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The ramblings of a fan having an existential crisis!

Hmmm.. let’s have this post be a random list of shows I recommend.

Pending train

Last Twilight

Vice Versa

Not me

Natsume yuujinchou

Smile down the runway

Campfire cooking in another world

Zombie detective

My boss is goofy

Lost tomb series

One love (Rak Diao)

Soul land

Lego Monkie kid

Three Star Bar in Nishi Ogikubo

And I’ll leave it at that for now. Just a taste of what I’m gonna do here. I shall ramble about my love of fictional media and go on philosophical tangents. I’ll mark those tangents as mature though and give heavy warnings beforehand so don’t worry. Just enjoy your time here and I’ll enjoy mine! Have fun! 💕

PS: @pendingreposts is where I reblog stuffs

Mwhahahahaha! I have tags now. For organization. They should be fairly to the point so if you wanna search my page, this should make it easier for you.

Tags: pendingrambles (miscellaneous thoughts), pendingfilmrambles (miscellaneous thoughts about shows), pendinggames (random games I play), pendingdramalist, pendingasks (asks I ask others or that other ask me), pendingbreathes (my vents), pendinglives (my monologueing about my day), pendingreblogs (these are only if I interacted with the blog in some way such as making a comment or something otherwise I spam reblog on my other blog. I like my lil organization here)

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Random questions, 1) what’s it like being a stage lighting tech? 2) what’s a character trait of Scott mccall’s that you find really interesting or just think is like a neat lil thing?

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hi! always love answering random questions!

1) it's fun!! I love being behind the scenes in theater, and I love that I can now point out a specific subset of things that most people never notice. It's a lot of long hours and also weird hours, which can be annoying but at least it's never boring. Most of what I end up doing is hanging lights and running cables, but my favorite parts are programming and running the spotlight :D

2) oh man. my favorite topic. i've talked... extensively... about Scott's kindness, which is no questions my favorite thing about him, but because you said "interesting" and not "favorite," i'm gonna give you a different answer.

I am forever captivated by his sense of responsibility. it is actually one of the things that frustrates me most about the show's writing, but it's one of the biggest things that draws me to Wanting To Write About Him. because once he gets bitten and gets werewolf powers, he almost immediately feels responsible for protecting everyone (spiderman is never directly quoted, but it's hard not to feel the spirit of "with great power comes great responsibility"), and as a result of that, he also holds himself responsible when he "fails" at that self-appointed duty.

which is ridiculous, because he's 16. by the end of the show he has been a werewolf for not even three years. everyone that should have protected Scott failed him, and he has to step up because no one else will.

but the show never pushes back on this concept. narratively this is framed as a Correct and True belief that Scott should have about himself, and frankly it's to the detriment of characters like Stiles and Melissa who should, as Scott's closest support system, push back against it. As Scott's mother, Melissa should be the one reminding him that he's just a kid (her kid) and saving the world shouldn't be his responsibility, but multiple times (2x11 Battlefield, 5x10 Status Asthmaticus) she's the one telling him that he Has to do something (Status Asthmaticus is particularly egregious, Scott just actually died and is in tears practically begging for any measure of comfort from his MOM, and her answer is to remind him that he's a leader and he has to fix this)

and Stiles. sigh. Stiles often actively takes a hand in punishing Scott for his perceived failures (1x06 Heart Monitor, and the three episodes following Status Asthmaticus). Which is a hella interesting dynamic!! it's a huge character flaw for Stiles and it adds this complexity to their friendship that would be so fun... if the show didn't validate Stiles's unreasonable anger and Scott's unreasonable guilt at every turn.

okay I got a little sidetracked. the POINT is that Scott has this very strong sense of personal responsibility that is consistently validated by the narrative and surrounding characters, and I think that's really the thing that drew me to him to the point of being as obsessed as I am. I critique the show and support critiques of the show that point this out as a flaw in the writing, because it is, and I wish that anyone in canon ever had said "hey. Scott. this is not your fault. this should not be your responsibility. the expectations being placed on you are So Fucking Unfair and it sucks" BUT i do also have to admit that I think the failures of the narrative are part of the reason he's so compelling to me.

idk man. i am so sorry this got longer than you were probably anticipating, you happened to unlock a rant i've been mulling over for a couple days 😂😂 I just. im love him!!! i think he's so neat!!! my favoritest boy forever and ever

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Animated gif only has to be eight frames…. T^T

I’m 16 frames currently but that’s probably gonna double… whyyyyy did i do this to myself. Just had to choose this to animate. I mean I wanted to but like to finish this in time, it ain’t gonna be super neat.

When I showed my professor the draft he liked it and I wanted to do it. I asked how clean it would have to be and had some of prior work shown to see which it would have to be and he said it didn’t have to be super neat, pointing to lines I spent hours on… I could probably do them faster now that I’ve got more experience doing them but I was so meticulous with my old ones that noooo, 32 frames? No. No way. Oh well. The 16 frames are the base, it’s just a back and forth motion so I just have to change the hair flow for the other 16 frames.

Yeah, I can do this.

Hey can you guys reblog Cheeseburger so he can take a sunbeam nap on lots of blogs. No other reason I just want you guys to see him.

Okay, to do list.

- finish story board draft (look up refs pls just get references)

- watch the lecture I missed due to oversleeping (thank you Professor for recording your sessions), find a way to focus on the video at least partially

- work on the design project after watching the lecture

- read two plays for theatre

- study for Japanese quiz

- do that paperwork you’ve been putting off, at least do the first step like opening the website page

- audition again/apply for other jobs/volunteer at some theater companies/find other part time gigs

- fix car, try to fix car, stare at my shared car and hope it magically works again

Yup sounds like a plan. I got this.

Oof. I share these insecurities with this guy.

Can’t wait for more. Definitely gonna cry watching this show.

Love begins in the world of if.

Whenever a character takes the place of another character (and most seem to prefer the ‘newer’ version of them), I always feel bad man. Like in Not Me, Black deserves so much like his best friend literally went for his girlfriend (though to be fair that’s partially White’s fault). Or in Me and Who, only one guy liked the original dude and that was his best friend. Sure, he’s an ass and it was his actions that lead to that, but his bestie not even knowing he’s gone? The only ones who do don’t care? Oofs. Just something I think about. And maybe I’ll explore more of that one day. Hmmm what other characters have been replaced that I can recall?

Side note: BlackGramTodd, my beloved. Ah I should totally rewatch it, would be fun.

Oooohhh I should totally write a not me fic at some point. That’d be fun.

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