So to safe my work profile from having a ton of annoying journal about BS people don't like to hear, I am going to start updating my progress about things here.

I would love to hear feedback, because honestly, I am scared and nervous!

I talk a lot about depression and stuff in this journal, just a warning.

Okay. Most of you knew I was dealing with migraines. On top of migraines I have TB, infections, hormone issues. I have mental illnesses like depression, anxiety, and PTSD. For years I've dealt with crippling self harm issues. I've attempted suicide. I've wanted nothing more but to kill myself and be done with it. My emotions would drain me and make me sick. I was sick a lot. Throwing up for hours. I would cramp just from my periods. Two periods a month.

I did my best to deal with it the best I could, but after my last problem with self harm less than a year ago... I felt like I needed to make big changes.

One of my biggest changes is seeking help. I recently went to the doctor for the first time in almost 6 years and I was there for three hours while they went through the list of problems I have.

Nothing, so far, is life threatening, but I am on a LOT of medication. I still have about 4 more doctor appointments in the next month to go to. I need to make changes to the birth control because I am super sensitive to hormones. Once a month I basically have morning sickness. It sucks to throw up all night.

I am on antibiotics because I have some issues there. It sucks because they just make me SICK.

I am on anti-depressants, which were easier to adjust to, infact it's made life a lot better... But we will see. I still have to get a CT scan, see a neurologist and get some meds for TB.

Anyways. That's why I am so back and forth with art lately.