Okay so all esoteric bullshit and vanity aside, 2025 was a fucking terrible year. I’d be remiss not to mention—before talking about myself and how “my” year was— that death machine that is the US government is waging war on its own people (whether it be immigrants, people of color, women, trans people OR LITERALLY ANYONE given the insurmountable cost of living and social/health/educational institutions being gutted), waging war on the rest of the world (the global south especially), and assisting Israel in its continual genocide against the people of Palestine. It’s a list that goes on and on. The state’s capacity for violence and greed is anything but new, it’s just been allowed to accelerate that evil more and more by the fucking day. The founding of America was a project of colonization and imperialism, and America (regardless of who’s president or who’s in our legislative branch) will continue those traditions as long as it exists. D34TH to the Imperial core of nations and its allies.
As far as me, between getting pneumonia in January and then Lyme’s, I spent almost half of 2025 considerably sick. Aside from a couple of demos, i did not release music in an official capacity. Have made “good” progress on the next album, but not nearly as much as I would like. Over the past couple of years I have developed pretty severe obsessions and compulsions around recording music that are, frankly, paralyzing and heartbreaking and have made continuing work on record difficult and slow going.Hard to describe but will talk more about it one day. The thing I love the most in the world (and find the most “purpose” in doing) feels “tainted” and I’m going to find my way back to the art but for now, that’s where I’m at.
On the flip side, I played some sick shows with wonderful people in beautiful places and for that i am very grateful. I have an amazing boyfriend, friends and artistic mentors who have absolutely saved me this past year, i love you all so fucking much. I don’t know if 2026 is going to be “my year” but i am going to work my absolute hardest (both on my art and on myself) to make sure if it’s not my year, 2027 will be. If you purchased my music, reached out to me on tumblr, even just listened in 2025, i love you and thank you for being patient with me, the album is coming.
