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NSFW: Andrew telling Roland that he & Neil are experimenting with public edge play that night at Eden’s. “Like right now?” Roland asks, glancing between the two short athletes. Neither looks perturbed, and his lips rise into a little smile. “I take it one of you has a remote shoved in your pocket and the other is just really good at keeping a straight face?” He asks.

“Something like that,” Andrew tells his former hook-up while Neil’s lips quirk into something a little manic and a little more mean. The redhead shifts against Andrew and watches Roland get their requested drinks in order. Chilly blue eyes gleam under the neon lights and Roland is truly perplexed in that he can’t tell which one of the two before him might be ‘being edged’ as they speak. Neil looks content and Andrew bored.

Meanwhile back in their booth Kevin Day looks absolutely wrecked, doubled over the table with his head in one hand as the vibe the monster duo convinced him to wear goes back & forth between gently brushing his prostrate to full on pounding against the sensitive spot. He looks close to shattering his glass of vodka in his hand for how hard he’s gripping it, face red and lip biting the skin of his lower lip. The chess piece on his cheek may represent a queen, but right now he is Andreil’s perfectly controlled ‘pawn’ to drive back and forth from the brink of madness to an aching ebb that makes him want to demand more pressure. Kevin’s eyes look like green stain glass and he’s about to go mad. He may even be on the verge of tears just for how desperate he is for some friction, some relief.

Unfortunate for him: Andreil enjoy watching their third in such a state. Kevin’s eyes being swallowed more by the blacks of his pupils than the green of his irises; the Queen being much nicer than usual as he lets his body (and his emotions) be toyed with. Eventually he’ll have his two lovers pressed on either side of him, one with the vibe’s remote in his hand while the other palms the tent bulging in Kevin’s leather pants. It’s a good thing the lights of Eden’s are so dark; if someone saw Exy star Kevin Day looking so positively wrecked and sinful there would be no coming back from it, he knows.

the ‘MONTREAL: ONE DAY LATER’ title card is what really sells the fight scene as a comedic moment for the viewer bc it’s SO funny to see shane skate up with a devious little twinkle in his eyes, already looking so proud of himself with his chirp prepared just for scott to choose absolute violence bc this old man does NOT have the energy to keep censoring himself when he has to deal with both of them back-to-back in under 24 hours

it's not real to me that ilya would know the word bisexual. like i think he understands the concept and knows hes not the only person attracted to people regardless of gender bc of his sexy threesomes and dedicated viewing of bisexual pegging porn that he accidentally likes on his public twitter but he always just says hes straight sometimes and gay sometimes. whatever mood strikes him. and shane says "so you're bisexual?" and he says "no hollander sometimes im straight and sometimes im gay." and shane just says ok.

"I'm okay talking about my b*tt but poor Connor Storrie who has the fattest b*tt I've ever seen on a man. I'm sure he just wants to stop talking about his beautiful cheeks."

The Perfect Court

All I could think about the entire time I was drawing this was the song "No Church In The Wild," cause I think it is the most fitting perfect Court song to ever exist, but fuck Kanye

hear me out. what if neil picked up the habit of junk journaling? i don't think it's too crazy to believe, considering the binder. i feel like after running for so long and having to erase parts of himself, he finally has the opportunity to remember. to choose. and so he starts collecting all these random little things to remind him of the moments he got to experience. of course, they all end up in a little notebook

the first (and last) time he and andrew went to the citema? yes, he has those tickets safely taped to the pages of his notebook, along with a small 'yes or no' written next to them. he doesn't remember much of the movie, but he remembers the way andrew held his hand in the dark and kissed him senseless afterwards

after andrew announced that he was quitting smoking, neil took his last pack and cut it into little pieces so that they would fit on the page

little postcards that jean sends him? The package of the first ever present he received from allison (a haircare product)? the receipt from that one time he went out with matt, and matt told him he was going to propose to dan? all safety stored in his notebook and tucked into the corner of his closet

he still has cutouts from numerous newspaper articles kevin has been in, but they are now accompanied by small messages and postcards from kevin himself

andrew knows about his habit and has often made little remarks or rolled his eyes when he saw him taking out the glue and scissors. despite that, though, andrew always remembers to save all the receipts, tickets, packages, anything that can fit into his pocket, really, and just quietly leaves them on neil's desk

Don’t forget the doodles! There’s a lot of downtime sitting in buses and planes, waiting for things to start or end, and Neil goes from doodling fox paws in the margins to tiny sketches of things and places and people, until he takes to carrying a little sketchbook in his pocket everywhere he goes. He adds them to his journal when he’s home, building a collage of memory.

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