20.08.25
Lowkey insane. I’m getting a job offer for a job I didn’t actually apply for. I mean, I’m accepting, it’ll help me develop more hand-ons skills that would help me move to a medical device manufacturing job later, but still…. insane.
10.07.25
Hmmm. Frickity frick. Looking on Whirlpool to see that no-one is getting accepted to mid-year grad role at tfnsw except internal candidates. *headdesk* I need to contact my referees after 6 months of no updates. Also I need to get at least ONE job offer pls T_T
08.04.25
Well, I got my completion letter. Other than my graduation, I guess I’m done with studying (apart from job training and/or my irrealistic fantasies of doing a masters/phd)
Now waiting anxiously for info for this one graduate program.
04.02.25
I have one subject whose results haven’t been released yet… getting my completion letter soon is looking like a distant fantasy…
28.11.24
Turns academia is just submitting yourself to eternal critique. Idk, if I was doing this for linguistics, would I be more bothered by it since I would probably put more of my soul into it? I am already so so so dead from the feedback I get on my engo honours thesis. I think feedback on a linguistics phd thesis would kill me, my soul scattered to the winds.
stupid thing about me is I don’t cut corners but I also have no work ethic. if I do something it WILL be done right. no telling whether I’ll actually fucking do it tho
"use chatgpt" that's the devil talking. buy four caffeinated drinks and pull an all nighter. this is the way.
i may lose 5% for a late submission, but at least no one can deny that i wrote it with my own tits i mean brain
06.08.24
Doing my engineering honours thesis is making me realise how much I really want to do a linguistics research project. Like, I don’t qualify to do a lingustics honours anymore but maybe masters? PhD?
The sunk cost fallacy of me spending countless nights and tears doing engineering tho… I genuinely do love when an engo project goes right, I love debugging and playing with coding and firmware. It’s just all my engo work experience doesn’t deal with that. It’s just consulting and research respectively. The consulting was fun only because I bonded so much with my team and the free timtams. The actual work was not. And the research only made me realise that I really really want to do that… but for lingustics. But if I don’t take an engo grad role, then what would everything have been for??
If I seriously pursue linguistics academia, I don’t think I can get an industry engo job later if I change my mind. But if I pursue engo, I won’t have the academic referees to do a research masters.
And then, there’s a niggling thought to do a coursework masters in social work.
17.04.24
idk I think my ability to concentrate/discipline myself is eroding. I just feel unfathomable tiredness all the time with no motivation to do anything. Since like semester 2 last year. I never used extensions so much like now.
I think the university course database should have a filter to only show classes taught by extremely old people who are insane
