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@netanorton

Anna, 20 yo, bi, sad and don't know wtf is going on

I need a new hyperfixation soooo much. Or new people around me so I can get to know them. Just something new for my brains to consume/explore/overthink. This or I'll be dead of boredom and routine very soon

(and staying busy with work/studying/other important things doesn't help me overcome boredom, I just become tired and miserable)

studying at uni is a vicious circle of procrastination and sleepless nights

that's my point. no aesthetics just suffering)

kinda like it though

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I think it’s easy to forget how Ah-Duo and the Emperor’s relationship haunts the romantic narrative between Maomao and Jinshi.

It’s not addressed often, but based on what little we’re told, it’s very likely that Ah-Duo was (and still is) the love of his life.

She was the Emperor’s childhood sweetheart. She was his only consort for over a decade. Ignoring how rare that is—how it would have been encouraged for a prince to take more than one concubine—he refused to take on any other consorts for the first ten years after Jinshi's birth. He only accepted other concubines after the former emperor passed away, and he ascended the throne.

For as the current emperor, he could no longer avoid the obligation of taking other consorts, producing heirs—especially since he knew Ah-Duo could no longer bear him children.

Despite losing her womb, the child Ah-Duo gave him is the only one that has survived into adulthood. A child he dotes on, loves dearly, and who he deeply wants to be his heir, despite Jinshi's clear objections. And it makes sense why he'd want Jinshi to succeed him. He's the only child he bore with the woman he loves most, who bears such an uncanny resemblance to her, who shares her intelligence, charm, and cleverness.

He loved her so much that he kept her—a woman who could never get pregnant again—in the rear palace for over eighteen years. It hurt their relationship to have her caged there. The one solace they had was being able to be near Jinshi as he grew up.

And by the time the Emperor gives in to the political pressure to replace Ah-Duo with a younger (fertile) consort, he does something that we haven't seen any other emperor do so far: he allowed Ah-Duo to leave the rear palace. Not only that, he gave her the Southern Imperial Villa: an entire compound (comparable to a small palace itself) to call her own in the royal capital, where she can live her life comfortably and privately. It isn't true freedom—not really—since she doesn't have jurisdiction to travel the world as she's always wanted, but it's a hell of a lot more freedom than any other consort has ever received up to that point.

And he leaves the palace often to visit her there. This is extremely uncommon; in theory, an emperor should have no further reason to interact with a former consort if the woman cannot serve the baby-making purpose she was chosen for. He gave her a residence in the royal capital because wants to keep her close. He wants continued access to her, even after she's comfortably installed in her new life outside the palace.

Jinshi knows all of this, and is painfully aware of how easily history could repeat itself with him and Maomao. Jinshi knows how trapped and stifled Ah-Duo felt in the rear palace, knows it strained her relationship with the Emperor, knows that it ultimately pushed her away from him, emotionally. It did not affect the Emperor's love for her, but it did affect Ah-Duo's love for him.

Jinshi watched his own parents' romantic relationship fall apart due to the absolute power that came with his position. He wasn't able to avoid claiming his title as the Moon Prince; he'll do anything he can to avoid making Maomao feel the same way Ah-Duo felt.

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guys it’s actually really sad :( if they’re more than a foot away from each other they die :( pls hold space for them

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The first time Nancy gets really drunk around Robin, Robin’s immediately like ‘oh shit’ bc obviously she’s heard from Steve what happened at the Halloween party. And she’s always kinda had this little seed of doubt in her head that Nancy ACTUALLY hates her and is just forcing herself to be nice to her (incorrect), so she’s convinced all of Nancy’s ‘true’ feelings about her are about to come to light.

So when Nancy turns to her, face all serious, Robin’s heart all but falls out her ass. But Nancy just ever-so gently places her hands on either side of Robin’s face and says “you’re way too pretty for steve.” and immediately bursts into tears. It takes Robin coming out to her to reassure her that she is NOT and NEVER WILL BE dating Steve, and only then does she finally calm down.

Robin thinks about it at least twice a day for the next three months.

Steve, who was sitting next to them, does as well, but because he’s incredibly insulted.

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I've had a bad day and would like to remind u that these photos of the lotr cast t-posing exist because it always makes me feel better:

Don't forget this one of Frodo giving side eye like a diva:

And this one of Sam always makes me giggle:

And Saruman giving bat wings:

And these guys:

You're welcome <3

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List of romance tropes SSKK has done so far:

  • Enemies to rivals to reluctant allies to friends to lovers
  • Opposites attract
  • Ying x yang
  • Sunshine x grumpy
  • Sun x moon
  • Forbidden love
  • Amnesia
  • Promise
  • Knight x damsel in distress
  • Vampire x were(tiger)
  • "You came?" x "You called"
  • We will meet in every universe
  • Time travel to save love interest
  • Sacrifice to save love interest
  • Forced proximity
  • Star-crossed lovers
  • Doomed yaoi
  • Trauma healing
  • Mafia x Law enforcement
  • Running out of time to live
  • Kidnapper x kidnapped
  • Same mentor different outcomes
  • Redemption
  • Fusion

Definitely there's a lot more but that's what I could think of rn (btw I posted this on WhatsApp and my friend thought SSKK was a criminal organization wtf)

I've just finished the 8th volume of The Apothecary Diaries and WHAT. THE. HELL.

Jinshi AND Maomao are BOTH insane for each other. Like...

Jinshi is clearly in love with Maomao, nothing new, a little bit harder than I expected (he is literally a psycho, the stigma, seriously wtf), but still...

But Maomao... She knew that he was up to something (in the theatre, when he tried to beat Lakan) and said nothing (I know she hates making conclusions without proof, but she does it all the time and still she prefers to ignore evidence when it comes to the relationship between her and Jinshi, why, girl, why). AND after Jinshi's irresponsible, selfish, masochistic act, she still stayed by his side. She's a professional, I get it. But she let him joke about them together, let him bite her shoulder instead of giving him some rag. She really appreciated his action, although she condemned him for his irresponsibility.

Stop encouraging him, girl, otherwise, Gyokuyō is right, and you really are half to blame for what happened.

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I wish i was a hobbit. Frodo never paid fucking taxes to a fascist government

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Atla-fauna appreciation post

I just love them all.

(This post has no point. I just want a collection of ATLA animals on my blog…)

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