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@myriaos

Your life matters. Your opinion matters. Your feelings matter. True light needs darkness to shine.
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You know what I'm a major sucker for?

Having a choice. Seeing how those choices shape things.

What I think is super key to remember is that Connor and Hudson are likely getting the same choices now. The parties, the scripts, the events, the brands, the followers. Like, we even know that Connor was invited to Milan, too.

But they're not the same person. They don't necessarily have the same goals.

So what we will see now - and it will be incredibly exciting - is just how different these two careers might look, because it's people driving those strategies based on what they need and want. I, for one, think that's really fucking cool.

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Im not going to watch heated rivalry, mostly cause of the sex (🖤🩶🤍💜) but also doesn't seem like it would interest me much, but i am just having the time of my life

The queer community is winning. The russians are winning. Canada is winning. The fluff lovers are winning. The smut likers are winning. The hockey people are winning. The hockey rpf people are winning. The rpfers are winning in general. The people who hate the book but love the concept are winning. The actors are winning. The creator is winning.

This is a perfect fandom concoction that anyone in and outside of the show's fanbase can have fun in

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jacob tierney i hereby give you permission to ignore rachel and trade marly to the centaurs a couple of months after ilya 😌

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I am currently vibrating out of my skin waiting for the HEATED RIVALRY finale and the cottage and the only thing that has kept me in the general vicinity of sanity has been the absolutely god tier fic. I can't tell you how many times I've had to practically shove my face into my hoodie to try to muffle the cackling laughter because I was not going to explain what I was reading to the people around me, but all the lolz-worthy fic really did help take the edge off the desperate intensity of feelings I had after episode 5.

I meant to post this sooner, but then wound up adding to it and adding to it because I couldn't stop reading and I still am further behind on my reading list than the last time I checked the tag on AO3. What an incredible fandom to get to watch explode, from this medium-sized book fandom I joined just a month before the show started, not even realizing that it was about to get such an incredible adaptation, but goddamn is there some fucking talent here. Hayden and Jackie are getting the love from fandom that they deserve! And you have no idea how many loopy!Shane or social media fics I have read and how each of them are incredible! Centaur team shenanigans! THIS FANDOM IS SO GOOD TO ME.

HEATED RIVALRY - NO I WON’T BE CHILL ABOUT THE GAY HOCKEY PLAYERS SHOW:

  • please leave a message by Ravenesta, ilya(/shane) & jackie & ocs, 2.4k     Sarah Does anyone have the number for Shane's girl from Boston? I feel bad that they've been seeing each other for this long and we've never added her here. Jackie Oh good point! Let me ask Hayden. Jackie has added Lily to the conversation Lily what what is this
  • lost in translation by gurlsrool, ilya/shane & troy/harris & centaurs & oc, nsfw, 4.5k     The Centaurs' newest rookie speaks Russian. It's too bad that Shane and Ilya don't know that.
  • it's a fine line (between love and hate) by londonfoglatte (nimbus2003), ilya/shane & centaurs, nsfw, 4.1k     five times shane and ilya's friends worry they're are on the verge of divorce -- and one time they realize they're flirting.
  • don't ask (and i won't tell) by londonfoglatte (nimbus2003), ilya/shane & troy/harris & centaurs, NSFW, 4.2k     five times shane and ilya's friends have questions about gay sex -- and one time they wish they knew less.
  • I'll be Your Father Figure by Signsofsam, ilya/shane & david, 1.5k     Five posts David Hollander makes about Ilya, and one time Ilya returns the favor.
  • I'll Make It Better by imperfectcircle, kenopsia (indie), ilya/shane, 4.3k     "Hey," Ilya says, magnetized and moving towards him. Shane looks — soft, he looks fine, so fucking breakable but not broken. "There's my man," Shane says, in a small voice, musical. Ilya closes the distance between them, needing to touch him and needing him to lower his voice in equal measure.
  • it started with a whisper by gurlsrool, troy/harris & ilya/shane & centaurs & cast, 5.8k     When Adrian Dela Cruz reveals he dated an NHL player, chaos and damage control ensue. A story told through texts, tweets, and one pretentious Variety article.
  • The Waiting Game by Rizandace, ilya/shane & hayden & svetlana, 16k     Hayden Pike and Ilya Rozanov are waiting for Shane to wake up after he took a bad hit on the ice. They get to talking.
  • still the best (still an asshole) by pucksandpower, ilya/shane & centaurs, NSFW, 18.2k     Four times Ilya Rozanov reminded everyone exactly who the fuck they were dealing with (spoiler: still an asshole, still elite, still not going anywhere), and one time he didn’t have to be anything except soft.
  • Hop, Bunny, Hop by theemporium, ilya/shane, NSFW, 4.8k     Or, a bet was made and Shane is a good sportsman. That is the only reason he is putting on rozanov's jersey. Promise.
  • Troublemaker by White_Noise, ilya(/shane) & (scott/)kip, 5k     Kip's first outing as Scott's partner after the Stanley Cup results in an unexpected friendship with Ilya Rozanov.
  • The same number of stars by GlitterCity, ilya/shane, 2.9k     “Ilya?” Shane said in that same dreamy, loopy voice as that morning. Ilya exhaled in a rush. “Shane,” he said, and wanted to sag against the glass with relief. “What happened? Is something wrong?” “Not! Any moooooooore.”
  • a long way to go by goldengalaxies, (ilya/)shane & hayden & j.j. & voyageurs, 2.2k     "He's a fucking liar-" J.J shouted. The anger in his voice finally did it for Shane. The emotions bubbled over. "I get it okay! Yes, I lied! Fuck. But it wasn't just my secret to keep. Don't you get that?"
  • Concussion Protocol by cjr2, ilya/shane & cast, NSFW, 26.7k wip     Instead of Shane, it is Ilya who suffers a concussion during the Boston-Montreal game in April 2017. Dazed and agitated, Ilya briefly starts speaking and responding only in Russian and the medics can’t calm him down. Luckily, Shane started studying Russian after Ilya spoke to him in Russian on the phone from Moscow.
  • Confidence, Poor Judgment, and a Death Wish by TheHeartWantsWhatTheHeartWants, ilya/shane & troy & centaurs, 17.5k wip     “Hey, Ilya?” Troy asks, already regretting it. “I was actually going to ask you about someone.” The moment he says Shane Hollander’s name, the locker room goes quiet, and Troy knows he’s crossed a line he didn’t fully understand.
  • The Long Weekend by elephantshoes, ilya/shane, 2.8k     A long weekend at Shane’s cottage is meant to be quiet, private, and uncomplicated. Then Ilya discovers canoes, wildlife, and the exact limits of Shane’s patience—and somewhere between turtles, bets, and stolen kisses, Shane realizes he’s already given Ilya more than a key.
  • The Way Hockey Is by Erisenyo, ilya/shane & cliff & hayden, 5.6k     “Oh fuck,” Cliff hears himself say out loud as his brain suggests—something. “Roz and Holl…oh, fuck.”
  • Is Ilya Rozanov Really....? (A 5+1 story) by Ubiquitously_Ubiquitous, ilya/shane & ocs, 12k     Is Ilya Rozanov really . . . ? Or after Ilya signs with the Ottawa Centaurs, five times Ilya’s new neighbors in Ottawa learned he was nothing like they expected, plus the one time he was.
  • All The Things He Said (Running Through My Head) by lipstickliterature, ilya/shane, NSFW, 6.7k     In Episode 4, Shane leaves the nightclub with Rose. In the book, he leaves alone. But what if he had left with Ilya instead?

MORE RECS UNDER THE CUT because I have zero self-control about the amount of fic I want to shove at you all.

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Considering Cliff Marleau is probably Ilya's best friend on the team, and picks up on the fact that Ilya has someone special in Montreal who is important to him.

But also knows how Ilya acts, will Marleau notice how Ilya acts after Shane gets hurt? I mean, sure, Ilya respects Shane as a top athlete to compete against, both privately and publicly. But there is a concern about a rival who challenges you to be your best. And someone who looks like they are about to lose their whole world.

Granted, Cliff will have other things on his mind, like his own fear that Shane will be permanently injured by Marleau's actions. It was an accident, and Marleau simply caught Shane at a bad angle.

Marleau isn't a bad guy; he would feel bad about Shane being permanently injured or paralyzed. No professional athlete would want to ruin another athlete's career or their life. Especially as Cliff can see how upset Ilya is about what happened.

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friends we make along the way

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“I’m considering early retirement,” announces Hayden the moment Marleau picks up his phone.

“Yeah, Cens literally obliterated you," he admits. He watched the game, of course, so he understands how Pike must feel. The game was difficult, brutal; Ottawa team was relentless and their two star centers were vicious in their efforts. Metros were, to put it lightly, helpless and lost. It ended 0-9 for the Centaurs. “It’s not like you guys didn’t deserve it.” He adds, his words harsh but his tone without any vitriol.

“I know,” Pike sighs, “but it still stings. It was so bad, I even got an apology from Roz. Well, his own form of apology.”

“Classic Roz,” Cliff muses. It doesn’t escape his attention that Hayden used the same nickname he uses when speaking about Rozanov. And he canʼt resist teasing his friend a little. “So... Since when he’s Roz to you?”

Hayden scoffs loudly and Cliff’s mouth splits into a grin.

“Fuck you. I am out there, suffering, hoping that you could understand my pain and you only focus on this.”

