It's my birthday and I finally uploaded something, it only took me three years lol But yeah, I hope you all enjoy my new sona, he's been a part of me for a while now I figure it was finaly time to show him off.

Other than that, it has admittingly been a pretty hard year for me, lots of ups and downs, but through it all, I had my lovely friends and family, my loved ones who never gave up on me and helped me get through this, I don't know how I would of otherwise, I owe them a lot. But right here and now, it's nice to reach out to everyone here and I hope you all no matter what life throws at you, never stop being yourself and never give up, we have to be there for each other and help one another, we are never alone and that is something I will always cherish. Love you guys so much and thank you for everything <3

Hey guys, I'm still here and around, haven't posted much in a while but I am still active, I just wanted to give you all an update and let you all know it's my birthday too

It's been a rough year for a lot of people and things might seem dark on the horizon but keep fighting, keep moving forward, together we will bring about a brighter future, never give up on hope, you all got this, I believe in you all! ^_^

Love you all so much <3

My awesome friend is currently open for commissions and I wanted to sent them some love and support and give them a shoutout here: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10915572/

Wow, I can't believe it's been ten whole years since I first made this account way back then, and what a journey it's been since. Now I know recently this site has had a little kerfuffle but now that things are stable again, I feel like it's the best time to me making a journal like this

And yet I'm not even sure what to say that hasn't already been said, I've made so many amazing memories since I joined the fandom, I've forged so many bonds, made friends who are with me every day and I'm very grateful for all of it. I suppose I just want to let you all know how thankful I am to each and everyone of you, I've learned a lot this past decade and it's shown me and helped me discover who I really am.

So yeah, there has been one significant change this year, I have really gotten into FFXIV since last year and I've had quite a journey with that, it's been a meaningful experience and as it turns out, now I have two sonas, both who are Nem. I saw so much of myself in my Hrothgar and my journey with him that he became my sona, now there are two Nems, a Raccoon Keyblade Master and a Hrothgar Warrior of Light. I will definitely have to show you guys more of him when I can, I think you're all gonna love him. But yeah, that's all I wanted to say, thank you so much for everything, let's see where this all goes ^_^

Yup today is my birthday and I'm excited because it's been quite a milestone for me, and next year will be another milestone, officially reaching 10 years within the furry fandom.

I have to say, I am very grateful for all that I've received over the years, good friends, good memories and a community that makes me feel treasured and appreciated for being who I am, I couldn't ask for me.

I know I haven't exactly been very active as of late, but I am always around at the places you can reach me, such as Discord and Telegram. Either way, kove you guys so much and thank you for always being there for me <3

It’s been a while folks but for the most part I been doing alrighty!

I hope you all have been doing well and I am looking forward to having some more fun with you all! ^_^

Raxki is one of my besties and he’s in a rough situation right now, if any of you could help him out, or even spread the word, I appreciate it:

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10290426/

Sorry I been so quiet lately, I honestly been pretty busy since we last spoke but I thought I'd let you all know I'm doing okay, some rough patches here and there but things are looking up ^_^

I think the thing that's been most new to me is that I really got into Genshin Impact and I been it's quickly became one of my favorites, holding a special place in my heart <3

So if any of you guys play you lemmie know XD Other than that I been sort of getting back into certain things I used to love so that's been fun, and overall I am doing well, I am blessed with family and friends who care about me and I truly hope all of you are doing well, to all of you reading this thank you so much for being here for me, I love you all! :D

Well it's that time of year again and I also missed my seven year anniversary on FA so I figured I might as well just do them both today haha.

I also thought I'd give you guys a little update on myself and everything. Truth be told, I just been keeping on keeping on ever since the pandemic first started, and this year thankfully things did improve, I got vaccinated, even got the booster, and I been able to enjoy the things I did before, so things are slowly getting better, I have hope for the future, for a brighter future. This year I just kind of been getting back into the things I really love, stuff like the Marvel Cinematic Universe and My Hero Academia, while also catching up on all the games I needed to play. heck even Sora got in Smash which was super cool. I also just been trying to focus on my family and friends and spend time with both of them. The side effect of all of this being I haven't really commissioned much of anything, and I haven't felt the need to post or even talk much on social media, focusing more on myself and my own way of trying to have fun.

