@tetherism

i think this is the prettiest world – so long as you don't mind a little dying

every time exam szn hits me during med school i contemplate whether academia is really worth it…. haven’t even had the time to process the new year to me it’s still 2016 👍🏽

object permanence by Hala Alyan

[text ID : "This neighborhood was mine first. I walked each block twice: / drunk, then sober. I lived everyday with legs and headphones. / It had snowed the night I ran down Lorimer and swore I'd stop / at nothing. My love, he had died. What was I supposed to do ? / I regret nothing. Sometimes I feel washed up as paper. You're / three years away. But then I dance down Graham and / the trees are the color of champagne and I remember — There are things I like about heartbreak, too, how it needs / a good soundtrack. The way I catch a man's gaze on the L / and don't look away first. Losing something is just revising it. / After this love there will be more love. My body rising from a nest / of sheets to pick up a stranger's MetroCard. i regret nothing. / Not the bar accross the street from my apartment; I was still late. / Not the shared bathroom in Barcelona, not the red-eyes, not / the songs about black coats and Omaha. I lied about everything / but not this. You were every streetlamp that winter. You held / the crown of my head and for once I won't show you what / I've made. I regret nothing. Your mother and your Maine. / Your wet hair in my lap after that fist shower. The clinic / and how I cried for a week afterwards. How we never chose / the language we spoke. You wrote me a single poem and in it / you were the dog and I the fire. Remember the courthouse ? / The anniversary song. Those goddamn Kmart towels. I loved them, / when did we throw them away ? Tomorrow I'll write down / everything we've done to each other and fill the bathtub / with water. I'll burn each piece of paper down to silt. / And if it doesn't work, I'll do it again. And again, and again, and—" ]

I want the better world. Now. I’m being childish of course but what else are the last 40 hours of the year for

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