My baby girl Zozo..
I will never stop talking about you, I will tell your life's story to anyone who will be willing to listen, I will never let your spirit fade
You were near on 22 years old when you couldn't manage to be with us any more
I thank you so so so much for being with me, for giving it your all for me, for staying with me as long as you did

I have dreaded the day of your passing, for over 20 years
I cried for you, all those years ago, because it was inevitable, I knew the universe would eventually take you from me

It feels like a horrific dream, having to confront the reality, again and again that you are gone
I keep finding myself in deep panic attacks with uncontrollable crying, gasping for air
That plunging coldness, the terror in my chest

It won't stop

I miss you so much
I feel so empty

The death of my first baby, my precious baby girl
My childhood friend since I was a young girl
Your gentle green eyes have and will always, hold such a large piece of my heart

Your teachings will live on in your brother, Taiga, may you give him strength as he now must fill the gaping void in my heart

May you rest peacefully into eternity