ꜱᴏ ʏᴇᴀʜ, ɪ ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ꜱʜᴀʀɪɴɢ ꜱᴏᴍᴇ ᴘᴇʀꜱᴏɴᴀʟ ꜱᴛᴜꜰꜰ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴍᴇ, ꜱɪɴᴄᴇ ɪ'ᴍ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴇʀꜱᴏɴ ʙᴇʜɪɴᴅ ᴛʜɪꜱ ʟɪᴛᴛʟᴇ ᴄᴏʀɴᴇʀ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ɪɴᴛᴇʀɴᴇᴛ.

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𝓐𝓑𝓞𝓤𝓣 𝓜𝓔 ࣪ ִֶָ☾.𝑵𝒂𝒎𝒆 - ʟᴇᴏ ࣪ ִֶָ☾.𝑨𝒈𝒆 - 21 ࣪ ִֶָ☾.𝑷𝒓𝒐𝒏𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒔 - ʜᴇ/ᴛʜᴇʏ ࣪ ִֶָ☾.𝑮𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓 - ᴛʀᴀɴꜱ ᴍᴀꜱᴄ/ᴍᴀʟᴇ/ᴀɴᴅʀᴏɢʏɴᴏᴜꜱ ࣪ ִֶָ☾.𝑺𝒆𝒙𝒖𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚 - ʙɪ/ᴘᴏʟʏ/ʙᴜᴛ ᴀʟꜱᴏ ꜱᴛɪʟʟ Qᴜᴇꜱᴛɪᴏɴɪɴɢ

𝓞𝓣𝓗𝓔𝓡𝓢 ࣪ ִֶָ☾.𝑳𝒊𝒌𝒆𝒔 - ᴍʏ ꜱɴᴀᴋᴇ, ᴍʏ ᴛᴇɢᴜ, ʙᴏᴏᴋꜱ, ᴍʏᴛʜᴏʟᴏɢʏ, ᴠᴀᴍᴘɪʀᴇꜱ, ꜱᴏᴍᴇ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ʀᴀɴᴅᴏᴍ ꜱᴛᴜꜰꜰ ࣪ ִֶָ☾.𝑫𝒊𝒔𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆𝒔/𝑯𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒔 - ʜᴀᴛᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴅɪꜱᴄʀɪᴍɪɴᴀᴛɪᴏɴ (ᴠᴇʀʏ ᴜɴɴᴇᴄᴇꜱꜱᴀʀʏ), ꜱᴘɪᴅᴇʀꜱ (ʜᴀᴅ ᴀ ꜱᴘɪᴅᴇʀ ɪɴᴄɪᴅᴇɴᴛ ʟᴍᴀᴏ), ᴅʀʏ ᴛᴇxᴛᴇʀꜱ, ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ᴅɪꜱʀᴇꜱᴘᴇᴄᴛ ʙᴏᴜɴᴅᴀʀɪᴇꜱ ࣪ ִֶָ☾.𝑯𝒐𝒃𝒃𝒊𝒆𝒔 - ᴘʜᴏᴛᴏɢʀᴀᴘʜʏ, ʀᴇᴀᴅɪɴɢ, ᴡʀɪᴛɪɴɢ, ᴀʀᴄʜᴇʀʏ, ᴄᴏᴏᴋɪɴɢ ࣪ ִֶָ☾.𝑩𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒔 - ɴᴏ ᴍᴇᴀɴꜱ ɴᴏ.

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this is a rant that has nothing to do with books or studying but is personal to me

i HATE being transgender. but not because being trans is wrong or anything. but because i never feel quite like me.

i work on it, i try, i do. but it is nearly impossible for me to pass and for me to be still me.

nobody respects my pronouns due to me not being stereotypical masculine.

i don’t care having fem features here and there. i want to achieve androgyny anyway.

but because i enjoy having slightly longer hair, for years i had green hair (not anymore though), don’t dress like a walking board for nike or adidas in jogging clothes, don’t behave like an asshole and live out the asshole-moody-ipad-kid attitude. i won’t be taken seriously.

i once had a situationship and nearly relationship with a trans guy and even he didn’t respected my gender identity.

why am i so bad at being transgender?

why do we forget the beauty of creativity and also knowledge?

nowdays a lot of people scold others when they try to persue a higher education. „you can work without education just fine!“ „it’s useless what you learn!“ „you can only learn by working, not by sitting around in school!“

a lot of people rely on ai, instead of researching. „it’s faster!“ „it knows the stuff, it wouldn’t be wrong!“ „that way i don’t stumble on false information!“

a lot of people look down upon people who persue a career in arts. „this will not pay you later!“ „it’s useless to know, better go into stem!“ „you won’t get a job later in life!“ „have fun being a taxi driver after studying this!“

a lot of people don’t want to have huma made art anymore. „ai can create a picture way faster than a human and it is free!“ „ai can also write books!“ „ai can write me fanfics!“ „ai can finish me this book or fanfic if it isn’t finished yet!“ „art by humas is way to expensive, i will just use ai!“

a lot of peple make fun of people who create. „that‘s so much work, ai could have done that in a minute!“ „why edit your pictures manually, just put it into chat and tell it to edit it for you!“ „you drew that? i bet ai could make me a better one!“

why? i hate being born into a generation so resentful towards creative minds.

„just learn with ai, it would give you higher results.“ nah, thanks. i would rather learn myself and know it for long time than use a computer that will do the work and i will memorize it and ultimately forget it after exam is over.

today someone told me again, that doing my university certificate (aka basically high school) is useless and a waste of time and that the career i want to persue is not worth anything and i should stop and do something better with my time.

and while i don’t believe that any knowledge is wasted time and i also don’t believe that i am „wasting my time“ by doing it - because it is what will make me happy in the future.

but alas, it just really hurts? getting told over and over and over again how wrong my decision are is just hurtful and also makes me sad.

a great day to remind y‘all that Sherlock Holmes is public domain and there are official books about him and Dr. Watson where they are in love.

they are cute, adorable, funny and adventurous.

just search for The Lost Cases: The Private Diary of John Watson by Sage Boscombe.

theoretically speaking, how high are the chances that i am able to read 5 books in the next 11 days?