I also wanted to thank all my friends who've been there for me, who've helped me, who've made me feel like I'm worth something to them, who have been the best kind of friends I could ever hope for. I been on this site for seven years and it's open the door to meeting so many wonderful people who are in my life, and I'm truly grateful for it. You guys are amazing. And I truly wish the best for all of you, I know things haven't been easy, this year has been rough on everybody but we are all trying to get by, trying to be there for one another and I like to think that counts for something.

So yeah, thank you everyone for the birthday wishes, you guys are seriously the best friends I got and I love all of you very much <3

My friend is struggling go pay some expenses, they’re looking after their mom and they need some help, once they get paid they’re going to pay back those who helped them but they need a little help right now, just spreading the word

https://twitter.com/mishantidurr/st.....715807236?s=21

https://twitter.com/mishantidurr/st.....017948677?s=21

https://twitter.com/mishantidurr/st.....861475329?s=21

You can probably guess why I’m really happy right now ;3

Heya my friend Foxxo is officially open for commissions! He's a great artist and this is his first opening for artwork and I'd greatly appreciate you all checking him out!

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/41023007/

Also a little update on myself, things are fine, just been keeping on keeping on, and stuff, it's been a little rough here and there but for the most part I been doing well, I hope you all have been doing good yourselves, with the vaccines going out I hope we all can get it soon and have a safer year for all of us. Love you all <3

Yup, what a year to turn 30 am I right? But it's true, it is my 30th birthday and I'm gonna celebrate hard. But I also wanted to leave you guys an update and thoughts about myself and this crazy year of ours.

This year has been very rough on everyone, including myself. At first all the way back in April I thought this would last only a little bit but this thing got worse and worse, back then most of my quality time I spent with family was out in restaurants but now we can't even enjoy that, we been playing it safe and trying to be indoors and yet despite doing what I did so many times, I miss the time I spent going out and spending time with my loved ones, enjoying ourselves and having fun. We weren't really able to do that on any of the holidays and birthdays this year too. I also really miss going out to the bookstores and spending time reading there all day.

But we made it work, we would bring a cake, sing happy birthday, huddle around each other, we stood together and made something of what we had. And doing all that gives me hope, hope for us all and for our sprit of perseverance. Because I know this is only temporary, one day we will go out again, experience our favorite places, get to go eat what we'd like, get to even spend all day in a bookstore. I know we will be able to do those things again. And that is what keeps me going, the hope of a brighter future.

And I wanna thank all my friends this year who've been there for me, who've supported me, who loved and cared for me. I owe so much to you guys, so much to my fans and the people who admire my work, I'm so humbled by you all and you all make me me so happy. I only hope I can also make you all happy as well. Thank you so much ^_^

So it’s that time already, and this time I actually remembered to do a journal.


So yeah six years is a long time to be here on FA but I’m so grateful for all my friends, the memories we’ve created, the fun times we’ve had and all the positive reception I’ve gotten. It’s been really great and I’m honestly really humbled by it all.


I know this year has been really really rough on all of you, and honestly it’s been rough on me too, and throughout my struggles the one thing that’s kept me going is hope, hope for a brighter future, for great days, for a time when we can do all the things we used to do. I know that time will arrive, as sure as the sun will shine tomorrow.


I love you all and thank you for making me truly feel welcomed here in the fandom, I’m sure I’m going to have many more fun times in the future and you can except a whole lot of Nem to be around. I had a silly idea for a name too, how’s ‘Nemesis Nemstar’ sound? You can tell I got into Jojo this year x3 Anyway, love you all and may your heart by your guiding key ❤️

So considering I have a massive backlog of TF Sheets waiting to be uploaded, I decided to have some fun with it and make it a weekly little event, posting a TF Sheet each Tuesday, something for you all to look forward to! What's a TF Sheet you ask? Well, as many of you know, I love doing all sorts of toon physics fun, and while Nem is immune to all TF, he is a master at TFing others, squishing them and whathaveyou, and I commssioned quite a few sheets of furs all compressed into many sorts of forms, so it would be fun to show these all off! Hope you all have as much fun as I do!

Heya guys! I’ll be at FC2020 this year, it’ll actually be my fifth FC so I’m very excited to come back! If any of you are going let me know, I’m excited to see all my friends and hang out ^_^

Well actually, it's the same Nem but new in that a lot of things have happened this year. This has easily been one of the hardest years of the decade, maybe the hardest to be honest with you. Lots of good highlights, things like KH3 and new friends but also some hard times as well, really hard times. I had a lot of things hurt me but also a lot of things that supported me, something I am grateful for.

