i do the reaping. i'm also a really attractive weapon (or so they say)
my miraculous human form
hehe get it slaying like killing
sticktastic fanart made by @silly-little-arson-frog-offical
psst. hey if you like any of my writing for some peculiar reason you can look through this masterpost
it's kind of crazy seeing white people in the US finally freaking out bc shit is happening to white men...
i have been afraid of this country my entire life. and i've been forced to be in uncomfortable situations with openly racist people bc no one gave a shit. "in the big 2025" shut the fuck up. none of these minority communities have ever gotten a break. it's only ever described as "unfortunate" and never a crisis when it still is and has always been urgent!!! but at the end of the day, people benefit from the harm of another group. we benefit from turning away from it and pretending it's not there.
i fear my brother being shot by a police officer someday. ever since i was young, i would get hostile stares from white men and knew what would happen if i were caught alone. but the fear and the anger i feel are used against me. i must be hateful, i must be difficult, i must be dramatic and oversensitive. i'm not justified in being loudly pro black. i'm wrong for protesting the pledge of allegiance. i'm wrong for hating the police. but it takes ALL of this for anyone to get upset? they couldn't even sustain interest in BLM once it wasn't trendy anymore. and now, unsurprisingly, black men are still being lynched. black women are still harassed and assaulted and abused and killed and no one gives a shit.
if this is what it takes, i don't think we're getting anywhere to be quite fucking honest.
tw for sexual assault in the tags
this but about ICE killing reneé good, a white woman. RIP, she did not deserve to die, she deserves justice. (but do NOT use "say her name" or "rest in power" because those originate from black culture + pro black movements like black lives matter. again, stop using our movements and our culture so disrespectfully)
but what people don't talk about enough is that a black man, keith porter, was killed by an off duty ICE officer on new year's eve.
see what i'm getting at here?
if yall won't change, if yall won't genuinely care about black people and ACTUALLY be woke (which is AAVE, look it up and stop misusing it or memeifying it), then i'm going to remain cynical about the future
as always it seems that we have to carry the burden of everyone's antiblackness and ignorance, not because we're born strong but because the conditions of this world mean we have to be.
BLACK LIVES MATTER.
I just got yelled at forrrrrr....
watching a commentary channel. Apparently D'Angelo Wallace is too gay for my father... so he spent like ten minutes just listening to what he was saying and skipping forward until he found something gay enough. The gay enough thing was someone who I think might've been transgender talking about intersex numbers. Lolz. He then threatened to take away all my devices forever if he saw me listening to d'angelo again. Obviously I'm going to keep doing it I just need to be more careful now.
jesus christ... he's just searching for things to be mad about
the constant control and judgement sounds suffocating, like your life is framed as a trial or something and not a myriad of experiences. you shouldn't have to constantly be on edge, i'm sorry.
It's okay. I'm just so sick of being at the will of my father's moods. He's honestly a child and I'm sick of his insecurity. He must know by now I'm not homophobic. Unfortunately for him he can't change me back. I'm so fucking sick and tired. I can't believe I lived this long. I don't want to live much longer like this.
🫂 i know you're tired and rightfully so. the biggest fuck you to your dad, i think, would be believing that there are better things in life for you than him + the conditions you're forced to live under. if you have to live out of spite and anger, so be it, bc you can only find joy and freedom if you survive.
about feeling that i'm both full of things to say, anger to express, but simultaneously feeling shallow and hollow. other people make me feel confined and isolated, but i still seek them out because of that hollow feeling, but then i feel confined and isolated by their actions and my reactions again. also you kind of have to keep quiet while you're changing and growing as a person, so you end up collapsing in on yourself again and again bc of the constant pressure. written to get over a brief writer's block.
star cycle
all the words just keep me on edge now
it's always the real shit that you can't talk about
feel so inferior, my interior's giving out
they only want to talk about their things
white tv shows with supernatural enemies
but at the same time, they're virtue signaling
and playing kendrick lamar while sympathizing with nazis
it makes me wonder why i'm even here
makes me feel shallow, yet i'm still drowning in the mirror
keep staring harder but nothing gets clearer
convinced that everyone and everything will disappoint me
pitying myself because no one will save me
maybe it's better that i learn these lessons now
stop pursuing friendships, relationships
focus on making this worthwhile
this blip in time, one storyline in a universe of chance and entropy
i can survive alone, i can survive giving up things
memories, ideas, family, friends, means to an end
i can start again with the remnants
but for now, there's a hole in my ceiling and a pit in my chest
and all the words just keep me on edge now
there is nothing that i can talk about
I just got yelled at forrrrrr....
watching a commentary channel. Apparently D'Angelo Wallace is too gay for my father... so he spent like ten minutes just listening to what he was saying and skipping forward until he found something gay enough. The gay enough thing was someone who I think might've been transgender talking about intersex numbers. Lolz. He then threatened to take away all my devices forever if he saw me listening to d'angelo again. Obviously I'm going to keep doing it I just need to be more careful now.
jesus christ... he's just searching for things to be mad about
the constant control and judgement sounds suffocating, like your life is framed as a trial or something and not a myriad of experiences. you shouldn't have to constantly be on edge, i'm sorry.
