So I've never done one of these before, and right now I'm wondering if it's even a good idea.

Today has been awful. Bad weather, achey joints, and my Mate is mad at me. There was a communications error or something when I was given directions to her new place in order to come pick her up. Well, I go to the apartment she tells me to go to, and sure enough, nobody answers the door. I even try the patio door, and nothing. I try again several times, and even take the time to search the entire complex in case I made a mistake, or she was out for a walk. But no. So I get home, and let her know how upset I was. Admittedly, I was probably too mean about what I said. Maybe it was how I said it, I don't know... She says she was there the whole time, and just didn't hear me knock.

I don't know what to believe in this. If it were my own car I'd been driving, this wouldn't have bothered me so much. But with my brakes out, I have to borrow a car each time I go see her. And I love my panda more than anything. She knows that I do everything in my power to come see her all the time.

I feel so bad for how I snapped at her over it. I don't even care who's right about it, I'm just sorry that I took my frustration out on her. And since she's probably the only person who will read this... I'm sorry Amber. I really am.