shane’s over-enunciated “I’m not sure you’re ‘supposed to smoke here?” lilting question WITH the mimed cigarette like oh fuck I just introduced myself to my PURELY Intellectual And Sportsmanlike hockey crush and he doesn’t seem to know you can’t light up directly next to the building, I better get him up on the rules, maybe it’s a language barrier issue? and ilya gives him a long full body glance like the dweeb thing can’t possibly be doing it for me but mentally is filing it away like “does what he’s told—enjoys doing it?”
colin ford gets all the young sam love but I think we need to give some credit to alex ferris in something wicked…very tricky to pull off that lucky charms scene
David Lynch’s Weather Report 3/6/21, 4/10/21, 2/20/22… among others! It was a very recurring sentiment. He wanted everyone to have good luck and fun with our projects.
when applied to drinks, “dry” means “without sugar”. therefore it follows that sugary drinks can be called “wet”. the meanings of the terms “hot” and “cold” when applied to drinks are obvious. thus the aspect of any drink can be determined.
for instance, green tea, freshly steeped and served without additives, is hot and dry, and therefore has an aspect of fire.
a mocha, on the other hand, while hot, is sweet, and therefore wet, and thus has an an aspect of air.
lemonade, which is wet and cold, has a water aspect.
finally, the drink which most epitomizes the earth aspect, being both cold and dry, is vodka
Was doing another rewatch of the betrayal scene (what can I say, I’m a masochist) and noticed something interesting in the background when the Ghoul is attempting to justify the betrayal to Lucy (and ostensibly, himself)
I cleaned up the image a bit, but here it is. The art behind him is of The Fool in tarot. I even think I might’ve found the exact image, thanks to Wikipedia?
Anywho, I’m by no means a tarot expert, but generally, The Fool card signifies new beginnings, with an overall positive interpretation if the card is upright, but an overall more negative interpretation if reversed. General positive meanings suggest idealism, freedom, innocence, etc. - good new beginnings. General negative meanings are more in line with what the average person probably associates with the word “fool”- stupid, reckless, etc. It still suggests new beginnings, but beginnings leading to paths one should be cautious traveling, and/or reluctance to undertake these paths.
Its position behind Cooper is upright, and it’s interesting to consider what this can mean. Obviously, I could be looking wayyy too deep into this (and probably am), but set design is typically pretty intentional, and we’ve seen throughout the show many instances of little hints and clues nestled in the background of scenes and frames. Personally, I like to think the design choice, in this moment, is absolutely intentional. After all, Cooper is definitely at the crossroads of a new beginning here, and has been approaching one throughout the season, with Lucy’s influence.
All in all, I just thought this was neat to catch, and as I haven’t yet seen it mentioned anywhere, I was excited to yap about it lol. Perhaps it’s already been observed and noted, and I’m stating the obvious, but just in case it hasn’t, and just in case I’m correct, and it does mean something ^.^
EDIT: Reviewed some more and found other tarot images- another beside the Fool behind Cooper, and four behind Lucy. However, these are harder to make out, and since as mentioned, I’m not very familiar with tarot, and especially since these cards seem like they’re possibly from a more obscure deck compared to what I and most others recognize, I’m not too sure what they could represent. My best guess on one of the cards behind Lucy is the Ace of Swords reversed*? Which, if correct, seems to indicate confusion, lack of or reluctance to accept ideas, wrong decisions, miscommunication, etc. Generally just not a great sign. I can’t make out the others, so I’m posting the images I grabbed here, in case someone more well-versed in tarot recognizes them and can contribute what they might mean- I at least would love to find out! I’ll keep digging on my end and update again if I find anything new. I love a new rabbit hole to dive into <3
*took another look, and actually think now it’s the Ace of Swords Upright- hand appears to be at the bottom of the card, if this is indeed Ace of Swords. If so, indicates realizing the truth, making decisions, etc. Makes sense to me for this situation Lucy finds herself in- both positions the card could be in do, really
EDIT TO THE EDIT: Believe the second image by Coop is the Page of Cups! It’s from the same deck as The Fool, which I’m having quite a time of trying to track down images for lol. Anyway, if correct, the Page of Cups Upright indicates youthfulness, idealism, happy news, romance (👀), just generally good news it seems, and emotional openness. Gonna keep looking for Lucy’s!
