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Thorns and Toxins

pairing: Azriel x Reader

content warnings: language, poison induced illness

word count: 3.9k

synopsis: Azriel knew something was off the moment you walked into the training room. You brushed him off, and ended up sending the poor male into a tailspin after you collapsed while sparring.

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“Are you alright?”

You squinted up at the hulking Illyrian standing before you, your vision swimming a bit. You blinked a few times before focusing on his scowling face. “I’m fine,” you breathed out, wiping some sweat from your brow.

“You fainted,” he argued, crossing his arms.

You rested your arms on your knees, hanging your head a bit. “I said I’m fine,” you grumbled. 

Touch Starved Prompts

  • It was strange to touch each other without one of them dying, but maybe touch was also something for the living.
  • Like magnets they moved together, pressing into each other's warmth.
  • There always needed to be a reason, an excuse for their bodies to touch.
  • Being touch-starved and needy was really starting to mess with their reputation as a tough guy.
  • It was like their skin was calling out for the other's gentle touch.
  • They didn't like to be touched by just anyone. But that didn't mean they didn't also crave it sometimes.
  • A coldness took over their body that only the warmth of another person could erase.
  • They wanted to be touched, to be missed, to be loved. Was that too much to ask for?
  • Leaning onto each other, just being close, was enough.
  • Their bodies fitting together like they always were intended to become one.
“I close my eyes, but I can’t fall asleep, my body dying for rest while my mind’s wide awake.”

Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore

Confessions: My Father, Hummingbirds, and Frantz Fanon, Benjamin Alire Sáenz

Text ID: “My father's dead (Though sometimes I wake / And swear he has never been more alive—especially when / I see him staring back at me as I shave in the morning).

Sometimes a guy in a fanfiction has the ability to read someone's gaze with the same level of detail a wine taster can taste the wine

"He glared at him with anger in his eyes, but behind that longing and sorrow over things left unsaid, a subtle but desperate yearning for things to be different, and with just a hint of roasted nuts right at the end."

Sci-Fi Dialogue Prompts

  1. "Being advanced doesn't always necessarily mean better."
  2. "They genuinely lived in the land. You work for your day and the day works for you. I really can't understand how they could survive like this."
  3. "We were born just in time to see humanity's baby steps into the Universe."
  4. "I don't create to be the best, I create to live."
  5. "Remember that failure is not an option if you don't want to get replaced."
  6. "This is not a simulation, is it? This is all real..."
  7. "Imagine if humanity reached for the stars instead of desperately trying to annihilate each other..."
  8. "I feel like I'm born into the wrong generation. Like 500 years too early..."
  9. "Oh look. Another journey to another dimension. How fun."
  10. "The Jester's cap affords many liberties."
  11. "We all die. The goal is not to live forever, it is to fight for something that will."
  12. It's so bizzare, in a way we are a machine and our brain is a processor. One major injury and it will completely change the way you were asa person."
  13. "It's crazy to think about it. Every human being as impulsive thoughts, that normal, and most of us are able to hold it back because our brain knows it's morally wrong. But some people don't have anything that are holding them back,that's scary."
  14. "To change and become beautiful, to be something you're not...well, you have to risk something in order to get it."
  15. "There's an evil on the universe that even the most stagnant, bloodthurtsty men have come to fear."
  16. "Don't forget. Trust is for little children but you are a soldier. Do your best to survive beause God knows no one will help the ones that fall behind."
  17. "There's nothing more dangerous than someone who believes that God is on their side."
  18. "There's no expiration date on truth..."
  19. "Make peace with your Gods, you will meet them soon."
  20. "I hope whatever God you pray can hear you know."

On Worshipping Hades

There are a ton of posts out there for signs and symbols, offerings and all that. Regardless, I’m making this post because Hades is the God I receive the most asks about, and this post was highly requested.

