Am I bisexual with a preference or Lesbian?
As of right now I identify as bisexual. But recently I’ve been questioning it. All the time I see people talking about their sexuality and how they figured it out.
So with me, I’ve dated only boys. Never have I actually dated or had a thing with a girl (cause I can’t flirt for shit when it comes to women, it’s always just “you so pretty/beautiful” and that’s all I can come up with)….. I feel nothing special when dating boys though. It makes me feel awkward and uncomfortable a lot. But with girls I feel more comfortable and I would much rather be intimate with them.
And with marriage, I’ve never been interested in the idea of it because the thought of marrying a man makes me feel as if I’d be trapped. Then, I think of a women in the place of the man and it’s like a dream. So I start wondering if I’d wear a dress or some kind of suit. It intrigues me y’know.
And the only time a guy gets my interest is if their fictional or I know I’d never be able to be with them. Like random strangers I see at a store or some kind of celebrity.
Maybe if i dated the right guy I’d be comfortable but at this point I’m not so sure anymore.
I’ve also came out as bisexual to my family and I feel like if I change it I’m practically asking myself to get more judged than I already am.
I don’t know what to do.
Maybe I’m just psyching myself out.


