thinking it was a blessing from the stars above

just like a ballon, my heart got filled with love

a passion full of sparkles that turned out to be needles

pain so unbearable, almost lethal

i did all i could to keep you around, i'm tired of trying

throwing myself away for something stupid

daydreaming of what we could've been, it's so lucid

balled up in a corner thinking of you, violently crying

i wish i could borrow your eyes to see what im like from your point of view

i wish i could borrow your brain to know what i mean to you

i wish i could borrow your heart to feel what you feel for me

i wish i could lend you my eyes so you can see yourself from my point of view

i wish i could lend you my brain so you can see just how much you mean to me

i wish i could lend you my heart so you can feel for me what i feel for you

if you're gonna hurt me make sure u do it slowly, im not ready to be broken hearted again

do it with kindness so ill be able to relearn how to live knowing youll never truly love me

with peace so ill get to enjoy every last bit of whatever is this feeling i won't get to feel again

just sit for a moment and think, god knows i do that a lot more than i should

some people just have their way with words, seems almost impossible to me

never know how to describe what im feeling or not

how is my head so empty yet so full

how is my heart so loving yet so full of sorrow

how am i just now realizing i've never felt truly loved once in my life

how do you even know someone loves you

how you even know if you love someone

how am i just know realizing how much it hurts to think, overthink, not think