The Basics

Offerings:

  • Coins & other money (traditionally gold or brass, but all money works)
  • Stones, especially dark, jagged stones
  • Alcohol, especially wine
  • Honey
  • Milk or Water
  • Tobacco
  • Herbs: cypress, mint, myrrh, patchouli, bay, pumpkin, yew, wormwood, cinnamon, lavender, willow, oak
  • Flowers: marigold, dandelion, rose, lily, daisies, rowan, poppy, daffodils, calendulas 
  • Oils, especially olive oils and vinegars
  • Salts and spices
  • Shells or bones of the earth
  • Teas, especially blacks and oolongs
  • Breads or cakes
  • Fruits, such as apples and pomegranates
  • Meat (especially lamb)
  • Incenses: frankincense, myrrh, wormwood, sandalwood, cinnamon, rose, pomegranate
  • Candles: black, grey or silver

Symbols:

  • Dogs (Cerberus, specifically), black lambs, serpents and screech owls
  • Precious jewels, money, metals
  • Cypress, white asphodel, mint, narcissus
  • Drinking horn
  • Sceptre
  • Key
  • Helm of darkness
  • Black, grey, silver, gold
  • Nighttime
  • Autumn and Winter
  • Cemeteries, crossroads, forests, caves and mines

Ideas for the Altar:

  • Black mirror
  • Black cloth
  • Dark stones, such as hematite, onyx, obsidian, jet and the like
  • Shells
  • Dirt from outside, or graveyard dirt
  • Black, grey or silver candles
  • Flowers (dried works well too)
  • Bones (ethically sourced)
  • Representations of any of His symbols, listed above
  • Money, especially rare coins
  • Silver, or other precious metals
  • Family heirlooms

Active Practice

Worship Etiquette:

  • As with all chthonic deities, offerings are usually poured down. Offerings that float up (such as incense) are less common, but can be used.
  • Food offerings are usually buried instead of eaten. However, if need be, you may eat them.
  • Offerings are often buried, poured down the drain, or into the trash. This is done to ‘complete’ the offering.
  • This is very traditional, but I want to include it for extra information. In a temple with a roof, offerings would often be left by His feet all day and then during at night. Also, since the Mycenaean period, priests of Άδης would rhythmically pound their hands on the ground whilst praying to Him. I will sometimes tap (not pound) my head to the floor while praying in honor of this tradition.
  • As always, be polite. Hades will forgive any mistakes with a forgiveness offerings and continued respect.

Ideas for Active Worship:

  • Saving money, and spending it wisely
  • Cleaning litter from cemeteries, and tending to old graves
  • Offerings to the dead, as well as money to the spirits of the dead to let them pass on, and donating the physical change
  • Collecting crystals and stones
  • Making an altar to tend dead spirits
  • Studying other cultures’ burial methods and cemetery rites
  • Donating to burial, mortuary or funeral services
  • If you communicate to spirits, treat them kindly and help them move on
  • Ancestral worship
  • Praying
  • Devotional poems and artwork
  • Dedicating items to Him, such as jewelry, a wand, or a specific bone
  • Working with death energy and dying plants during autumn and winter
  • Caring for dogs kindly
  • Reflecting on your thoughts and emotions on death 
  • Helping others who have experienced loss

Frequently Asked or Requested Information

Hades can help with:

  • Fears about death or dying
  • Suicidal tendencies
  • Chronic illness
  • Money and business
  • Creativity
  • Moving on 
  • Releasing regrets, guilt, and past relationships
  • Seasonal worship and practice
  • Earth magic and herb work
  • Recovery from trauma
  • Spirit work, namely spirits of the dead

You DO NOT need to:

  • Be a spirit worker or death worker in order to work with Him
  • Swear an oath with Him, unless you’re 110% sure to commit
  • Be a devotee in order to worship Him
  • Only worship Him
  • Speak super formally to Him
  • Be someone you’re not in order to worship Him

You DO need to:

  • Honor Him
  • Be respectful
  • ????
  • PROFIT

More Questions I’ve Answered

For more information on worshipping Hades–espeically devoteeism and oaths–you can check out this zine I published about Him, Pleading to Hades.

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