the image of Harry cheering himself up by buying a brightly colored tie just kills me. he didn’t smile. it's a very mundane moment of everyday misery. I don’t know I’m a little stuck on it. it was a little treat for a guy who’s kept his work wardrobe very strict for 18 years. a dash of color for a deeply closeted gnc guy who mourns the passing of disco.

the image of Harry cheering himself up by buying a brightly colored tie just kills me. he didn’t smile. it's a very mundane moment of everyday misery. I don’t know I’m a little stuck on it. it was a little treat for a guy who’s kept his work wardrobe very strict for 18 years. a dash of color for a deeply closeted gnc guy who mourns the passing of disco.

I get annoyed when people act like the tie itself is what’s hurting Harry. It’s part of his brain that’s trying to keep him alive, it reminds him not to kill himself. It tries to squeeze out dopamine from any situation it can. It’s absolutely not good for him, but it’s literally just him.

Anyway most disturbing tie dialogue is the panic attack autoerotic asphyxiation scene, where the tie takes on the role of mimicking Harry’s unknown sexual abuser(s), trying to pressure him into sex. It’s really upsetting. This is supposed to be Harry’s fun imaginary friend but their dynamic is twisted and toxic because it’s this embodiment of his coping mechanisms. Harry is fixated on sexual self harm, of course the tie will reflect that.

It’s really good writing. It’s ridiculous, it’s uncomfortable, it’s very vulnerable. I think how Disco uses humor to make Harry’s trauma more palatable is very interesting. We know how Kurvitz views humor as something inherently dark, something that isn’t your friend. Idk I’m rambling. Got Harry on my mind tonight. :(

Going back to my original post, about it being a splash of color: Kim has dialogue about how wearing plainclothes helped him loosen up a lot.

I think it’s significant to note that Harry could’ve been wearing plainclothes for many years of his 18 year long career but chose not to. it sounds like he was a uniform everyday sort of guy. Isn’t that interesting? Harry smothering his real self, his flamboyance and whimsy under his work uniform. Hiding his identity as a GNC bisexual under the safe masculinity of a cop identity.

Harry represses and represses until he breaks three months before the start of the game. He buys himself a colorful tie that wants him to loosen up. He spends money on his custom disco outfit, his snakeskin heels. And he becomes a joke. Not wholly himself. Still a facade that he plays up. Loud crazy disco cop.

good additions from @shortnervouswreck

Harry worked so hard to be The Goodest Cop, to get the Best Grade In Being A Cop. He and Kim desperately wanted to believe in policing and it’s easy to see why, it’s the closest thing Revachol has to self governance and they grew up in an active war zone. They want so badly to help people.

If policing is broken it means there’s no hope for Revachol sovereignty. It means they wasted their lives. They’re so deep in the sunk cost fallacy.

@volitioncheck YEAH…

the scene is so sad and eerie, I remember @mindblownie2 SOMEONE describing it as cops opening a mummy's tomb and seeing their own future

ESPRIT DE CORPS - "Goddamn..." officer Michel 'Elfboy' Williams speaks to himself. His partner, Sundance Fischer, looks at the patrol uniform he's wearing -- then at an identical suit framed on the wall. It's blue and covered in dust. "Let's get the fuck out of here," he turns to Williams, "he hasn't been here in days."

Been feeling existential lately. Maybe it’s the quarter life crisis, maybe it’s the seasonal depression, but I’ve really been wondering what’s the point. What’s the mwanjng of life. Why do we go on when everything feels so small and inconsequential in the grand scheme of the world.

I’ll get back to y'all when I have an answer (might take a while).

tribunal

tribunal

🪩Pietà (Disco Elysium)🪩

This is easily one of my most detailed pieces to date. Harry and Skills, painted in reference to "Pietà" by William-Adolphe Bouguereau. I need a long lay down after this one 💃

You can get this as a print on my INPRNT shop!!

🪩Pietà (Disco Elysium)🪩

This is easily one of my most detailed pieces to date. Harry and Skills, painted in reference to "Pietà" by William-Adolphe Bouguereau. I need a long lay down after this one 💃

You can get this as a print on my INPRNT shop!!

i am of course not the first person to say it but i love trans harry. ohhh to me harry is a bigender miracle that will never have access to healthcare and may never have words for his gender identity and that doesnt have to be tragic it just is

sheer dresses and chest hair and french braids and mutton chops, highly feminine and masculine at any time and simultaneously... calls himself big mama when he's feelin it... he wants to be a husband and a mother... just high femmmasc hardcore to the absolute mega!!!

i am of course not the first person to say it but i love trans harry. ohhh to me harry is a bigender miracle that will never have access to healthcare and may never have words for his gender identity and that doesnt have to be tragic it just is

sheer dresses and chest hair and french braids and mutton chops, highly feminine and masculine at any time and simultaneously... calls himself big mama when he's feelin it... he wants to be a husband and a mother... just high femmmasc hardcore to the absolute mega!!!

I don't think he cares much about pronouns but he comes up with dramatic names whenever he feels like it. The names are a little bit of theatre but the outfits are very personal. He has too many clothes in every closet and drawer and unorganized bag. He starts with prints and accessories and then dives straight to dresses I think. He loves things that are tight (leopard print) and things that are soft (lamby).

Once he's more comfortable with his femininity I think he'd really enjoy his masculinity too. I think he's so capable of change and fluidity once he lets himself release the shame of not always being what he thinks he needs to be. Just being what he wants to be right now.

it's not an easy world to be so clearly playful with your gender and he won't, doesn't, will never 'pass' and there's so many moments where his spirit is hurt back into the small box he came out of when he's "too feminine" in places that are afraid of that. But now he knows how to release his spirit again.

i’m workin on a playthrough and got this bit again tonight and it gives me... SUCH harry gender feels...

