I feel like this entire sequence of panels is the first time we really see Erwin start to become aware of his own deception, when doubt started to creep into his own mind as to his intentions. We see him leading several units of Garrison soldiers into battle, with Nile questioning him if he's using them as bait, calling him a "devil", and Erwin denying it, saying the aim it to get Eren back, impressing upon them the vital nature of their success, saying humanity will cease to exist on this land if they fail, before telling them to dedicate their hearts (i.e. give their lives).
Later in this same sequence, Erwin famously gets his arm bitten by a Titan and has to cut it off himself to continue on, screaming for his soldiers to keep advancing. Afterward, we see Erwin on the ground, bleeding profusely and unable to keep fighting himself, with a soldier running toward him, crying out for him. Erwin continues attempting to give orders, telling the soldier that he's "replaceable" and reiterating the importance of getting Eren back at all costs. But the panels following that order is remarkably similar to the panel of Erwin's later recollection of the first time he realized he was fighting for something different than everyone else. The first time he realized he was fighting for a personal dream, while everyone else was fighting for humanity. We see Erwin in the foreground, watching on, horrified, as the soldier that had been running toward him gets taken up by a Titan and torn apart in front of him.
The next, several panels of Erwin show him uncharacteristically at a loss as to what to do. The Armored Titan is coming and their ranks are being decimated by the surrounding Titans. Erwin looks on, dazed, no longer shouting out commands. I think this is the moment in the story when Erwin remembered, at last, that moment from his first expedition. When he's surrounded by the meat grinder, forced to watch soldiers under his command being torn to shreds. The earlier moment of Nile accusing him of using them as bait, and Erwin's denial of it, and then Erwin's selfless command to forget about him, to make Eren the priority, contrasted against his helpless paralysis later on, serve I as a demonstration of Erwin's internal struggle between his duty as Commander of the Survey Corps, and the expectation placed on him by that role, and his personal dream being the underlying motivation for all his decisions. This is where I think the guilt finally starts to seep into Erwin's mind on a more conscious level. He sees all these soldiers around him dying, and though he told Nile it was for humanity's survival, willing the soldiers to follow his orders through that insistence, here he's reminded of his youthful realization about the difference between him and everyone else in the SC, and so faced with his own deception, his own manipulations, causing in him a paralyzing guilt, rendering him unable to act even as his soldiers are slaughtered all around him.
Finally, in the last panel, we see the deliberate comparison between Armin and Erwin, with Armin recalling Erwin's hardened leadership, continuing to call out commands even as he's seemingly mortally wounded. Armin wonders what else he needs to "throw away" in order to change, so that he can make a difference, too. He's thinking of Erwin's seeming unwavering dedication to the cause of humanity, his willingness to sacrifice whatever it takes in order to lead humanity to victory, and he wonders what he himself can sacrifice to do the same. This, along with Erwin saying he's "replaceable" is clear foreshadowing of how Armin will, eventually, assume Erwin's role within the story. He thinks of Reiner, Bertolt and Annie, and in the next panel, we see him smiling almost demonically, realizing he needs to let go of his sentimentality regarding those he once considered friends, in order to do his duty and help them to win this battle. We know how next Armin uses manipulation to secure Eren back into their hands, by lying to Bertolt about how they're torturing Annie, etc...
I think it's interesting how in the same chapter, we see Erwin finally waver and be filled with doubt for the first time, while we see Armin cast away his own insecurities for the first time and make the move that ends up being vital in getting Eren away from Renier and Bertolt.
For Erwin, we later see the way his personal dream starts to affect and impact his personal conduct and decision making, with the way he's unable to mask his delight over finding out that Titans are really human beings, and of course, him making choices that he's actively aware harm humanity's chances of survival, while furthering his own goal of seeing what's in Eren's basement. It's like some sort of dam has been broken inside him, unable to hold the dictates of his personal dream in check anymore.
I think this chapter was when we really begin to see the cracks forming in Erwin's psyche and his guilt beginning to affect his ability to properly lead, while we see Armin finally start to come into his own in his willingness to give up something important to him for the greater good.
Absolutely love this OP!
Brought upon ye by @forsaire
Origin of username
Just some silly saying my friends and I would say in our early 20s when we'd be up daydreaming
Food I always order
Pasta. Any pasta. Oh, you give me the cooked flour, egg, and water covered in delicious sauce? Kisses for you. Kisses for eternity for you.
Overused emoji
this bitch 😂
Current media
I'm like a youtube slut. It's where I watch all of my DnD campaigns. Also, video games, but video games are always my go to media
Song on repeat
Sweet Mountain Rose by Nathan Evans
Last hyperfixation
If you've been on tumblr at all in the past month and a half, you've been bombarded with my love for Heated Rivalry. It has bewitched me, body and soul.
Something that brings me joy
My 10 month old puppy who is as weird and dramatic as I am and I love her more and more every day (LOOK AT HER. LOOK AT HOW ADORABLE SHE IS)
Phone wallpaper
A beautiful fanart of the 501st. It's been the wallpaper for years and the og artist is no longer on tumblr, but it's one of my favorite star wars fanarts
A smell I like
Fireplace/firepit on a fall or winter evening. I feel renewed anytime I catch a whiff when I'm walking around the neighborhood
Time of day
I'm all over the place. I wake up early and love watching the world wakeup while sipping my coffee, but I also love the coziness of nighttime, but there's also so much promise in the afternoon
What's your job
Lost my job back in April 2025, but I'm pursuing my MBA in Operations Management and Logistics and my experience is all in operations
Tagging some loves <3 @losersimonriley @starlightvld @gemmahale @marvel-starwarsfangirl
Thank you for the tag @questforgalas ☺️
Origin of username
I just threw together things I like because I’m not that creative in the naming department 😂😭
Food I always order
Chipotle burrito bowl. It’s one of my guilty pleasures.
