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I've been looking for a book for some years, was wondering if you've atleast heard of it. I can't find the video for the life of me but this old youtuber called "takedownman" had a video skimming it. I guess he did dark web exploration videos a decade ago when tor was still cool, it was titled something simple like KILLING. Content wise it was alot like Hit Man: A Technical Manual for Independent Contractors, except without any sort of flourish. Just a really in depth and clinical manual about the namesake. It would cover things like weaponry, the creation of poisons, and really detailed techniques. I remember a motto the author came up with in one of those sections: "Stop the breathing start the bleeding" when describing suffocation abbeting stabbing. Other than that, I don't recall much else, and the video I discovered it from might have been taken down
Oooh I love these sorts of questions!
They allow me to look through my records and also research some new titles I might not even know about yet!
I managed to find four other books you might possibly be thinking of. And I was not at all surprised to learn that they were all published by the notorious and unreliable weirdos at Paladin Press (same ones who published Hit Man)-
1. "Kill Without Joy! - The Complete How To Kill Book" by John Minnery
- Initially published in six volumes from 1973 to 1984 as "How to Kill"
- Full compilation published in 1992
- Full text available here
2. "The Death Dealer's Manual" by Bradley Steiner
- Published 1982
- Full text available here (this appears to be included as part of a collection of white supremacist texts so maybe proceed with caution)
3 "Twenty-One Techniques of Silent Killing" by Hei Long
- Published 1989
- Full text available here
4. "Black Medicine: The Dark Art of Death" by N. Mashiro
- Published 1978
- Full text available here
Are you interested in documenting underground zines as well as books? I know there are some great repositories for politics and art zines, but I'm wondering what getting 'suppressed' would look like in the zine world since zines are inherently kind've underground/counter-culture.
Ooooh I do love zines! I'd be overjoyed to learn of some more very rare ones.
On my iceberg chart, there is, in fact one zine in the "Suppressed" tier. I won't spoil which one it is, but here's some fun facts about it:
- The author was actually "cancelled" (I hate to use that term) after a sort of call out post right here on Tumblr dot com
- This zine was one of the very few works to be banned from Archive of Our Own, purely for content
- Curiously, the zine was arguably entirely G-rated, with nothing overtly inappropriate in it
Mysterious? It sure is. Let's see if anyone can puzzle out which one I mean.
I still can't believe we tolerated people going "normal people would think you're weird" OF COURSE THEY WOULD, THAT'S WHY I'M IN FANDOM, THE PLACE FOR WEIRDOS. IF I WANTED TO HANG OUT WITH NORMAL PEOPLE I'D GO TO THE LOCAL FAST FOOD RESTAURANT
Hiiiii do u perhaps have any rare books regarding taxidermy ?? Itās one of my rare niche interests and im always interested in what exists out there (( esp BAD taxidermy like did you even try to get this animal correct. Or mishmashed parts like some kind of Frankenstein. Like do you get me ?? ))
I don't think that I have found anything like that as part of my research honestly, sorry! š©
Although actually... oh wait... š¤
Wait just a minute! This actually did remind me about an incredibly bizarre and unexpected book that I found in the small cabinet that we called the "art library" inside of this prison I was involved with.
They kept a bunch of different art books in this cabinet and there was this one book - I think it probably was not actually very rare in the grand scheme of things, but it seemed so crazy at the time. Mainly because I could not have possibly predicted in a million years what the book was going to be about based on the title:
Like oh, "Restorative Art"? I thought okay, it must be somehow related to like art therapy or something, right? Well-
So, to put it another way, "restorative art" is what funeral homes do to make dead bodies look more natural and lifelike for when they have an open casket. Stuff like makeup and recreating damaged areas with wax or other fillers.
You cannot even imagine the look of utter bafflement on my face as I flipped through this book, being caught completely off-guard by the subject lol š
The full book is available to borrow here:
The social forces that prevent you from being able to admit to your own desires in the safety of your own mind are far more evil than any desire you could have.
Unacted desires are fundamentally neutral, and you can't decide what to do about the things you want unless you can admit to yourself what they are in the first place. Everyone has desires that would hurt other people if they acted on them, but most people would not actually go out and do anything they know would cause harm. Far more harm is done in this world by people who are trying to pretend they can't possibly want anything they think is bad than people running around going "ehehehe I love hurting people!"
Providing people with a way of exploring the dark parts of ourselves in a way that cannot hurt anyone is one of the purposes of both fiction and kink.
All of us have a hungry, horny, angry, scared animal inside ourselves. You do not need to excuse or justify what that animal wants, it simply is. You cannot escape it. Lying to yourself about the animal that you are will only give you less control over it, not more.
- Delphine Lecompte, Belgian poet
While Paladin Press tried to corner the market on books designed to teach you how to kill and maim, Loompanics Unlimited set out to cover as many other felonies as possible:
thing about censorship is that once you allow one thing to be censored, itās a domino effect from there.
you canāt only vouch for the censorship of things you personally hate. because if those things can be censored, everything else can and will be censored too eventually, until all thatās left of art is just rainbow and sunshine and heterosexual stuff of conservative values.
itās either nothing is censored or everythingāthat is not rainbow and sunshine and heterosexual and of conservative valuesāis censored.
ābut it makes me uncomfortableā the block button is there. you can also filter out specific words/tags of what you donāt want to see. thatās how you curate your own internet experience and protect your own peace of mind. you do it by rightfully choosing not to consume (or even see) what makes you uncomfortable, what upsets you. but you donāt do it by demanding that others censor themselves just to cater to your personal comfort.
You know who supports freedom of speech for things that they already agree with?
Everyone.
Every human who has ever lived has supported free speech when it's something that they already agree with. Even Hitler and Stalin both supported speech that they liked.
The real test to see if you support Freedom of Speech is if you are willing to defend topics even if they disgust you.
Hi !!! cheers for doing all that you do to archive what you can, often times things that are seen as āsickeningā or just pure shock content get lost pretty easy. :(
but to me, shock content is one of the most highest form of artworks we can create as humans. To quote a tumblr post: art should physically harm you /hj
Fictional works that last in your brain for weeks after you last viewed it- oh how I wished as a young creator to view a museum exhibit full of nothing but ādepravedā artwork and things that burn their images directly into the back of your mindā¦
One thing that fuels me now as a creator is making my work as memorable as possible !! as I have brain damage from an attack, I struggle with the idea that things about me can just be forgotten so so easily. My reason to create ādisturbingā pieces of art is so I can somehow fulfil the idea that something Iāve created lasts in a persons brain. The idea that somehow someone wouldnāt be able to get something ive created out of their head fuels my passion so much more. šš
My apologies for the long text, just wanted to really make it known how appreciated you are for what youāre doing. If you ever choose to get a kofi, Iād love to support you for your work youāve done. :)
Thank you friend, that's a wonderful message.
When you have something you need to say, the worst fate is to be ignored and forgotten. And discomfort is often the price of being remembered.
The whole purpose of art is to make the audience feel something - but that does not mean it must be something pleasant.
Erasing art because it provokes feeling too strongly cuts directly against the very reason art exists in the first place.




