I have been in such a funk lately, unfortunately this has affected my art. I am exhausted a lot, so energy to create has took a plunge. I am currently in a lot of stuff, too much to list but to be vague if you didn't already know; I have a chronic illness, aute immune issues, pain issues, it brings certain disabilities sometimes, I go through good days an then struggle on some other days, sometimes months, and on top of that I am also mildly autistic so I can come off as very withdrawal but really I am just busy with a lot of stuff in my real life. Easily overwhelmed.
Anyway I wish so much to post great art, I worry a lot about my art being good enough to post even though I know I probably shouldn't worry but it is part of my issue, I often am trying too hard to please myself and yes I am my own worst critic, so I get very critical of my art. Half of what I draw never gets seen. I use to have more confidence but I think that is because I was once younger, more energy, and my invisible illness hadn't completely started attacking my own body ( part of auto immune issues if you didn't know.) It's amazing me right now I even have the energy to type this much on a simple unfinished drawing I did, but still the critic nit picks at it, oh those darn perfectionist voices. What is wrong with the eyes, Their not like the rest I've done, Maybe this worries me, maybe their too big, maybe their too "bugging out" maybe the hair isn't as smooth as I was hoping for the lines to be, and yes even tho it is unfinished maybe every thing about the simple sweater is wrong. Maybe it is a "okay" drawing but not "great." No I am not asking or looking for feedback or pity lol, I couldn't handle that shit with my type of issues going on. I am lucky enough to somehow be willing to post this,and even talk about myself I guess somewhere deep inside me I find this drawing a bit worthy to share.

Effing emo Tigsy right now, ha. Well here is an unfinished Tigsy Kai, a Tiny Freckled Tigress. It's very important to me that people know she is freckled, cause i finally embraced my freckles in real life and so did my fursona cause she is suppose to mirror me.. Lately something has been stirring in my head...The idea of going back to my very original tigress colors( with my red long hair, freckles and blueish green eyes), back when I first started in the furry world I went by the name Maharetkitty, and she was a pink tigress, I don't know why I choose pink, I guess I thought it made her more unique cause there is many tigers in the furry world, many typical colored ones, orange, or white,you know the typical common color charts... I always want to stand out. I think pink started out as just a sort of joke like how some talk about getting high on something an seeing pink elephants, as hallucinations. I was more active in the furry community as maharetkitty so I actually have a few lovely drawings of her by other artists as I back then would also trade art back an forth a lot or gift art people I adored. I went back to being a Tiger fursona when I moved to Hawaii in 2015 ( I was Foux, a fenced fox/tabby cat mix for several years) but as you can see I want to have more focus on my main rather than Foux now days, Foux is still cherished, she will always be my second hand girl but Tigsy is me, all the way.

I DO WELCOME ANY NICE COMMENTS ABOUT THE COLOR ISSUE, If you need a look at Maharetkitty and what she looked like when I first was around, head over to Maharetkitty.deviantart.com or look in my Maharetkitty (Old Artwork) Album , it has scraps of my extremely old artwork ( Remember the artwork is really old, I am mainly just wondering what people would think if I was to go back to those body colors instead of my current one which is the typical orange/white with black stripes)

I do know this is missing her black stripes, those will come later when I have more energy.