“Well, I’ve never heard you using this nickname before. You gotta admit that anything that comes out of your mouth that’s not fucking Rozanov is a bit odd.”

“Come on, this man is basically like my brother in law. He’s my kids’ favorite uncle, he has personal items in my house in case they visit us. I’ve literally caught him multiple times giving Shane blowjobs or vice versa, I think we’re way past Rozanov at this point,” Hayden admits, not without a hint of exasperation in his voice.

“Awwww,” Cliffs coos, “Roz will be thrilled to hear that he’s family to you.”

He hears Hayden cursing, not too subtly.

”Don’t you dare telling him that. I will beat you with a stick next time we’re in Boston,” Hayden threatens and it draws another laugh from Marleau. It’s really endearing and entertaining to see those two men still refusing to admit that they’ve grown fond of each other after all these years. Cliff, on the other hand, had no issue admitting that Hayden Pike has become his friend, his co-patriot in suffering by the hand of Hollander-Rozanov union. He genuinely likes the guy and is thankful that he is not the only one who is traumatized by witnessing first husbands of hockey in a different states of undress.

Now it seems like they will add experiencing Hollander-Rozanov playing together and absolutely smashing the shit out of their ex teams to their PTSD memories.

“On a serious note, though, I am really sorry you and JJ had to endure it. It always sucks when you lose a game but sucks even more if you lose that badly and against your friends.” Cliffs says after a moment of silence. “Not gonna lie, I am scared shitless to face them now when they play together.”

Hayden chuckles.

“Yeah, it was a nightmare to face them separately but facing both of them? You’ll wish you were never born. Or you will want to retire like me only to not have to play against them ever again.”

“Safe to assume that the Cens will win the cup this year, huh?”

“With those two demons on the rink? That’s a really safe bet. They deserve it, though.”

Cliffs hums in agreement, nodding his head even though Hayden can’t see it. He suddenly realizes that the background noise stopped some time ago and he hears his friend’s voice more clearly.

”Wait, Pike, are you at home already?”

”Yeah, a while ago. I mean I arrived a while ago but didn’t go home yet. How did you know I was driving?”

Cliff rolls his eyes.

“We talk on the phone like constantly. I’ve heard you driving like thousands times already. I am surprised you feel surprised by this. Anyway, you must be fucking exhausted. Go home and rest.”

“You are absolutely right, ’m little tired,” admits Hayden and resist an urge to yawn.

“I bet. Say hi to Jackie and the kids when you’re home. Hear you tomorrow after I beat Hunter’s ass?”

“Are you sure you can do that without Roz?” Pike chirps and if they were on FaceTime, Cliff would absolutely flip him off.

“Have a nice dreams about your ass getting kicked by the husbands!” He fires back.

The last thing he hears before Hayden hangs up is “fuck you, Marly” and that makes him grin even more.

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can we please please please with a cherry on top get more Jane and lily fics??

I would literally give my first born to read a fic where the raiders put Ilya on suicide watch whenever Jane isn't talking to him. 2017 was actually the worst year for them, they were being tortured on training and chirped to hell and back.

Marleau would actually notice how whenever they're in Montreal or he just talked to Jane Ilya tries to cut back on smoking, and you best believe he is threatening Ilya to 'tell your Montréal girl jane' anytime he steps outta line.

THEY HAVE A SEPERATE GROUP CHAT TO SEE HOW HIS MONTREAL GIRL IS TREATING HIM TO SEE WHAT THEY'LL HAVE TO DEAL WITH

please please please ☹️☹️☹️

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au where cliff marleau and hayden pike connect the dots, realise their suspicions and try to verify with evidence so start meeting in secluded places to try and gain evidence for the theory that shane is jane and ilya is lily…

BUT social media ends up tracking their steps and suddenly its all over the news, tumblr, twt, etc that cliff marleau and hayden pike are ‘suspiciously friendly’ aka are having an affair

the clifya and shayden stans go wild with in-fighting as some switch to the ‘canon’ pairing and some even join forces to take down the ‘parleau’ stans while the hollanovs watch on for entertainment

somehow all ends well and this leads to an exasperated hayden and ilya—who is disgusted people could think his best friend would date the 15th best montreal player of all people—to teaming up and accidentally revealing that its SHANE and ILYA who are together

and hayden and cliff are in no way shape and form together….though their mrs’ bonded over reading the tumblr theories and fics together!

