that james baldwin quote where he says, “it took many years of vomiting up all the filth i’d been taught about myself, and half-believed, before i was able to walk on the earth as though i had a right to be here.”
in a hotel room very cautiously removing my clothing slowly and constantly looking around the room shifty and scared as fuck anticipating attacks while a beautiful pair of women sitting side by side on the bed in matching lingerie excitedly but restrained with carefully lowered vioices cheer me on. they say Yes thats it thats how sex works! youre doing it right yeah! youve got it keep going! and im finally down to a sports bra and one tube sock when a car alarm putside startles me and i lunge for the empty handgun on the floor and put it in my mouth while they panic and scramble trying to calm me down petting my hair and cooing gently
came across posts from last year of someone talking about how noel was going to spend the entire oasis reunion tour looking miserable & suicidal on stage with liam and i did teehee. posts that aged like moldy cheese
the face of a man who's absolutely miserable and definitely minutes away from ending it all
chilton is so ungrateful because he got to be cut open and see his organs firsthand and survive but didn't even appreciate any of it.. many on tumblr would love to experience the opportunity he had
he literally got to hold his own insides and was UNTHANKFUL. fucked up