you forgot the best part tho

(via @butchmuppet)

no lie, the second half of this post really helped me put a different perspective on my life and greatly the decreased the anxiety i have about my life to come

by William Stout

Just a reminder that you can just block people who piss you off. For example, I routinely block people who make shitty, problematic takes on my posts. This is the Internet. You do not have to let people steal your peace.

people talk about how we need to bring back "don't feed the trolls" rhetoric for modern internet ragebait and I agree but also I think the most useful thing from the Old Internet that I miss is LURKING

be a lurker. just read things and think about them without feeling the need to weigh in or call out or disseminate everything you encounter. it's so nice and so freeing and it's a good way to learn things.

I have frequently regretted getting involved in shit that didn't involve me online but you know what I've never regretted doing? Lurking. literally lurk moar

one of the most important things, perhaps the most important thing I have learned in my life is that nice people can fuck each other up in monstrous ways. people can be bone deep kind and loving and self reflective and still lash out under pressure. people can be earnestly neighbourly and charitable and hospitable and generous and still find themselves in situations where they become selfish. people can be well meaning and easygoing and gregarious and hold deep seated opinions that turn them into vicious little bullies under the right conditions. nobody is just one thing, and nobody stays one way. every person is a kaleidoscope and they will surprise you. you will surprise yourself. it's not a warning and it's not a judgement and it's not an excuse, and it's certainly not a reason to stop trying or to stop trusting. it is just a fact.

it seems perhaps u cannot change and be comfortable at the same time. which is fucked up

the point of art is not to be great but to make it transparently obvious that there is something wrong with you

oh. this is a much better standard to live by.

As promised, my athamé

elixir of having a terrible fucking trip

they were using this as an anesthetic potion. they were like “well, we’ve got to set your leg. we think it’d be better if we sent you to experience ego death in the shadow realm than be awake for this.”

“we’re temporarily sending you to hell as incentive to survive this”

“You’ll be too busy thinking about how your mouth feels too far away from your face and how reality seems to have shifted to the left by two feet to really think about your leg.”

but it isnt too late to start tho! if you suddenly wake up and realize the years have slipped by you can start actively living again!

and you know what im not done i think that its actually a very normal and healthy ebb and flow of life

its okay to have stagnant periods, all life has periods of time in its life cycle just to exist and conserve energy and its okay for people to do that too.

but its also very important not to stay in that stagnant period forever!

thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

sorry to put your tags on blast on this insane breach containment post I have since muted, but you're right and you should say it.

It is defeatable. Go for the throat.

what the fuck