I have had a lot of hardships but those have improved my character and strengthen my resolve, it gave me hope for the future, for brighter days. I know I had a lot of hurt but it didn't change me, it didn't make me into a vengeful or bitter person, it didn't make me into someone who is jaded or cynical, who is angry at life and the world.

I've met people who didn't understand that, people who held grudges, who held resentment and rancor. Who held things against me, rather than talking to me, they simply pretended everything was okay but inside they let it grow into something until it was too late, and then they were gone. It's strange, because there are times where I wonder where I did wrong but it was time for me to accept that it wasn't my fault, they let 'me' down, they decided to give into negativity instead of love, they choose to harbor such toxic feelings.

And my best friends were always kind to me, and I never understood why more people weren't like them? I guess that's what makes them special, our connection, our bonds, the love we have for each other, nothing can change that or compromise that in anyway, and while I was looking to expand my circle and I have, don't get my wrong, there are those who weren't good to me who I had to accept were never going to be good to me and in the end... I"m still a winner because I still have my best friends, who will always be there for me <3

Despite what people might or might not be saying, I have a lot of hope this year. Yeah I know last year I barely uploaded anything but I did get art and art I definitely need to upload and show to everyone, more Nem cause everyone loves him XD And I love you guys, you all been very supportive of me and you all like me for who I am, and I'm very grateful for that. So to everyone, I wish you all the best in this new year ^_^

Heya everyone! This year has been a doozy hasn’t it? But I just wanted to go and say I wish you all a very safe and wonderful Christmas today, I love you guys ❤️

It’s my birthday today! Reflecting back it’s been a rough year, recently things been all sorts of ups and downs for me but I am really happy and grateful to have friends in my life who love and care about me for who I am, never asking me to change who I am and always appreciating me and my company, you are the kind of people who matter to me, who make me feel special. I love you guys ❤️

It's been five years since I officially joined the furry fandom. And it's been a crazy couple of years, in both good and not so good ways but it's all helped me find who I am. I wanted this journal to be both an update on my current situations and also a reflection and celebration of my five years here.


Let's begin with reflecting first. When I came into all this, I had no idea what was in store for me, throughout the years I made so many friends, so many people who I got to share experiences, laughter, heartache, joy, anger, regret, anxiety and love. I presented myself to this world and I asked what they thought of me. As it turns out, I'm more likable than I thought I was, I have gotten to know so many people from all sorts of circles.

So as for the good stuff that's happened, I made a real life best friend, one who's probably gonna be in my life until the end, and I made several best friends online, people who I know are going to be part of my life from now on. For the longest time in my life I was lonely, just growing up with little to no friends, and now, I'm surrounded by them, my heart has bonded with them and made connections with all of them. They support me as I support them. And I'm so grateful to all of them.

As for the other stuff, there have been rough moments, regrets and actions that resulted in things going sour for me, I have had my heart broken more than once, and experienced pain that I never thought I'd go through, I've lost friends, I've made enemies, I've made multiple mistakes. And it never gets easier as time goes. But even then, throughout my failures, I feel blessed because they shaped me and made me who I am today, I have what I have because of my choices and I don't think I'd change a thing.

I been to cons, been outside of my comfort zone, had so many adventures and I just been so happy, I been really happy these past five years, and I've gotten so many art and so many good memories, you guys just really love Nem and love me too and it makes me feel so humbled and loved and it's such an amazing feeling. I know I'm going to stick around for many more adventures, many more fun times. I'm looking foward to each of them. Five years ago I was alone, any anymore.



As for an update on myself, you can tell from my last journal I haven't made one since or even really uploaded. I apologize greatly for that, there are a couple of reasons. One of them was just I had so much fun time with my friends that I got too caught up and forget to do anything with my gallery. The other is a lot harder to say, I have been going through some major financial issues this year, worse than I've experienced in the last five years, I wasn't able to go to BLFC this year and it actually got to me, and put me through a lot of emotional struggles. My own experiences with anxiety and depression got worse, as well as my own OCD.

On top of that, I also experienced a loss of a friend, someone who I really liked and one day, just one little fight and they’re gone, they left me. I had my heart broken, all that just combined left me apathetic and now really motivated to do anything. I do have some things I still need to upload and I will eventually but for now, this year has been so rough and I just been trying to focus on healing and feeling better, on taking things one day at a time and trust me you guys have helped me with that a lot more than you know. And I know I will get better and I know I'll get back to being myself and feeling great and happy. And I do really feel great and happy everyday and it's because of the love of my friends and family.



