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Instead of Depression

by Andrea Gibson

try calling it hibernation. Imagine the darkness is a cave in which you will be nurtured by doing absolutely nothing. Hibernating animals don’t even dream. It’s okay if you can’t imagine Spring. Sleep through the alarm of the world. Name your hopelessness a quiet hollow, a place you go to heal, a den you dug, Sweetheart, instead of a grave.

When I tried to kill the part of myself that feels desire, it felt like a bird fluttering in my hand. I could feel the snapping of its bones and the panic in its wings and its heart racing faster and faster. I could've done it, too. I could've lived life like a clenched fist. But instead, I did something worse. At the last second, before I squeezed it into feathers and blood, I impulsively changed course and swallowed it whole. Scraping by my teeth and down, and down, and down. I think it's poisoning me now. But at least I can still write freaky porn about the joker getting big and round and wet and pregnant and

womanhood, am i right. haha

get it because in the ball scene, nanami thinks juri lays eggs and is carrying an egg but the egg is a ball. the joke is that juri does not lay eggs. they highlight the egg is a ball. the ball is hidden in a bag (shell), and the color of it itself is orange. juri's color. ball. sex symbol. utena symbolism. get it. trans. transgender. no eggs. no uterus.

you WILL read the analysis ill make on this soon.

So I've got this friend whose nervous because she's trans and dating this guy who she hasn't told yet because they've only been on a two dates. For this story let's call the friend Jane and the guy she was dating Jason. Happy ending don't worry.

So I tell Jane to bring her boy over to a bbq I'm having and she can tell him she's trans at my place surrounded by queer and trans people who love her and will support her if he ends up being awful.

She waits till the end of the bbq to tell him the news, by which point the rest of us have learned that Jason is a kind, friendly, empathetic, hard working, dummy. So we sit down, all of us a little worried about this gym bro's reaction when she tells him she's trans, and that she understands if he doesn't want to keep dating her it's no big deal.

He's baffled, so we explain what trans is, and after the disclosure that she hasn't had bottom surgery yet...

"Oh you have a dick?"

"... yeah."

He look's around at the room full of people with baited breath, his clearly a little afraid girl friend says

"Oooohhhh! I get it! You think- don't worry Babe! Watch this!"

And ya'll this man jumps up, runs into the kitchen and returns with one of the bratwurst we had for grilling and proceeds to tilt his head back, put it down his throat, hold it in his mouth for a moment, and spit it up without even a whisper of a gag and then looks around at the group absolutely beaming with pride.

My mans saw his worried girlfriend and her support network and thought to him self "Oh they don't think I can't please my girl, but I'll show them!"

I do feel the need to add that later he excitedly tell the group that as a straight guy, he never thought that skill would be useful outside hotdog eating contests.

"Man its too bad that im straight since I've got like no gag reflex and all."

"Honey, I must tell you, i am in fact trans and I have not had bottom surgery."

"My god... everything's coming up Jason."

Pure of heart dumb of ass hetero of sexual

Nagito Komaeda and His Free Time Events (or the Ultimate Nagito Komaeda Free Time Document)

... Well, and what would you know?

I did it.

Before you venture forth, a few things:

This is basically all Free Time content compiled as part of my own personal initiative to compile as many Komaeda lines as I possibly can for the purposes of easily accessing the source for research. I have this hellish google document with (almost) all Japanese lines from the game, but it's just a waterfall of screenshots that is not parsable to mortals. Additionally, making it parsable to mortals would take a herculean amount of time, which is why I only keep making mention of this google document instead of sharing it for the good of science.

However, when it comes to Free Time, I've made a lot of references to its content, along with pointing out things that would be useful for others to know like nuances in translation etc, that I felt would be a shame if scattered between all my text walls. The content is small compared to... The rest of the entire game, so I figured that I could at least share a fraction of my accursed research and also analyse the free time events in a complete way, sort of putting the matter to an end unless my brain somehow comes up with more.

This is about the free time event content, so whenever there's a tangent about very different concepts, I make reference to posts I've made about them, and if you're curious, you can refer to my hopefully very organized masterlist where you'll find everything relevant listed. Anyway with this in mind, the document will probably speak for itself so I'll shut up now. I hope it will be something interesting to read, that you have fun and most importantly that you have a nice day!!

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