Ah, that sounds really annoying. Luckily I don't have any friends that live near me, so I don't get bothered that way. I actually want to get invited to stuff, though, my only friends are nerds so they know how to actually have a good time, but I'm often forgotten about. Unfortunately I've been told that my friends' friends are intimidated by me simply because I'm physically female. I don't even act like a girl. >_>

Anyways, it's not fair to you that people can't accept you for who the are. I can understand them trying to help, but from what you are saying it sounds more like they are extroverted people who don't know how to deal with introverts. I know that can be super insulting.

Unfortunately, what is wrong is not just holiday guilt. I feel this kind of guilt ALL the time. The people around me have situations like abusive/toxic families, or are too poor to afford food or go to the doctor. I have a very loving mother and we're not poor (anymore, I grew up poor but things changed) and we have insurance which helped me get treatment for my MS (not to mention all the doctors I had to go to to figure out what was wrong with me. Took several months for that). I know I'm super-lucky and it makes me hate myself even more for being depressed.

i hope it gets better for you

I know how bad it is ti be depressed. I hope you'll feel better soon.

Is there something i can do? Or should just leave you alone?

*to be