You guys are seriously the best, I wanna wrap this journal up by saying thank you so much, from the bottom of my heart thank you, for accepting me, for loving me, for telling me who awesome I am but also how much of a silly dork I am too, for saying how much you love my fursona, for being a fan of Nem all these years, for showing me that I matter in so many ways, to so many people, that I connected and influenced and changed your lives. That is something I will always carry within my heart. I love all of you, and here's to another five years <3

Heya everyone! I just wanted to go and wish you all a wonderful Valentine’s Day and thank you all for the love you’ve given me over the years, I can only hope to give you all as much love as that or hopefully even greater ^_^

So I'm back from FC and I gotta say, that was one amazing convention, getting to see my friends, and making some new ones along the way, I am just so happy that I decided to go this year. I wasn't entirely sure for the longest time but there were many factors in going and i'm glad I did, it was awesome.

I also noticed that I reached the 30,000 Page View milestone and I wanted to take this opportunity to really thank each and everyone of you, I'm so happy you all really like Nem and really enjoy the silly stuff I get, you guys are seriously the best and I can't wait to get more stuff and show them all to you. It's going to be really fun ^_^

It’s a bit last minute I know but I just wanted to let you all know I’ll at FC this year and I hope I can meet some of you there. I am sure we are all going to have an awesome time and I am very much looking forward to it ^_^

Hotel
Hilton

Arrival/Departure
Thursday Morning/Tuesday Morning

Means of transportation
Car

Sharing a room with
Some new friends I made

Who do you hang out with?
Everyone, I want to make as many friends as I can.

Hoping to meet (or see again)

Many MANY people

Gender
Male

How old are you?
27

How tall are you?
5'7"

Are you an Artist?
If you consider writing being an artist :3

Are you a Fursuiter?
Nope

What's your fursuit?
Don't got one

Attending parties?
I hope so!

Do you drink?
Sometimes :3

Can I buy you a drink?
Depends ;3

Do you smoke?
Never

Are you attending any panels?
I have some on my mind, like the voice acting panel, but I rather hang out with my friends.

Stage or public performance?
I love karaoke

How do I identify my self to you?
Like a normal person XD

Rules of engagement (physical contact)?
Handshakes are good and hugs are adored, just be friendly to me and I'll be friendly to you ^_^

How can I find you?
I'll be wearing my badges, I also have a Telegram and Twitter ^_^

Can I talk to you?
Of course!

Can I give you lots of money?
What's the catch? :P

Can I give you stuff?
What kind? :3

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
I love these things! ^_^

Can I come to dinner with you?
Sounds fun!

Can I hang out with you?
You bet!

Can I take your picture?
Ask first.

How do I know if you're not looking to socialize (angry, busy or upset)?
I usually am always open to socialize XD

Personality Type?
Me? I'm just a happy, silly raccoon who loves making people happy and laugh, I aim to bring smiles and make sure everyone is having a good time ^_^

What's your goal for the con this year?
I want make to make as many friends as I can and have an awesome time there! ^_^

So I don't know if anyone noticed but like I didn't upload until paw day of last year. There is a lot behind that. Last year was pretty rough for me emotionally, I had a lot of things I went through and it wasn't easy. I also saw my friends go through things too and that had an effect on me. I started to just feel a sort of distance and eventually I forget to even upload here anymore.


Now this is the new year and for the most part, it's hard to explain, but I still feel a sense of longing, a sense of distance, I had a lot of friends I talked to over the years but everyone has been so quiet and eventually it was only a handful I chatted regularly. I admit, I have my own issues I deal with, like anxiety, depression OCD, etc. But I am doing my best to work on them and to work on myself, to better myself.


I wanna be able to have what I had before, a large circle of friends and people that make me happy and that I make happy in return. I wish to feel that closeness and that kinship again. I wanna work towards that. And I think this will be a great year for me. I'm really excited about Kingdom Hearts 3 and I know that is going to be something that's really gonna change me in a good way, a positive way ^_^


I wanna thank everyone, when I uploaded those pictures I didn't expect it would be looked at but I see all these favorites from people I knew and who still like me and the stuff I get, who enjoy Nem in these artworks. It means a lot to me. I'm very grateful to you all and I promise you will see the Nem you all know and love, and I will do my best for all of you <3

Hope you all have a wonderful new year! I’m very much looking forward to many things this year and I can tell it’s going to be a very awesome year :D