i fantasize about total language immersion the way a man fantasizes about fending for himself in the woods with only a knife

“what are you doing this weekend” i am going to fantasy land. i am hiding under the covers in bed. i am making things up. i am contemplating events that didnt happen. i am talking to fake people. i am listening to my tunes. i am envisioning scenarios

Fun fact: if you, as an adult, tell miserable children that their youth is the best that life will ever be, and that it's all just downhill from there, there's a percentage of them who will hear this and think "well, I guess I better kill myself before that happens." And a certain percentage of those will proceed to do that and succeed.

Anyway what I'm saying is that any time you feel tempted to say that, you should instead consider shutting the fuck up. Just because you peaked at 16 doesn't mean anyone else did. Most peoples' lives get better than that.

Honestly this is the stuff that kills me that people said to me. I turned 30 this year. It has been GREAT being 30. I feel more real and more myself than I ever have. I feel more stable (despite the powers that be in the government/my wallet telling me to calm down lol) and I have searched for and given myself more joy now than I ever have. I create better. I treat myself better. I feel like I am finally a solid and not a sad terrified uncertain liquid of a person. Getting old is great and I am excited to get older.

never make ocs or else u will spend ur afternoon going crazy abt a woman who is not Real

if solas was a woman i would get it .

do you see my vision .

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damn, this is doing numbers 😭 you guys must really like gauntlets, too

shout out to the mutuals ive never spoken to. i am sitting in the same room as you doing my arts and craft while you read your book. we are vibing and chilling.

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chronic pain diagnoses are all like yeah we don't know what this is or why it happens. we also don't know how to treat it. good luck out there soldier

"we don't know why this happens but it's probably something you did."

^ what this feels like

“this character did not act in the most objectively logical way possible!” is not ! actually valid literary criticism

i have trust that the media literacy enjoyers will find this one idk

Not to go "if you have ADHD just go for a run" or anything, but I am so serious if you have ADHD you should regularly go outside, no headphones no phone no nothing and just stand and observe for a while until you've had enough. Not until you get bored, until you've had enough. Drink your coffee without watching tiktok. Have a bath without music. Turn down the volume in your headphones. I cannot overstate how much learning to be bored is cruicial with ADHD. Life is not just about pleasure, no matter what your dysregulated dopamine system thinks, and when you teach your brain to be okay with being bored, then boring tasks stop feeling like torture. By letting yourself be bored you are yoinking your system out of the high/low binary and allow for the highs to feel like actual highs and not just anything that isn't low. I am so serious go literally touch grass. Listen to the sounds in your flat. Stimulate your body the way it was designed. It lowers anxiety and makes you feel like you're real and best of all it's completely free

I really wish more ADHD mental health care told you WHY things like this matter to our quality of life.

The Hyperactivity in Attention-Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder is NOT about being physically hyperactive, it's about having a "hyperactive central nervous system" because it's a form of inheritable dysautonomia. The problem with disautonomia, especially the ADHD kind, is that it makes boredom flag to your nervous system as a THREAT, triggering hyperactive and maladaptive central nervous system processes like fight or flight.

But dysautonomia kills you that way. Literally, part of the reason our average life spand increase on stimulents is that it helps manage risk-taking impulsivity that can get us killed by accident, but the other part is that stimulents can regulate a hyperactive CNS such that it is functionally (while impacted by the stimulent) NOT dysregulated anymore. And PHYSIOLOGICALLY that is essential because the physical outcomes of dysautonomia can reduce your life span by YEARS if not decades through self-perpetuating hypervigelence, endocrine disruption, and adrenal fatigue.

So when the ADHD brain goes stimulation-seeking and a doctor tells you to practice mindfulness, it feels like being told "hey go stand in a functioning boiler until you can stop thinking" rather than WHAT IT IS which is the process of re-teaching your body what is and isn't safe.

Standing outside making mindful, non-interpretive/moralized observation of the world helps your brain and body re-acclimate to the idea that absence of that frantic "busy" feeling isn't a threat or a risk to your safety, and gradually reduces the level of distress that just hanging out somewhere triggers for you.

Learning WHY this stuff was being suggested and understanding what it was actually supposed to do went a long way towards changing my relationship with my ADHD. I am FAR more functional now, far less prone to shame spirals and rejection sensitivity, hell, I can **sit physically still for near on an hour at a time** now without feeling like I'm going to crawl out of my skin.

So yeah. Go outside. Let the world narrow around you and take deep breaths until it stops feeling claustrophobic or like you need to climb walls. Learn how to let little sensations become big ones like the way the heat of the sun on your skin starts as a gentle warming and be omes a unique collection of sensory moments depending on how it lands on you. Listen for sounds under sounds and let them fade in and out as you move your focus from one sound to the next. Enjoy. Move on. Rinse and repeat.

When you no longer feel like the world is actively killing you, it's a lot easier to navigate it.

S++ tier addition to the post, thank you tumblr user butts bouncing on the beltway

also in an era where games like bg3 are patching its characters to be less mean so they can be more fuckable, or games like veilguard are ignoring the series' previous nuance in favour of a feelgood found family narrative, i will ALWAYS support a game's right to let its characters be unpleasant to each other and argue about politics

The only limit on a wizards power is how fast they can clearly speak their incantations. You feel incredibly lucky. Coming from a long line of auctioneers, speaking fast and clear is your forte.

(voice of a girl who's already weird about it) can i be weird about this

“Welcome to the Storm Coast, Inquisitor.”

Cassandra saying “after all that you’re giving them another chance?” for not banishing the Wardens is hilarious given she is the woman who wants to rebuild the fucking Seekers of Truth

Let it never be said that Cassandra Pentaghast isn't a hypocrite.

The mighty nein's romantic entanglements are soo funny when you try to put them down on paper. Like. Jester is in love with Fjord, who has feelings for her too but also he was seduced by and slept with an evil cult leader, who was also the ex of his father figure, whose accent and mannerisms Fjord was mimicking while sleeping with her. Also the evil ex flirted with Beau, who then got her killed and stole her clothes. Beau was growing feelings for Yasha but then Yasha turned evil and had a dead wife so Beau slept with Reani (who was also attracted to Caleb and Essek) and developed a crush on Jester and then Yasha came back and she reciprocated but also she too may have had a crush on Jester, and also she invited Veth into a threesome with her and Beau. Caleb also has feelings for Jester and they never really went away and he thinks Fjord is really hot and he's being hunted by his two evil exes from his old polycule (who he's maybe planning to murder so he can use their bodies to fake his parents' death but none of them ever got over each other) and his best friend (who was married before she died and came back wrong) is in love with him and his feelings for her are more complicated than can be described in words and she’s the most important person in his life and he isn't necessarily in love with her but he is jealous of her husband. He and Essek were honeypotting each other for information but then they really liked each other but then Essek was evil and Caleb projected on him like crazy and now they grow green beans together. Molly flirted with everyone and slept naked in his and Fjord's room, but also all three instances of him expressed attraction to Caleb specifically and who knows where that would've lead had he lived. They’ve all seen each other naked (to search each other for evil eyes). Caduceus is there, eating popcorn.

Addendum if I may be so bold op: Caduceus is there brewing tea