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i have walked in its shadow joyfully

@ourmutualignorance

amanda, she/her, bi-ish aroace and v queer, chronically online fan who couldn't help but get back into tumblr bc of the fantasy high dweebs.

about me

hi! i'm amanda, she/her, early thirties, moiraes on ao3. i'm a longtime fandom consumer and creator in general (been doing it since the early noughts ffn days babyyy), newer-ish to d20. very slowly making my way through the seasons as writing has taken up a lot of my valuable watching time. most of the things i'm writing for this fandom so far have been pretty centered around aromanticism and amatonormativity and all the grey areas in those. whoops. sorry slash you're welcome as is relevant lol.

i compulsively tag everything for my own purposes, but as a bonus, it means if you end up following me it should be super easy to block/filter posts as necessary. (and if i'm not tagging something you'd like me to, please just let me know!) i utilize the queue almost exclusively. asks and messages are literally always welcome: i love to yap and would always love more people to do so with.

on that vein, i help mod a d20 discord server that's based around discussion and fanworks with a very positive, small-community vibe: if you would like an invite, please reach out!

my d20 fic

the place you call home, 156k words, 19 chapters finished 1/16/26 fantasy high. late twenties domestic post-canon, friends-to-qpr fabriz with firmly comfortable aroace riz, mildly plotty. my tag

Discovering your best friend of over a decade is in love with you might bring some confusion, some complications, and plenty of recontextualizing, but it might also bring so much happiness.

hold fire, currently ~14k words, 2/?? chapters last updated 1/18/26 fantasy high. early twenties post-canon college, idiots-to-qpr fabriz with aroace riz and arospec fabian, more themes regarding identity exploration and self-discovery. silly and tropey. my tag

Riz thinks he might be aromantic, but he wants to be sure. Fabian has what he's sure is a genius idea, no matter what everyone else thinks about it.

in the fresh light of day, 8.2k words, oneshot cloudward ho. immediately post-canon platonic soulmates torsewell with aroace maxwell. d20 exchange gift.

the dawning hours of our team, 1.2k words, oneshot cloudward ho. ambiguously post-episode 16 romantic torsewell ramblings.

“This is so not a normal response to your friend telling you he thinks he might be aromantic.” It’s not nearly what Riz had accused him of, but the same nauseated, gutted feeling threatens to rise. “It doesn’t have to be weird!” His voice is going high-pitched and freaked out again, he knows; even if he couldn’t feel his heartbeat picking up and didn’t notice his palms going all clammy as he swipes them on his jeans, the look on Gorgug’s face, surprise and trepidation and something almost shrewd that Fabian really doesn’t like the look of, would’ve given it away. “It wasn’t supposed to be weird!”

Fabian crashes out a little. Gorgug already regrets being adjacent to this mess.

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Ohh please gimme some Adaine who uses her oracle knowledge subconsciously.

Gimme an Adaine who brings an umbrella w her to school even though it's sunny af with no cloud in the sky and the second she gets asked why she has it and she starts to question it herself it starts pouring like there's no tomorrow.

Give me an Adaine who catches a mug a (finally!) sleeping Riz subconsciously swiped off the table without even looking and then dropping it herself cause what the fuck just happened?

Give me an Adaine who somehow always has the perfect snack at the ready whenever one of the Bad Kids feel down, even if they never said anything

Give me an Adaine casually stepping to steps to the left mid-conversation as something (or someone?) comes barreling, barely missing her.

Give me an Adaine who, despite all this, never even seems to notice when it happens and gets completely startled when someone (...usually Fig) starts clapping or cheering when she sees it happen again

Just...subconsciously-using-her-Oracle-visions Adaine

Adaine has uncanny knowledge of where to find things. If someone's lost anything, they'll go to Adaine and Riz. Riz is much better at long-term sleuthing-type missions as Adaine can see many possible or likely futures but it's not an exact science for finding things/people. If it's something she's been in contact with herself (ie, Fig loses her jacket and since Adaine is around it a lot, it’s easier for her to place where it might be in the future). 

Adaine finding people’s lost rings, watches, jackets, etc. 

The Bad Kids are debating whether or not they should go out for lunch or eat at the cafeteria at school one day. Adaine is vehemently pro them going out of school, but can’t articulate why. 

At lunchtime, they’ve decided to stay at school, and Adaine can’t quell the fear that something is going to happen.

As Fabian begins to head out to the field, Adaine suddenly yelps and tackles Fabian to stop him from going too far.

“What the hell, Adaine?”

Suddenly a thirty-foot tall Arthur Aguefort smashes the bleachers Fabian was heading for.

“You still really can’t get that big!” Aguefort shouts as he careens away, leaving a path of destruction in his wake.

The other Bad Kids stare at Adaine in shock. The truth is, Adaine wasn’t quite sure how she knew. 

Adaine hands Jawbone his raincoat in the morning sometimes. He’s learnt not to argue with her on these days— she always knows when rain is coming. Adaine removes all the caffeine from Mordred one day. (Sandralynn is not pleased with this decision.) That same day, Sklonda is heading out of town and calls jawbone to ask if Riz can stay with them. He’s not allowed coffee anymore because it’s become addictively bad for him. Adaine buying a set of guitar picks and the next day Fig loses hers. Adaine bringing bandaids with her and running into Gilear later that day with a cut knee from some comedy-of-errors in typical Gilear fashion. Adaine doing somewhat random things because she just knows.

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fig and learning that hell and fire isn’t all a bad thing. that’s the warmth in your chest when you see your friends and you can kiss your girlfriend without getting burned and you can go to hell to visit your dad and slowly you begin to realize that becoming a tiefling wasn’t the worst thing that ever happened. you realize that not everything is your mothers fault

“This is so not a normal response to your friend telling you he thinks he might be aromantic.” It’s not nearly what Riz had accused him of, but the same nauseated, gutted feeling threatens to rise. “It doesn’t have to be weird!” His voice is going high-pitched and freaked out again, he knows; even if he couldn’t feel his heartbeat picking up and didn’t notice his palms going all clammy as he swipes them on his jeans, the look on Gorgug’s face, surprise and trepidation and something almost shrewd that Fabian really doesn’t like the look of, would’ve given it away. “It wasn’t supposed to be weird!”

Fabian crashes out a little. Gorgug already regrets being adjacent to this mess.

most difficult problem of writing fanfiction is when you need a character to express the particular surprised/dismayed/disappointed sentiment of going "jesus christ" but this isn't a lore friendly thing to say and there's nothing lore friendly that conveys quite the same emotion

hey amanda!!!! im not in the fabriz qpr sphere but im just popping in to say you did smth pretty monumental there with ur fic, even just from a community connection angle.

takes a lotta skill and a lot of vulnerability to make a work smth that people truly resonate with in the way i see ppl do your qpr fabriz. you spoke to an experience that people rarely see represented in any media, and dedicated so much time and diligence to your project, and im sure we all know how much it matters to connect with smth like what you wrote

so i really admire that!! and i wanted to say that even as an outsider peering in, it's a really really cool thing you did :] congrats!!!

☀️🦎🪨 <-the baskerrrr

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brb while i go cry for like the dozenth time this week kjdflasdjf

ughhh harp thank you!! this is genuinely one of the kindest acts of recognition and support i could've ever hoped for, especially from someone who's seeing this more from the outside. i'm still kind of at a loss as for what to say to stuff like this as it's all been so unexpected and lovely but just know i appreciate you so so much 😭❤️️

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