one of my favorite things about episode 6 is how they are sitting on the couch and ilya is watching the man he loves well up at the mere idea of him marrying someone else even if that someone is his best friend and he would only be doing it for citizenship reasons and you can see the way it breaks ilya's heart as much as it's breaking shane's and so when shane finally vocalizes it, finally says "don't do it. just don't. we can figure something else out" you see the way "we" hits ilya right in the fucking chest and he says "ok, ok." and THEN
shane is riding a fucking adrenaline-boosted-by-serotonin high and can't sleep because if ilya agreed not to marry someone else because shane asked then maybe, you know, maybe he would be willing to do something else if shane asked and his lil hamster gremlin heart-eyes brain just whirs into overdrive and he comes up with a masterplan and the plan is so sweet and kind-hearted and ultimately good and ilya looks at this man whose detailed, twenty-five step plan involves starting a charity because OF COURSE IT DOES, it's SHANE, and the only thing he can think to do in that moment is just say it, finally. "i love you."
and anyway i'm down bad for these boys.
bizarrelittlemew
