queerer than we can imagine

boldly going. 30s. she/her. ao3. dnp sideblog

i keep thinking about how hudson said he felt physically sick after shooting shane’s rejection of ilya. the completely open and vulnerable expression on ilya’s face morphing into confusion and hurt. i think there’s something so terrible and visceral and affecting and relatable about failing to meet a loved one’s vulnerability with the care it deserves.

while the show may be important for young queer folks, it’s aimed at a more mature audience. i think the scene hits hardest for people who can both feel the vulnerability and heartbreak with ilya AND feel compassion and regret for shane who is not able to meet ilya in that moment.

heated rivalry   tuna melt   ilya rozanov   shane hollander   hudson williams  
1 day ago 54 notes

i got up at 5 to go to the today show plaza to see connor storrie. it was such a fun experience, and connor was so sweet. he came out to the plaza and went around the whole plaza saying hi, thanking people for coming out, signing books and photos, and hi fiving people. such a cool way to start off the day

connor storrie   the today show   2026: year of the sidequest  
4 days ago 22 notes

oldwornoutjeans asked

Im seeing the meteoric rise of the Heated Rivalry guys and I keep getting flashes from the novel you are working on and have read from occasionally. Despite it only being a couple of unfinished chapters, it already has added some foreboding qualities to the phenomenon of fame.

Man what a good tv show tho.

sizzlingsandwichperfection-blog

Great show. Fame sucks.

sizzlingsandwichperfection-blog

I shouldn't say that fame sucks. Fame is a really, really intense drug that causes a lot of positive feelings and has certain positive effects but also a drug that will ruin your fucking life if you're not incredibly lucky, because fame--like a lot of other drugs--will make you believe you can do all kinds of shit you should not do, and it gives you all kinds of feelings you cannot get from regular life.

Also, having and caring about a public persona gives literally everyone on Earth the power to easily make your life worse just by saying that you or your work suck, which is a complex thing to navigate. (Trust me.)

(I am speaking independent of financial independence. Financial independence is, if anything, underrated. But now lots of people get famous without financial independence, probably including the guys in Heated Rivalry. Movies and TV shows pay way less than you think except for the 1%, just like everything else.)

fame   heated rivalry   john green  
6 days ago 898 notes Source

aphantasias

discovering ilya's gasp after shane immediately obeys "more" ... biblical

literally a 1 minute scene and it sets up their dynamic   without ANY dialogue   what the fuck   i love how all of these things work on multiple levels   you can view shane's inability to maintain eye contact through the lens of him being on the spectrum   and then his POV camera focusing on ilya's neck and mouth as a result of that   but it's also because he's having a gay awakening in real time and is horny af   and also because he's discovering his desire to submit   you can do a breakdown of JUST the camera angles projecting what they're looking at   or how the use of the mirror in this scene compares to later in the story   or the feet almost touching vs the cottage couch scene   heated rivalry   meta  
1 week ago 5,315 notes Source