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@miathemerp

He/They, 19. Primary hyper fixations: Prehistoric fauna and Jurassic World Camp Cretaceous & Chaos Theory. 5 years strong bayybeeee I watch things and do art when my brain allows (send help, the lack of motivation is holding me, captive, i miss my hyperfixations)
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Brooklyn's reactions to everything regarding Ben's injury and nearly dying gets me.

Because the others have already been through the death of a friend. A member of their family. They lived for months thinking she died. They know that pain and are about to experience it again.

Brooklyn though? She has witnessed the others nearly die several times (but they were okay right after and/or she could do something) and did think Ben died very early on when he fell off the monorail. However, that was before they bonded, before they were close? Now? It is clear she loves Ben dearly. And she ends up in a moment where she's helpless to save him and she thinks she's going to watch him die painfully.

Do you think she sometimes looks at the others and wonders how they ever forgave her for letting them feel that kind of pain for months?

Watching one of them die slowly and painfully for less than 24 hours nearly shattered her. Do you think she sometimes wonders if she would have ever forgiven one of them if they did that to her? After everything with Ben?

Ben getting injured and nearly dying is so fun to chew on from Brooklyn's perspective considering her character arc for real.

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tried to vent in a trans space about how, as a trans man who’s been on T for a long time (over 7 years now), i have noticed that the more i pass as a man, the less welcomed i am in queer spaces unless i go out of my way to feminize myself. and how that sucks! and it’s isolating!!! and it feels horrible to see ppl who used to like you and be close to you drift further and further the more masculine (& therefore more comfortable in urself) u become…

only to get ppl replying to me and saying “well if you dressed more fem then ppl wouldn’t be intimidated by you. you signed up for this”

i’m sorry but i didnt sign up for social isolation when i transitioned, i signed up for gender euphoria and comfort in myself and my life. and i had hoped that the ppl in my life would be able to see how much joy that brings me and continue to love me.

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A cis woman tells me that maybe she should transition to gain male privilege as I'm recovering from getting beaten up in the men's bathrooms.

I tell her to be my guest and give me a call when she gets her jaw broken, I always carry a first aid kit and a pepper spray.

She calls me a misogynistic asshole.

A cis man tells me that he'd sure love some T.

Gave him my prescription and best of luck with the constant shortages and getting denied.

He calls me a pussy.

I'm fighting for my life and reproductive rights. I get told to get off women's fights, that it's not about me, like I shed my womb after my first T shot.

I search for support groups for SA victims, and I'm stuck in the same “women/NBs only”. Still shooting my shot, send an application. I introduce myself. Never get a call back.

I go to a trans night. Say I go by he/him. Get told back “yeah, that's how we all start !” by a trans woman. I'm too exhausted, I get up and I leave.

I hang out with my friends, one of them drunkenly says masculinity is a prison we must learn to escape. She gets rows of applause. Back to drinking alone.

Yes I could explain it. But who'd you rather be ? A delusional girl or a man made threat ?Or it could be better, I could just not exist ! And we'd bleach my corpse and I'd become a casualty. Not an F, ot an M, a W for Wound and for Wrong.

I put a candle on a single cupcake, 2 years on HRT. I blow it in the dark. Curtains closed like casket.

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THANK YOU CHAOS CREW!!

The week after season 1 of Camp Cretaceous came out, I saw it while scrolling through my Netflix just looking for something to watch. I had zero prior knowledge of Jurassic World or anything dinosaur-related going into it, but that didn’t matter. It just seemed like a fun little kids’ show that would be an easy watch. But somehow that show completely changed my life in ways I didn’t know a single form of media could. I’ve rewatched it countless times, and ALMOST forgot about it until Chaos Theory came around and hooked me all over again. It’s easy to say all this on a superficial level, but my love and appreciation for this show goes so much deeper than that. The characters are so, so, so special to me. They are extremely well written and well developed, and that makes them seem like real people instead of cartoon characters. They have flaws, quirks, and all their traits are consistent without being shoved in your face. The plot of this show makes me feel like it could go on forever without feeling like it’s being dragged on at all. Each story has so many levels and it’s fun to go back and dig deep into them, because there will always be more to uncover on each rewatch. I don’t think I could ever get bored of it the way I get bored of other shows when I watch them too much. The writers and producers did such an amazing job with all of this. The art style of this show is also something that has consistently drawn me to it. I love the realistic growth their designs get from Camp Cretaceous to Chaos Theory. The style is enough to make the characters feel alive and real while keeping the lovable, cartoony feeling. The animation is incredible and each scene has so much work put into it, I truly admire all the artistic minds that worked on the show. I also greatly admire all the cast and voice actors of these characters. It’s never a dull episode with the characters’ voices because they feel so true to themselves, and the va’s do such a great job at bringing the characters’ emotions to life through their words and voices. When I found out Brooklynns va in Chaos Theory, Kiersten Kelly, made music before joining the cast, I became obsessed with her songs and voice. The characters’ voices also had a very realistic evolution throughout the two shows, which the cast pulled off so well. Lastly, I do want to give a quick shoutout to this wonderful community for welcoming me into the fandom and making this whole thing possible. I haven’t been in the actual fandom for too long, but I wouldn’t trade the time I’ve been here for the world.

I know I’m rambling a lot, but my appreciation for this show is truly beyond words. I tried to keep it as short as possible, but I could go on forever and it still wouldn’t be enough to describe everything this show has done for me. Is that a little dramatic? Sure, but yet somehow it’s exactly what the chaos crew deserves for creating not one, but TWO works of art that changed the lives of hundreds of people. We’re all sad to see it end, but it’s been a good run and I couldn’t ask for anything more. Once again, thank you chaos crew so much for all the hard work that went into everything. Sending lots of love from all the participants of this event!!

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(this is campbenji!!) need to ask the biggest ben enthusiast i know how we feeling after this season??

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I am still in a state of limbo, I think.

The season was phenomenal, but the emotional rollercoaster it gave me was so draining (in a good way but still). I am so... when I was watching the second half of the season, I was cursing myself to hell and back for choosing Ben as my fav character.

Overall, I am so... ecstatic that they still managed to find a new side of Ben to show to us. I absolutely loved his behaviour pre-injury when he was actively trying to find ways to make Brooklynn feel included again. All those little gestures, all those nudges to make sure that she would find her place in the group again. I was so... my heart was growing. That's my boy <3

At the same time, it was so... (I don't even have a word for this) Nerve-wrecking but with a pinch of some strange satisfaction to see Ben so... afraid. It was terrifying, too, to see him fight back until, at some point, you could see that he was making his peace with the fact that he may not survive this.

It was heartbreaking. In a good way, but gods, my guts still hurt.

(Please let me know how do you feel about this season, I am so curious!!)

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Happy belated Dakota day, the day when we remind ourselves that Cavendish got himself the sweetest piece of pie in the whole bakery, and honestly good for him

and here’s the first sketch of the boys I made back when I just started watching MML

Dakavendish been living in my head for 2 years now! Rent free! They aren’t paying rent, and I allow it! What the hell

When you transition people tell you “it’s like watching someone die”. Like yeah a fucking loser died. Just the absolute lamest dude you ever met. A real dogshit guy just bought it. So sorry your absolute failure of a man is gone and has been replaced by a hot chick, must be hard for you 🙄

I think these tags are actually quite lovely and insightful!

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