anyone else living paralyzed by fear that you'll say one wrong thing and get excluded from the very small places you managed to carve for yourself because you don't have the mental strength to reach out to others anymore
or am i just insane
It is so fucking exhausting fighting your brain every day dude
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just made the most beautiful thing i've ever seen
MY TA SHOT SOMEONE IN THE FOOT AND THE PROFESSOR WAS SO FUCKING QUICK LMAOOO
some context
1. my TA, Ralph, shot his girlfriend’s abusive ex in the foot
2. abusive ex was also a sex offender
3. he shot him when ex came buy to pick some stuff up from girlfriend and tried to take some of Ralph’s items as well
4. ex is stable and alive in a hospital
5. i didn’t do assignment 8 so i am very happy
some more Facts About Ralph
he is whiter then snow. this man is pure 100% american redneck in everything but the politics. this is intimidating if you dont know him because he owns like 3 different guns but also has animated discussions about “how his sister should be able to get married” when you bring up lgbt rights. his sister isnt even gay or trans or anything, he just thinks that LGBT rights also means that the lady should propose when she wants to. hes a little confused but he got the spirit. upon finding out that i am queer he said, word for word “THATS FUCKING RADICAL HOMIE”
in the first week of school he snorted a line of pepper in the cafeteria and threw up.
the only other crime hes committed before was accidently dropping a weight from his balcony and cracking the sidewalk. which is technically destruction of public property but the judge basically laughed at him and have him 10 hours of community service
this man once walked me home when i stayed late at the lab and talked to me animatedly about breeding brine shrimp for different lab purposes. absolutely captivated by this discussion. i trust him with my life
oh mg god this post somehow got better
Ralph has achieved Peak Graduate Student
We stan Ralph
RALPH
RALPH
ralph.
RALPH!
god I wish I had a pair of menacing black gauntlets with really sharp fingertip claws I bet it feels good as fuck to have your hands resting palm-down on a surface and then scratch some deep fucking gashes into it as you clench your hand a little closer to a fist when your evil minion delivers some bad news to you
How clearly does the point need to be made that "police officer" is just a fucking job, one with minimal training and minimal monitoring. It is NOT some kind of promise of honesty, truth, or heroism. It is a bunch of assistant managers with extremely powerful weapons. IF you can understand "pedophiles choose to be priests and teachers so they can get to children", IF you understand "arsonists choose to be firefighters so they can be present at their own crimes" - then you can ALSO understand "people who are bigoted, violent, and power-hungry choose to be cops for the opportunities the job presents" and you can ALSO understand "any occupational culture that chooses fraternity over justice - and the allowance of violence in the name of a unified front - is therefore siding with their worst representatives"
by the way. the average time to train to be a police officer? 19 weeks. A little over 4 months. many states only require a high school diploma and no further education. there is often no requirement of any form of previous experience - no interning or observations. it took me 3 years of experience and a master's degree for me to get my job in writing. hell: in my state, it takes at least 6 months with a permit before people are allowed to drive a car.
being a police officer is an entry-level job, and we are handing them weapons. nothing about their occupation automatically makes them smarter, quicker, braver, or in any way elite. there is very little in their onboarding process that would allegedly "weed out" the worst of the applicants - and once they are part of the fraternity, they're not gonna leave.
we have been taught to respect, honor, and worship them by virtue of a job title they barely even had to try for. they sign no contract, swear no vow, and make no promise to the general public. it is a community that is extolled above others and given virtually no oversight. think about the kind of people who would be attracted to that opportunity. the adage: power corrupts. absolute power corrupts absolutely.
circling this back around to say FUCK ICE, and fuck you if you willingly support them just because they're "a federal agent" and therefore "deserve respect".
ICE officers are a fucking privatized militia they do not have authority over united states citizens and none of their so-called "purpose" requires live rounds and weapons. It is entirely made up of fascist racist dickbags with no fucking training. they are lower than scum. they're police-school dropouts with no fucking spine. there is no honor in their position. they accomplish nothing but terrorizing communities they don't even fucking live in.
