all my faults and foibles

I’ve had a thought about Kris, and our relationship to them as the player of the game.

We know that Kris resents the player, but is it possible that the player, even in some small way, has resentment towards Kris in return? After all, what is a game if not something MEANT to be played? What is a character in a game, if not a conduit through which we interact with that world? And in doing so, in interacting and playing the game, we are actively going against them. It could be possible to resent that we’re being put in that position in the first place. After all, it’s my character! Why do they have to be aware they’re being controlled??

Kris resents us for taking their autonomy away. We resent them for being aware of that fact

horrortalecomic:

Aliza enjoys her final moments of peace.

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A shout-out for all my readers and supporters for sticking by me into Chapter 4. Some life events are making it tricky to draw these days. I’ll uphold the Sunday Morning schedule the best I can.

nuka-fugu:

A request fanart with Duke from “Vampair” YouTube series by Daria Cohen

I tend not to vent my frustrations cus I don’t like making my friends worry, but gods do I feel lonely. Like, I know I do it to myself by not going out and meeting people, and I know I’m not the most friendly or talkative person at work, but it still stings a bit.

It’s gotten to a point where, when I see sapphic art of any kind, I love it but there’s also a part of me that’s jealous… Of drawings! Of fictional characters even!!!

I guess I’m just so tired of being touch-starved. So tired of not having someone I can lie in bed with, or snuggle up with and watch TV. I always see it depicted and think “Gods I wish that was me!” but at this point I also have to wonder if I would even be good at a physical relationship at all at this point. I’ve lived in isolation since I was a kid, and I continue to worry that I’m not adjusted enough to be with someone and that whoever decided to give me a chance would just think I was too much

stedilnik:

bit fruity with that rifle, lad

Been in a pupper mood lately, so I changed my fursona a bit. She can and will bite owo

tagged by the ever awesome @liyuanne ! Been a hot hoot minute since i did one of these XD

Last Song: NSP Cover of Everybody Wants to Rule the World

Last Book: I haven’t read a book in a VERY long time. I need to get back into the habit, but I got so much goin on OTL

Last movie: Sonic 3

Last TV Show: Psych

Last thing I searched: Gyaru as i didn’t know what it meant. It’s pretty neato :D

Favorite color: Neon Blue

Sweet, Savory, or spicy: Savory. I used to love sweet more, but as I grow older I just prefer a savory snack

relationship status: In a relationship with the wonderful and beautiful @serendipitous-mage , who is the toppest quality bean to ever bean! Love you so much, BB!!! >u<

Looking forward to: Moving to LA, which has been tough and has required a ton of patience, but I will get there. I know I will

Current obsession: There’s this video game I’ve been watching a YouTuber named Criken play called Voices in the Void and it’s SO buck wild and fun looking! O:

Tagging: Eh, I never know who to tag in these ^^;