buzzed my hair 😁
mom called me ugly and said i have to let it grow out or she’s not gonna treat me like a girl she’s gonna treat me like a boy 👎
basically just sent an essay rant to my sister about byler and queerbait let’s see if she calls me crazy when she wakes up.
it’s so much more than byler not happening it’s the fact that gay people aren’t allowed to exist the same way straight people do in mainstream media. like people wanna say we’ve come so far, and yes we have, but the fact that Byler being endgame would have been so revolutionary shows that we still have so much farther to go. it is still so hard to find representation that doesn’t center around being queer, can’t there just be a gay character in a mainstream show that is gay and falls in love and has proper build up and isn’t just thrown in there so they can say “there are gay characters!” conservatives always want to say they’re just making everyone gay or we’re ‘forcing’ it on them but there’s literally such little, true, honest, raw representation out there and it pisses me off. i fucking hate this world.
i hate that i’m not even surprised or that disappointed because i saw this coming. it just feels like a slap in the the face because they ACTIVELY hinted at and teased byler all for nothing to happen. it would be better if i thought i was truly just being delusional in shipping them, but they gave hints to it! they fucking showed it to us on a string and then yanked it away, not even that, kept juking it back and forth taunting us and then they ripped it up and threw it at us.