FINAL EDIT (maybe): Someone found the deck all of the cards appear to be in (thanks so much again, csishewolf!) and I agree with their assessment on what Lucy’s cards appear to be- The King of Swords, Queen of Swords, Page of Swords, and Ace of Swords. Many, many swords for Miss Lucy here. Generally, these all seem to indicate who Lucy is and who she’s evolving to be, especially perhaps after this betrayal. Again, not really a tarot person, so would love to see someone who is tackle what these might mean! This was a lot of fun to hunt down and think on, so much fun it’s past midnight now and I still haven’t had dinner 😅Off I go, but yeah. This was fun C:
CNC is so overplayed among young inexperienced trans women. i promise you it’s worth learning how to enthusiastically say all the things you want someone to do to you, how to beg and plead for more when you want it. we all start off embarrassed about our desires. you have to practice being an eager slut. it’s worth it
More importantly, you cannot really do CNC without clearly saying what you want first. Avoiding communicating that way only works when it’s a fantasy.
i know multiple people who have tried to do CNC, and thought at the time that they had the communication skills necessary for it. some of them had a good time, some of them got really really badly hurt. so yes, communication is key and moreso the riskier the kink is blah blah blah, that’s kink 101 you’re describing. prev is right, but if prev’s reblog has given you any new information, you are definitely not ready for CNC. what i am saying is that the commonness and casualness of CNC in transfem tumblr is actively harmful for younger transfems’ psychosexual development.
the mechanism i talked about in the OP is not just a personal one, it’s a societal one. women are rewarded for being sexual but punished for expressing sexual desire. when you come out you have already been bathed in this message, steeped in it, even before you were consciously aware that the message applied to you. and as trans women we are less likely to have been exposed to feminist ideas that counter these dominant narratives. my younger cis sister (RIP) got a talk before she started having sex about consent and the importance of saying no if it doesn’t feel good and talking to a trusted responsible older person if you ever feel unsure or unsafe. i only really learned of and started working on internalising these ideas after i’d already been groomed into sex work as a minor. at the time i thought it was sexy that an older man would take interest in teenage me and want to use me for something that i knew was wrong but that i might gain from. i wish i’d been aware how directly the patriarchal rape culture we live in fills our heads with exactly that kind of idea.
to be clear: i am not saying there is anything wrong with being into CNC or rapeplay. a lot of women are. i just know that a lot of us grow up with traumatic experiences of sex for reasons that might feel individual but are almost always structural. then we jump into risky kinks because it can feel good to push on a psychosexual sore spot or just to do what we’re used to, without knowing ourselves as individuals or our position in society well enough to untangle those desires. the best case outcome is that you learn on the way all the communication skills you told yourself you already had. the worst outcome is that you do it until you have a really bad experience and then all of sex feels scary and inaccessible and you have all the trauma symptoms of being actually sexually assaulted and you feel there is no-one else to blame except yourself because you didn’t safeword because you were too triggered by receiving the thing that you asked for.
personally, i am a lot happier in sex now that i have moved through my complex squirming mass of feelings about CNC and separated out what i like and what i don’t. i like it when my partner acts almost uncontrollably overcome with lust for me, i like when my partner is in control and pins me down, i like it when we are chilling and then she spreads my legs and decides that it’s time for sex. but none of that requires me to be pretending to have a bad time, none of that requires me to say beforehand that no means yes and only safeword means no. it has taken me 18 years of having sex to get to the point where i can recognise and express what i do and don’t like in this way. and doing CNC as part of my sexual experience i think overall held me back on this journey of self-knowledge more than it helped me.
the prevailing discourse on transfem tumblr at best teaches us to understand our desires and how they are shaped and molded by society, and to understand why we as trans women have been politically denied these tools of self-knowledge. at worst it is a place that subtly shapes us and molds us through constant repeated exposure to be the perfect subjects of patriarchal rape culture. and i really hope younger people on here who get their ideas of sex from Tumblr understand the ways that it is exercising power over you.
Sorry about how laggy these turned out, but, I couldn’t rip them due to copyrighting on the dvd. So, I had to screen record them. And, my old PC is so ass and old that it was laggy. But. It’s good enough!! I love this SO much.