[a screenshot of the game disco elysium. Text reads:

SAVOIR FAIRE - Mm, the luxury of fine things. Just look at those black monk straps! After spending an entire day hustling, who's to say that you *didn't* deserve a pair of ridiculously expensive shoes on your tired feet?

YOU - You're right, beautiful things do make people happy...

SAVOIR FAIRE - Beautiful things give you a *rush*. It's power - crafting your style, draping your flesh in silk and leather, deciding how to present yourself to the world.

CONTINUE >]

disco elysium probing around a corpse's soft palate up into his brain with your bare hands to find and retrieve the hidden bullet there while kim kitsuragi watches and says "mhm. keep going" sex scene you will always be famous

disco elysium probing around a corpse's soft palate up into his brain with your bare hands to find and retrieve the hidden bullet there while kim kitsuragi watches and says "mhm. keep going" sex scene you will always be famous

Whenever your niche interest or knowledge happens to overlap with a popular piece of media, you’re legally required to post about it, so I’d like to take a moment to tell you about 10 codes in Disco Elysium! (all images taken from the Let’s Play by Arist on lparchive.org)

10-2: Signal good

10-5: Relay message

10-4: Affirmative, has also expanded to mean “all clear” based on the context (everyone already knows this one lol)

10-18: Urgent

10-20: (state your) location

10-9: Repeat message, as you might have guessed

But 10-22 means “disregard.” It’s often used to report false alarms, cancel dispatch requests, or to correct a mistake, e.g. “It’s at 123 Evergreen - 10-22 that, it’s at 321 Evergreen.”

I have spent far too much time thinking about this and I have several explanations, in descending order of believability:

1. An honest mix-up with 10-21, “Call.” I don’t think this is very likely, especially not in a game as lovingly and deliberately crafted as DE, but it was worth mentioning.

2. Jules is discreetly saying that he’ll cover for Harry and not report the missing badge. But if that were the case, he’d say something more like “I will 10-22 the issue to the captain” or “I’ll tell the captain to 10-22.” Saying you’ll “10-22 the captain” would mean you will disregard something said by the captain himself.

3. They’re based on some old or regional 10 codes where 10-22 means something more like “relay message.” It’s certainly possible, but from what I’ve seen and heard, “10-22” is one of the more common and standard 10 codes. They would’ve had to go out of their way to pick a very obscure 10 code system.

4. The precinct uses 10-22 to refer to some kind of report or notice, as in “tell the captain to 10-22 anything reported with this badge number until it’s recovered.” Given how the use of 10 codes can drift and expand over time, I actually kinda like this explanation.

5. They knew the most common/universal 10 codes (10-2, 10-5, 10-20, etc) and made stuff up for the rest of them. There was an odd use of 10-10 as well, but they weren’t worth bringing up because 10-10 *officially* means “fight in progress” but can also mean a hundred other things depending on where you are and who you’re talking to. 10-22 is kind of in the middle where it’s a fairly common but not as universal as, say, 10-5 or 10-20. And, well, 10 codes are an American thing and the creators are Estonian.

Whenever your niche interest or knowledge happens to overlap with a popular piece of media, you’re legally required to post about it, so I’d like to take a moment to tell you about 10 codes in Disco Elysium! (all images taken from the Let’s Play by Arist on lparchive.org)

10-2: Signal good

10-5: Relay message

10-4: Affirmative, has also expanded to mean “all clear” based on the context (everyone already knows this one lol)

10-18: Urgent

10-20: (state your) location

10-9: Repeat message, as you might have guessed

But 10-22 means “disregard.” It’s often used to report false alarms, cancel dispatch requests, or to correct a mistake, e.g. “It’s at 123 Evergreen - 10-22 that, it’s at 321 Evergreen.”

I have spent far too much time thinking about this and I have several explanations, in descending order of believability:

1. An honest mix-up with 10-21, “Call.” I don’t think this is very likely, especially not in a game as lovingly and deliberately crafted as DE, but it was worth mentioning.

2. Jules is discreetly saying that he’ll cover for Harry and not report the missing badge. But if that were the case, he’d say something more like “I will 10-22 the issue to the captain” or “I’ll tell the captain to 10-22.” Saying you’ll “10-22 the captain” would mean you will disregard something said by the captain himself.

3. They’re based on some old or regional 10 codes where 10-22 means something more like “relay message.” It’s certainly possible, but from what I’ve seen and heard, “10-22” is one of the more common and standard 10 codes. They would’ve had to go out of their way to pick a very obscure 10 code system.

4. The precinct uses 10-22 to refer to some kind of report or notice, as in “tell the captain to 10-22 anything reported with this badge number until it’s recovered.” Given how the use of 10 codes can drift and expand over time, I actually kinda like this explanation.

5. They knew the most common/universal 10 codes (10-2, 10-5, 10-20, etc) and made stuff up for the rest of them. There was an odd use of 10-10 as well, but they weren’t worth bringing up because 10-10 *officially* means “fight in progress” but can also mean a hundred other things depending on where you are and who you’re talking to. 10-22 is kind of in the middle where it’s a fairly common but not as universal as, say, 10-5 or 10-20. And, well, 10 codes are an American thing and the creators are Estonian.

Edit: also applies to contacts btw

Edit: also applies to contacts btw

Please share btw i wanna hear about you guys' experiences

kim going through his notes and harry going through electrochemistry check, dont expect him to listen

kim going through his notes and harry going through electrochemistry check, dont expect him to listen