Here is the cheat sheet for trans women’s common sexual neuroses and their sources; knowing either will help deduce the others. Keep in mind that without the central sexually-polarizing non-con experience of being perceived as a teenage girl, trans girls are a bit more likely to have more esoteric kinks.

Sexual Subjugation - I mean, she is a woman.

She just goes everywhere with that thing out! She's got me twisted up sexual style!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TZsUAqaOiHU

My father was a drinker and a fiend and one night he goes off crazier than usual. Mommy gets the kitchen knife to defend herself. He doesn’t like that, not one bit. So, me watching he takes the knife to her, laughing while he does it. He turns to me and he says “WHY SO SERIOUS!?”. He comes at me with the knife “why so serious!?” Sticks the blade in my mouth "lets put a smile on that face!" aaaand….. why sooooo serrrious?

Because the realization of meaninglessness extinguishes the reason for the spark to start a fire.

No one knows my name...