also the svetlana couch monologue redux in ep 6 is soooooooooooo. ahahaha. shane’s expression is like wow okay so which circle of hell is it where you have to sit on a hundred different couches listening to your boyfriend deliver his fucking I love pussy speech again. you cannot let this man get comfy on a sofa or he’ll just start spontaneously holding forth on the subject of how beautiful and sexy women are and how hot they are for ilya rozanov

“I have only been in love with one person” “same here. only one” no shit shane lmao nobody at that table was sitting there thinking you were out having a bunch of romantic entanglements. your parents are still visibly reeling from the revelation that you apparently have sexual desires (??). ilya meanwhile has been fucking you for the better part of a decade and still thinks of you as a hot nerdy virgin he’s about to deflower every single time he gets you naked (this gets him hot btw). we know there’s only one, babe

when I am feeing emotionally stronger I want to rewatch the couch scene svetlana speech: round 2. mostly for the part where shane’s like you don’t have to marry svetlana. you like women. you could find somebody you love for real. and you can see him just playing it out on his mind visibly bracing himself for a future where ilya falls in love with a woman and marries her and all shane will have left is the memory of those two weeks they had together at the cottage, a lifetime ago.

I don’t think that bed is even a queen. shane was like I actually replaced my king-sized mattress with a full back when I wasn’t sure if you’d be weird about snuggling with me

GOD the hayden phone call blowjob is UNBELIEVABLY hot. ilya just full-on deep throating shane on the couch. shane looking inwards and discovering like ok maybe i AM a little bit of a secret exhibitionist when i allow myself to be in touch with my inner slut. but THEN ilya being like mm you think it’s hot because you like to be bad??? and shane being like hey let me get serious with you for a minute… i’m gonna look so deeply into your eyes right now as i tell you that’s not how i think about this or you. i’m not indulging in some bad boy seduction fantasy here i just really fucking like you. and then ilya immediately deflecting with humor (“you love hayden?”) but he’s soooo HAPPY oh my god i’m gonna be SICK with feelings

when ilya admits that he hasn’t slept with anyone else since they last hooked up and shane’s like :DDDD really? no haha REALLY???? and ilya’s like oh my godddddddddd don’t look at meeeeeee i fucking like you okay don’t make me fucking SAY itttttt

when shane’s like hey why don’t we try this crazy new thing where we say what we think and feel instead of disguising our emotions behind layers of deflection and bro-y fuck yous and ilya’s like ummmmmm idk if i can make any promises….. cut to ilya opening his eyes the next morning half awake blurting out I LIKE YOUUUUUU!!!!!!! like he’d been practicing it in his sleep. baby’s first taste of emotional security lol he’s riding HIGH on that rush of feeling loved and safe