Any!! occupation or government !! that chooses fraternity over justice - and the allowance of violence in the name of a unified front - is therefore siding with their worst representatives.
Blood, Bone, Nerve, and Meat being stats.
Blood keeps you from death, and powers your augments.
Bone gives you defense and a place to attach augments.
Nerve lets you controls your augments… and keeps you from insanity or comatose.
Meat… is the most easily replaceable by canibalism. You can use your own to repair damaged augments in battle….
The thing you will have to learn if you're involved in on-the-ground activist spaces is that you have to take breaks. The voice in the back of your head saying "no, you have a moral obligation put this cause ahead of yourself" is evil.
You have a moral obligation to not burn yourself out, because whatever contribution to the cause you make by overdoing it now is orders of magnitude smaller than the contribution that'll be lost when you're burnt the fuck out and cannot contribute anymore.
The incredibly skilled leader who goes above and beyond every single day could be supported by the organization to go slightly less above and beyond, and be an amazing leader for multiple years longer instead of flaming out so badly they can never look at a report again.
Activism is not about winning one huge battle, it's about long-term, sustainable work to make things better.
Honestly I think this applies to online activism too, especially if you’re having to confront your privilege or engage with ideas that make you uncomfortable a lot. That can be a lot of emotional labor sometimes, and it’s easy to burn yourself out before you’ve even done anything useful at all.
Like, educate yourself, try to be a better person, but don’t get so exhausted that you never materially help anyone. Leave yourself time and space to digest concepts. And, importantly, don’t let the emotional work of bettering yourself fool you into feeling like you accomplished something material.
The difference is that online you're not going to see the burnout happen to others up close, and so it's not inevitable that you learn it from experience.
When someone doing online activism burns out, they either just disappear, or have a Totally Inexplicable Crashout Out Of Nowhere after which they Obviously had to log off. It was just Poster's Madness, you see, they'll say.
Now keep doing the massive amount of emotional labor you're morally obligated to do, they'll say. Never curate your online experience, and never prioritize in terms of how you're capable of making an actual impact, because results don't matter, being Less Morally Reprehensible is what matters.
They'll insist that you are never doing enough until simply looking at a device with internet access makes your heartrate spike, and call out anyone who says you can't put out forest fires by yelling at strangers online to piss on them.
Bitches love me for my combat skills, easily reprogrammable mind, and gaping void where my personhood used to be
being online is so scary aren't you guys worried about the world wide spider
It took 36 years for someone to make this joke and by god it was worth the wait
there’s this term i coined in my friendgroup i call “the charizard effect” and it can apply to anything and everything, but it was born from me explaining my feelings about the pokemon charizard. the term is basically about how overexposure to something be it by corporate shilling or fandom prominence drives me away from really enjoying something bc i’m exposed to it so much against my will i become tired of it. it came to me bc i was ranting about how tpci does not, and cannot stop reinventing charizard, and how it is popular and obtusely included in almost every region, merch, etc in every way possible and it’s highly commodified.
i dont dislike the pokemon charizard, in fact i really like its X form, but i am exposed to so much charizard in my pokemon consumption that i cant be bothered to care for it in any more than in passing. this applies to a bunch of other stuff i’d otherwise be ok with, but i always just call this aversion phenomena “the charizard effect”
whoever came up with this is not good at mnemonics
woke up this morning, rolled over, and very confidently tried to blow out my alarm clock like a candle. absolutely no precedent for that.
Ebeneezer in 1742 wakes with a start as for some reason he has put out his guttering candle by slapping atop it ith the palm of his hand. His hand is burned and his nightgown and cap are spattered with hot wax.
Fascinated by the perceived necessity of an Equivalent Exchange
chikorita gets clowned on a lot for its shit stats and a movepool i would be hard-pressed to describe as "extant" but designwise it's really evocative. it begs the kind of questions that make pokemon so magical: what IF a lima bean was a small dog. what IF instead of a head it had like. a weird nub. with an anime face on it. what if it could throw a fistful of razors across the room
at the aquarium there was a small sting ray without a tail and stinger so it was just like a parallelogram swimming around
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