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Anonymous asked:

i know this is not at all your hc but in my imagination hudson and connor both know they’re queer already but have had verrry different queer adolescent experiences so still have some mismatching. Like connor going from clockable queer overtly bullied in odessa which maybe is real? Thought i made it up but it feels rather familiar? to LA where he can be gay but only in a specific sceney way that’s not really him but it’s better than before and he tries to push it where he can but it’s still restrictive. Going to france for a year exposes him to a whole other approach to being gay that also isn’t him but it’s helpful and refreshing and when he gets back he’s more aware of how he relates to la gay culture both positively and negatively. And hudson “sexuality is fluid” “pressure to be perfect” simultaneously theater kid and basketball “to fit in” (but also bc he enjoys it) and mma like, in theory self accepting but in practice afraid to show it bc it’ll make things messy. Pulled in many directions by many expectations. Has queer friends who disdain the sports side of him not understanding that it’s part of his queerness. Ends up nebulously queer in a way he embraces but won’t name bc what’s the point, he’s ‘idk fluid’ if you ask but he’s not interested in coming out, his sexuality has to be malleable for all the other pieces to fit together. And then those two people meeting and being like oh we click so well but we come from such different experiences. Idk i think there’s a lot of potential to a dynamic where hudson is also already queer but just is very different about it, maybe shy/closed off about it, and here’s connor comparatively loud and proud and secure or whatever. Maybe a hudson who knows he’s queer but hasn’t gotten to actually experiment bc ppl assume he’s straight, or who has lots of experience and worried connor thinks he isn’t gay enough bc people have told him that in the past, or who is only out to connor and not the rest of the production bc he’s not used to being that open. Connor is fascinated and has a lot of other feelings but he’s trying sooo hard to keep it professional at least while they’re filming. After it wraps anything could happen… but he doesn’t want to make it weird for season two… and their friendship is so good and special… and things are so much more legible and clear cut with francois… meanwhile hudson knows exactly what his own feelings are (yearning real bad) and is frustrated that no one expects it of him, not even connor who seemed to understand him so well. And he’s scrolling twitter wishing people assumed he was queer the way they do about connor (hasn’t he dropped enough hints by now? what more does he have to do?) even though he knows being straight passing gave him protection growing up while connor was being bullied so he feels like he can’t even complain to him about it, but maybe it’s connected, maybe connor would like him back if he was more openly/declaredly/perfomedly queer like francois but if that’s what it takes does he even want it? Who is he kidding yes. But didn’t he want connor in the first place because he could be himself with him, and now it turns out himself isn’t enough?

this is VERY delicious anon!!! and I am vast I can contain multitudes of headcanons about hudson’s fictional sexuality lol. I DO like the idea of a hudson who’s queer but everyone keeps persistently reading him as straight… that’s delicious 2 me. and we can all have a little biphobia to create conflict in our fictional pairings as a treat… hudson has a girlfriend and so everyone’s like oh sure he’s fluid in the way that your typical straight actor guy is fluid ie he’s used to hanging out with gays and might flirt with guys here and there but he’s for sure going home to a normal heterosexual sex + a white picket fence kinda situation. so don’t get tangled up in yearning for that when you know nothing’s going to come of it

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Where's the heart I was dreaming of?

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Anonymous asked:

You read the interviews with FA where he claimed young fans not being able to understand the difference between reality and fiction? And...bruh... For the sake of Connor I wish he would just shut up. Why is he not able to make a statement without any implication? This makes me so sad. For Connor. FA is not a good friend, when he keeps going fueling those rumors and obviously he wouldn't be a good what ever.

I haven’t, but would like the link, because I would like to understand the context myself regarding his definition of “young fans.” Seeing as HR, while not porn, is geared toward a mature and grown demographic.

Of course minors are going to watch and engage in fandom and be annoying about grown people business, because they are too young to understand, but I need to see if he’s referencing “young” as “underage” or as “twenty-something”.

If the former, then I understand that. I would still question though, why he’s saying some of the stuff he is, thus pushing the idea that Hollanov and Skip can’t both be equally as sex forward and romantically involved, if he knows underage people are watching and will misconstrue. If he knows they’re latching on to one side over the other, due to an age based lack of experience.

If it’s the latter, I’m curious to see what the age cut-off is for “young”, since he has called a 24 year old “Kiddo”, even in jest, and said he thinks they’re too online, yet is repeatedly seen with someone 25 years old in a way that suggests they could be more than friends.

As well, what projections? Because Scott and Ilya are not friends nor flirtatious in the show, nor are the enemies, so I assume he isn’t referring to that aspect of fiction being misconstrued as reality. The only one that overlaps is Hollanov and Hudcon, but I can’t see why he’d be speaking on that. It’s not his on screen relationship nor his real life friendship.

And I’m not insinuating anything, but am just interested in understanding what he means by “young fans”, becuase he is 40. As someone in my 30s, “young fan” to me is easily 15 to 25. I mean, I’ve said it before that although I think Hudson is hot, he’s still only 24. They’re both old enough to know better, but young enough to make dumb mistakes, you know? So idk. I would like to read his interview and see what the context is.

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been thinking about this a lot lately...

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