(person who suspects they have ocd voice): what if every time i think something is an ocd symptom im actually faking it and stereotyping and ruining the lives of people with real ocd and im a terrible person
Well, this is interesting..
Video game concept (I have no idea if/how it would even work):
The background music varies according to which characters you have in your party. An area of the game that'd otherwise have Yucky And Spooky atmosphere and a background ambience inspiring dread is instead calm and soothing, if somewhat melancholy, if you have the character with you who has mentioned liking places like that, it feels like home. Combat music changes from "survival horror" to "yay we're kicking ass" if you've got the big brawler with you. There's a subtle but clear increase in birdsong in the background ambience if you've got the wilderness I Am One With Nature -character in your party.
The way your companions see the environment you're in has an influence on how it appears to you.
This reminds me of a feature in Pokemon games (I think B/W) , where the playing track would add drums when you're walking (which would stop when you stop walking).
Similarly you could talk to certain NPC's that would add additional instruments onto the base sound track.
Have seen Paul McGann on my feed a couple of times on here, and always I was like 'huh, this guy reminds me of someone.. have I watched a movie with him in it?' So I go and check, nope, none of them ring a bell. I think further.. does he remind me of some other celebrity? Well, hm.. I don't know. Who could it be?
George Orwell. It was George Orwell.
the thing about speaking truthfully from your heart and also being deadpan in your tone is that people will think that you are constantly lying or are being sarcastic. i have never lied about anything ever. except for the times i did lie. but most of those times it was either for the bit or because i thought it would be funny.
Being a bit emotionally vulnerable on here now, but I feel like it's necessary. (Yes this is about Stranger Things)
My entire life, or at least once I've realised I was gay, I was ashamed of it. I found all sorts of lovey dovey things embarrassing, but especially when it was in movies and shows about queer people. I recall sitting on the couch with my mom, watching a show with some explicitly queer character and wanting to vanish into the couch cushions.
During 2020, when everyone was mostly alone during covid and free to explore their sexuality and gender and such, I too for a moment felt secure, like I could also be seen as normal, or, at least that it would be okay if I wasn't.
Now (with the change in political climate) I'm ashamed again, ashamed of shipping queer characters, interacting with queer media publicly, loving publicly. (Since Tumblr is pretty much anonymous, this isn't as big of a concern for me here, but around real life friends/family/etc. that's much different)
Stranger Things was intended to be for the outcasts. Now that it's become mainstream, and now that being homophobic has also become mainstream again, it's about conformity.
Will Byers character, hopes and dreams get reduced (in the eyes of his best friend(and the writers)) to 'being gay', He conforms.
Mike Wheeler who the entire fandom has interpreted as at least somewhat queer has all that stripped away, mourning for the girl that was apparently 'just right for him' despite Mike having about as much romantic tension with El as you'd expect from a gay man. He conforms.
The only canonical lesbian/queer couple is mentioned in the epilogue only once, that being some condescending, mean remark from Robin, for absolutely no reason.
Will's coming out scene is so weird, ridiculous, forced and impersonal. I can hardly grasp it. That outing wasn't Will's own decision, it was done because he was so afraid of Vecna using his queerness against him. It was only for the comfort of his straight friends that he came out to all of them at all.
This show continuously made fun of queer people, used them as bait and doesn't even have the guts to give us one good and meaningful ending for the queer characters they've continuously used and mistreated.
In the end, this show that was (I assume) intended to be about acceptance and inclusion, has done nothing but make me feel worse about being gay. It's shown me that apparently it's not lucrative enough to be an ally, that queer people do not deserve good endings, and that they should give up their hopes of a fulfilling relationship with another person.
And for that I am eternally angry. Queer people deserve much better than this. Queer kids deserve to have hope, they deserve to be represented in shows in a way that highlights more than how much they suffer from queerness. They deserve to see that loving who ever you want to love and living as who you are can and WILL bring you joy. They deserve to see that supporting them isn't just a marketing scheme.
They don't deserve what Stranger Things turned into.
What I'm getting out of this show is:
- Your abuser is actually just misunderstood, just like you!
- to break the cycle of abuse, you must kill yourself
- there's no happy relationship for gay people because they're GAY. They exist only so that we can make gay jokes, claim we're woke and help along the bland ass fuckery of the straight ship
- stay in that closet little gay boy. Stay. Be like your father.
- gay people have no other personality traits outside of being gay, and their one goal in life is to go to a gay bar.