MY PARENTS ARE EVIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so basically i was looking through the Closet of Everything because my mom usually puts everything in there... and i wanted to find this little mini phone my sister used to have instead of sleeping. So while I was looking I found my wired headphones. Still connected to the adaptor i used to have to use because my surface pro didn't have a headphone jack. I mean I knew they took it off me but should I be mad they kept it for two years? I wouldn't have found it if I wasn't committing wrongdoings myself.
wtf why did they take it for two years your parents are evil 😭
WAS NO ONE GOING TO FUCKING TELL ME ALMOST ALL OF THE FOUNDING FATHERS OWNED SLAVES?
HELP you just found out? yep. that's why i hate hamilton bc why would i want to watch a musical w colonizers rapping
LMAOOOOOOO. WAIT. HAMILTON WAS A FOUNDING FATHER? I GENUINELY DIDN'T KNOW THAT I'M CACKLING... I THOUGHT HE WAS SOME RANDOM DRAMA QUEEN
technically no but he was definitely involved with the founding fathers. or maybe he was idk i black out on revolutionary war in history class bc i hate those fuckers.
THAT'S SO FAIR.... also like........ ew......... i'm so confused i thought hamilton was a literary himbo or something that is so not fun
Hamilton was too poor to own any slaves. The Schuyler family, which he married into, had some, however
Oh and George Washington’s dentures were made out of his slaves’ teeth. Messed up stuff. I hate America
WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT THE FUCK...... I HATE AMERICA TOO JESUS
yeah america is based on colonialism + racism + the abuse and oppression of black people (AND NATIVE AMERICANS) and was created for white men. "we the people" well who were considered "people" at that time? who did they consider to be people? that's why i don't do the pledge of allegiance and my family doesn't celebrate july 4th
WAS NO ONE GOING TO FUCKING TELL ME ALMOST ALL OF THE FOUNDING FATHERS OWNED SLAVES?
HELP you just found out? yep. that's why i hate hamilton bc why would i want to watch a musical w colonizers rapping
LMAOOOOOOO. WAIT. HAMILTON WAS A FOUNDING FATHER? I GENUINELY DIDN'T KNOW THAT I'M CACKLING... I THOUGHT HE WAS SOME RANDOM DRAMA QUEEN
technically no but he was definitely involved with the founding fathers. or maybe he was idk i black out on revolutionary war in history class bc i hate those fuckers.
THAT'S SO FAIR.... also like........ ew......... i'm so confused i thought hamilton was a literary himbo or something that is so not fun
no he was a bad person 😭 that's why like babygirl-ifying him is so egregious to me (i've noticed a trend of babygirl-ifying shitty white men in general amongst people my age)
bc why, instead of learning a single thing about black american history, are like 13 year olds posting edits of him and thomas jefferson and aaron burr and whoever
i also think the decision to have people of color star in the musical portraying their ancestors' oppressors was... a choice... and a lot of the musical (from what i've seen, which is clips + about half of it on streaming) is like "theatre style" hip-hop or rap which is black culture...
it's just propaganda but "woke" (wrong use of this word) propaganda + makes it seem "okay" for white people to obsess over
WAS NO ONE GOING TO FUCKING TELL ME ALMOST ALL OF THE FOUNDING FATHERS OWNED SLAVES?
HELP you just found out? yep. that's why i hate hamilton bc why would i want to watch a musical w colonizers rapping
LMAOOOOOOO. WAIT. HAMILTON WAS A FOUNDING FATHER? I GENUINELY DIDN'T KNOW THAT I'M CACKLING... I THOUGHT HE WAS SOME RANDOM DRAMA QUEEN
technically no but he was definitely involved with the founding fathers. or maybe he was idk i black out on revolutionary war in history class bc i hate those fuckers.
actually yes i do think you're a bad person if you defend bad people just because they're your family
if you defend your family members being racist, saying slurs, being misogynist, being around conservatives, and if you defend one of them being a creep and borderline sexually harassing your friends, you're a bad person
if you laugh along while they make racist jokes towards your 1 black friend, if you make said black friend feel bad for being uncomfortable around them, you are a bad person
you are who you surround yourself with and you have to be more than just against these things on the internet or in some hypothetical sense. you have to actually have zero tolerance for bigotry and for hatred + violence.
so i don't have to scroll through my blog to keep track of what i have/haven't posted
[more links to be added]
it's pretty close to done now
i know some are missing but i'll have to deal with those later.
some of these are ass, some of these are actually favorites of mine. if you decide to browse through, have fun and i'm sorry