Overused emoji
☺️
Current media
Video games, YouTube, socials, this site
Song on repeat
Currently: Aizo by King Gnu (can you guess which anime I’ve been watching)?
Last hyperfixation
Attack on Titan, specifically Erwin Smith
Something that brings me joy
My friends! I love hanging out with them and having a good time!
Phone wallpaper
My dog. I miss her so so much 😢
A smell I like
Cinnamon! It’s a very comforting smell.
Time of day
I’m a night owl through and through. Night time is best time.
What’s your job
I currently work as a PCT in a hospital. But my ultimate goal is social work!
Avatar: Fire and Ash Thoughts
I got to see Fire and Ash last night and it was fantastic! Absolutely beautiful film and an absolutely banger soundtrack. I was listening to it on the way home from the theater. I also didn't get too bogged down by the film's length until the end. The pacing was pretty good overall. I love being back in this breathtaking world and with these characters. My favorite characters overall are Neytiri, Kiri, and Spider, however, I do have to hand it to Quaritch and Varang for being standouts. Both match each other's crazy and they are a lot of fun to watch.
I love the dynamic between Kiri and Spider. They always have each other's back and are willing to do whatever it takes for their family. Spider in particular is interesting because he's basically the middle man between Jake and Quaritch. I also enjoy Lo'ak a lot and watching him grow and mature throughout the two films. He and Tsireya are really cute together. (I just love Tsireya in general; she's very sweet and pretty). Also, that one scene with him did make my heart race. If you know, you know.
And Neytiri! She's fierce, protective, loving, strong, an amazing warrior, and a very complex character. This film really builds upon her complexity by showing her grief and hatred towards humans while also having Spider around her family. You understand why she's acts the way she does even though we know Spider is a good person who loves the Na'vi. It was interesting to watch how the film handled this turmoil inside her. The scene that struck hardest for me was when Neytiri told Jake that all she had left was Eywa. She's been through so much having lost her home, father, her son, and is forced to flee in case the RDA returns. Yes, she has Jake, but something could happen to him and the rest of her children. All she has is Eywa to bring her peace that this is Eywa's will. For anyone who is religious/spiritual, it's an incredibly powerful lesson about holding on to that hope, even when nothing else seems to be working. I love her guys.
Quaritch for me is interesting because of the whole recombinant body thing he has going on. You can argue that he and the OG Quaritch are not the same person, therefore, recom Quaritch has the opportunity to grow and learn. There were several instances in this film where Jake is encouraging him to give up his revenge quest and truly explore Pandora. And at times, he almost looks like he's pondering Jake's words. Of course, there's Spider and it did surprise me several times just how much Quaritch was willing to do for him. I have no idea what's next for his character, but a part of me is curious if he will become a less hostile person due to Spider and maybe taking up Jake's suggestion. Idk. He's still very doubled down on his beliefs, but considering that he started to adapt to the Mangkwan's way, anything could happen.
As much as I loved this film, there is was one element that I didn't care for as much. It doesn't take away from my enjoyment, but I wish it was handled a bit differently. That thing is the climax. Spoilers below.
The Stupid Senses
This was a really dumb skit in my brain that I wanted to draw for some time now.
BSD ch 128
My version of English translation of BSD chapter 128.
As always, this is a rough clean and keep in mind that I’m not very fluent.
Tumblr only allows 30 pics per post, so the continuation is in the reblog, and so is the zip file.
The rest of the BSD ch 128 pages here:
UPD: quick fix in the first part as i forgot to merge yet another 2page spread. Sorry.
Another chapter, another day of Fyodor one upping us 🥲
yeah yeah having a crush is embarassing but have you ever watched yourself develop a new category 5 character obsession in real time. agonizingly humiliating shit
@dragons251 @marvel-starwarsfangirl I fear. it is us.
Yeaaahhhhhh
*cough cough Erwin Smith cough cough*
I started rewatching Attack on Titan and like, it’s wild to watch S1 when you have the context for the literal first 5 minutes of the whole show.
This is show that you need to go in without any spoilers because it so perfectly makes the audience feel just as confused and scared as the characters. We don’t know what the Colossal Titan is or where the Titans came from. But in rewatch, you know everything. AoT does such a phenomenal job drawing us into this new world by sticking us right into the center of the action. It’s peak.
Baby Armin, Mikasa, and Eren are so cute btw. I miss when they could just be kids and play together 🥺. I love tho how each character is very quickly established, especially Armin. He’s a dreamer, like Erwin, and there’s something so wonderful about how he talks about his dreams.
And it does make me sad knowing that the Colossal and Armored titans were actually just a baby Reiner and Bertolt. Reiner’s story is easily one of the most devastating to me and Bertolt is a tragedy.
The world of AoT is so harsh and cruel, but that’s why the connections between the characters are so important. In the midst of all the chaos, they have each other.
(And there’s an Erwin cameo! Poor guy was still going through it tho 😭)
Happy New Year!!! 🎉
I just want to wish you guys a blessed and happy New Year! I hope 2026 is filled with love and joy for everyone. To all my mutuals, your content has been a joy to see on my dash and I'm excited for what 2026 will bring to our little corner of the internet ❤️. I love you guys 😊. May our blorbos flourish, fandoms thrive, and passion for our favorite things never cease.
Happy New Year everyone; I hope we all have a wonderful and exciting 2026 :)